hit back in reality, you knw dreams are only meant for sleeping.

FRUITIES FINALLY MET UP! =D
VERY NICE TO SEE ALMOST EVERYONE THRE CEPT FO MOTHER QUEK.
visited grapevine t meet up with my chio-est friends aft dinn at ben's place.
realise ben is very nice, always inviting me ovr t hav dinn. nd make sure i ve my fill before i leave. but always petty lo, if i dont wanna go then she will nag nag nag. LOLs
oh wait, BACK T MY FRUITIES gathering. so it was great seeing em' aft so long. all of em' re either working or schling soon. jst hope we can hav more of such meetings t get tgt nd laugh our internal organs out alrights! most imptly cam-whoring plays a strong role for FRUITIES. keep all cheezy photos as beautiful memories ((:
all was good. aft which went me nd val went fo supper at hongkong cafe. then im off t zoukieee.


workworkWORK..
been burning all my weekends working. right nw, cash is more impt than anything. haa
gosh.. anw i been betting soccer quite abit lately. i know girls aint suppose t bet, bcuz they look awful. girls always at th losing end, grrrr!

anw work has been fine except some stupid mistakes i always make. got val into trouble by having t do refunds nd all. am sorry dearest, i will do it carefully nd most imptly consult before i do anything im nt sure 1st k. gon decrease th mistakes i make during work, nd i think i ve been doing okay since each time i work i gt lesser mistakes done nd im more familiar with th cashier system now(: for now, gotta learn t speed up.


woah, been having 3hrs of sleep each night. darn bad fo health gosh..
aft wed of zouk, i guess i havent had enuff fun tht night. i went t zouk agn on friday-.-
i wasnt really wanting t go, but phone kept ringing. one calls, another text.
darn, so i made up my mind nd went down cashless. bcuz i can be signed in, nd i ll be sent hm. so my fren says, no money jst come down. everything covered(: soo, cabbed down aft hongkong cafe with val dearest. so much i wish she will follow me thre, but she cant ): super sad. went down alone t meet tht bunch of crazy people. HAHAs
im glad i controlled th amount of alcohol i drank knowing tht i have t work th nxt morn.
aft zouk, visited th thai pub. didnt wanna go bcuz i really wish i cn go back early t catch more sleeps. but this particular someone kept asking me t stay. so yeaa.. stayed thru' out nd only gt hm at 5+am. nxt day gt me darn shag..


hmm.. so anyway, im nt sure if you gon read this. but i still hav t say.
i hope we jst stay as friends th way we are. aint we doing fine? all along i ve always only seen you as a nice friend of mine, being really sweet nd thoughtful all th time. probably i wld ve guessed this all along. but bcuz i knw we aint gon work out, so i tried avoiding many occasions of hanging out tgt so you wont fall deeper.
well, guess i didnt do a good job.
im sorry rejection is th last thing i wld ever wanna do, nd its my last resort.
ure sudden confession of feelings gt me feelin' really uneasy.
all i know is i've been in nd out of r/s nd am getting tired of lovin'
jst wanna lead a pampered life, nd start lovin' myself.
you re sucha nice guy but i gotta give you a miss. bcuz i know my best aint here with me.
right now, i no longer believe in myself.
dont waste ure time.

as i jst failed one ; nd i promised nvr gon have a 2nd one t suffer th same way.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.
What's" Your Love Style?

i jst found this while reading thru my old entries.. nd i thot it kinda really describe wht kinda lover i am. or shld i say, i previously am. im nt sure if i still am one right nw hmm.. wait till i find tht old karen back, nd i shall look into love once agn.

this post is -edited-

you'd nvr bother t spare a thought fo me.
nd im tired of giving you so much of my energy.
this ve t come t an end. thts it fo you now..
i wish i cld do btr, then i realise its my best am alrdy giving you.

sometimes i jst thot tht i cld do anything, jst anything of me for you so long it doesnt kills me to do so.
but hw do i cont' whn you re reacting like this? me being taken fo granted whn im doing you a favour? c'mon luh..

its alright you dont return favours, but do show some respect.
thank you bastard (:

before i get real mean, you'd btr come lickin' my boots.

so it was town-ing with my super-darling last night.
met up at th very last min agn. lols, she called at 8+pm, nd we planned for movie at town nd th slot was 9.30pm.. was sucha rush luh. wasted money nd cabbed down agn ):
as usual, i reached aft th show started.
caught spiderwick chronicles 5/5! th show was fantastic, magical feeling (:

afterwhich, left cine for meridian hotel thre th bali house to went to look for augustine nd settled thre to chill. oh, i had a drink with lots of cherrry! yay! LOL, slacked till 1am nd i left fo zouk whileas val left fo home, as always she's sucha boring freak you see.
MAD ABOUT MAMBO JUMBO NOT!
met up with cheryl darling, yvonne nd one of her fren. we were thre so late th tix fo phuture was sold out ): so no choice but to enjoy th mambo songs then. actually it wasnt so bad luh. jst tht phuture is btr. HAHAs! so anyway aaron, steph, louis nd all were at phuture. so arron met me at th smoking room nd was cracking his brains to sneak me into phuture which was so impossible cause i jst tried -.- hahas, but anyway at arnd 2+ we still successfully entered phuture! weeeee! all thanks t arron for being very nice t actually come ovr t zouk nd look fo me jst t bring us into phuture agn. hehs! always th nicest guy arnd! (:

anw i promised myself nt to get wobbly legs back hm. nd yeaa.. i only had a glass of vodka ribena nd thts it. i was so sober it wasnt so fun. LOL

saw nigel nd ivann ovr at phuture. such coincidence, nigel nd ivann actually know each other whn i actually know th both of them seperately. they were also surprised i knew them both! spore is forever so small, no wonder its only worth tht DOT on th map. haa

had fun afterall (:

had a last min outing. thot of staying at hm fo th whole of today to hibernate. cause anw i ve no cash -.- sad case luh.
but anw si pang wanna treat me fo movie, so i acc-ed him.
went t amk hub t catch th show SEMI-PRO 2.5/5 rating. we were late fo th show ahhh. was supposed t be a 10pm slot, nd we only gt our tix at 10.10pm nd si pang kept blaming me fo being late>.< c'mon lo! you reach my hse downstairs also nvr call riggghhht LO SUO!
anw th show was over rated luh. it wasnt as fantastic like wht my fren say, laugh till balls cramp?? HAHAs
si pang was kinda disappointed with th show anyways. he thot it was supposed t be good. but yeaa.. kinda lousy.

well, ac didnt manage t win his pool competition today ): probably cause i wasnt thre t cheer. HAHAs, oppps!

afterwhich, left fo supper. supposedly sk nd cheryl wanted t join. then sk kana called back by boyf while on th way walking ovr nd stupid cheryl actually lied. thot she wasnt coming nd we were abt t make our way hm. then suddenly she texted "otw lar" thts my too-free babygirl -.- then followed by huiyun, joined us aft work.
th 4 of us was so busy chit-chatting abt sec schl results. nd i jst refuse to believe tht si pang actually scored A1 for his E MATHS. omgzzz, his face doesnt do justice luh. HAHAs
realied i havent meet up with huiyun fo oh-so-long, nd we settled down fo a long goood chat afterwards.


OKAY, I NEEDA GO GET MY PASSPORT RE-NEWED ASAP! i wanna travel to bangkokkkkkk plu-leasseee ): gotta get my lazy ass up to lavender soooon.

sigh, gotta work fo an event this friday nd i hav to miss my fruities gathering )):

had bad dreams last night, im so afraid t fall to sleep now. hmm...
goodnights ):

MONEY$$$ talks, i HATE totallyy.

its darn annoying whn you have to repeatedly remind someone to pay up. nd th most annoying part is whn you dont feel like doing so nd yet you have to bcuz you have nt enuff cash to help him yet. another thing tht annoys me is why isnt he even auto/considerate (for me) abit?
gggrrr, darn lame. its getting on my nerve aft tolerating this shit for quite awhile nd quite afew times.

thank god i ve super nice frens arnd, they did nt even ask from me for th cash i lost on soccer. all they do is, "nvm lar karen, other days also can no hurry" but too bad i ve my ego to look aft, i jst simply cant stand seeing myself not paying up my losses. but this time round its diff, i shared losses with my fren. nd he didnt had th time to drop by atm machines. nd this explains my entry here.
HATEMONEYTALKS with you.


anyhows, its been sucha hectic weekend for me. had a trip down to mars, caught "vantage point" 2.5/5 i wld rate.
its not really interesting, in fact i find it alil lame.
nd lastly, mars felt goood afterall (:

oh yeaaa, jst yest i saw an incident tht happen minutes ago, its actually bike buang. okay, its scary.. 2bodies lying jst beside our transport. okay, nd im not gon talk abt it anymore. its freakyy!
afterwhich, went ovr to ponggol nasi lemak for supper. guess we didnt had much appetite aft wht we saw. goshhh.. {curiosity kills th cat}

had a duper long rest today. woke up late evening nd did nth much for th restless day.
hmm.. except tht i went to watch hockey match jst now, then head for supper nd finally home sweeet home (:

ohohoh btw i thot i shld say, me nd val were kinda lucky gamblers. we actually escaped th loss of money sadness. HAHAHAs! we were supposed to buy arsenal match last night. bcuz everyone says arsenal gon win tht match against chelsea. so being the noobers we are, we was abt to follow em' nd place bets for arsenal win. nd thank god we were 1min late aft they kick off nd soo, we didnt suffer any loss instead we won our total goals bet. woooo! i know gambling is bad for health. but anw, i dont do this often. jst fo fun, nd th amount is small ? (: thankyou nelson for ure advice, its pretty much useful, nd i had it drilled in.
he says,
nelsonn says:
yeah
nelsonn says:
so straining
nelsonn says:
when losing you stress where to find that money. then wanna double or nothing. then in the end double up your losses.

which i find it so true. nd in th 1st place, if you knw me. i discourage gambling right frm th start.
*someone knows this more than anyone else.

alrights, long nd super RANDOM entry. im considering if i shld head down to dblo tmr to support ac. for his pool competition. hmm..

goodnights love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY'MARC!!!
i couldnt find a pic of you nd me looking good tgt. so i have to upload this pretty pic of you nd janey one instead. guess its time we really camwhore tgt hurr baby :(
anw, hope you enjoyed urself on this VERY SPECIAL DAY alrights. sry tht i had to leave early w/o even having a piece of cake :( bcuz im really really shagg dear. nd i gotta wake up early tmrr. i know you understand yess. hees! anyhoooos, im wishing you a very blissful 17th birthday BABYYYYY! nd tht evrything goes smoothly fo you. most imptly, my baby gotta stay this cheerful ALL THE WAY alrights! keep up tht sweeeet smile (: i'll get ure pressie at th end of th mth okkkk ((:



hmm.. and then i got wasted agn last night. hey WAIT! actually not really.. at least i knew wht i was doing nd did nth silly jst tht i walked home with wobbly legs thts all hahaS nd mayb on top of tht, i couldnt stop being a merlion? LOL. anyways, gotta thank this person for always always tking care of me.
whts wrong with me uhh? KAREN TEO is not a bad drinker in th first place. nd nvr did get herself drunk before. you knw those sort of drunk like talking rubbish nd doing stupid acts? i dont do this. NEVER BEFORE. so i guess im still considered goood. for th least tht i havent done this aft drinking fo sucha long long time. probably th worst tht i get is jst forgetting convos tht i had thts all.
AND AND AND eversince i changed drinking kakis, i got myself wobbly legs aft every drinking session tht i had with him. urrggh! i gotta stop drinking v v soon. okay, mayb not STOP. but cut down ? nvr gon go home like this agn. outta 3drinking session i had with him, i only had once tht i successfully get home in a duper sober state, nd him? in a drunken manner. LOL nd this is whts gon happen fo th counting on drinking sessionS.
you really dont wanna know hw well these ppl im drinking with can hold their liqour. they re way tooo GOOOOOD. nd th way they drink is like bottles aft bottles, which i see they re killin' me =.= im nt talking abt whtever heineken bottles. but chivas nd all sorts. they are ABSOLUTE CRAZY drinkers i have here. nd amazingly they actually drink more than me, nd wakes up much earlier than me. HAHAHAHAHAS!
enuff of drinking KAREN...


my lungs, they gotta rest. i ve been abusing em' badly these days :((
nd hangovrs re the worst nightmares. headaches jst dont go away.. gggrrr!

guess i gotta rest early tonight. im getting old old old. BOOOOO!


LASTLY, LOVE MY BABY'MARCC TRUCKLOADS! *MUAHHHHH!

okay, im so dumb. i deleted my previous template for this new skin. and i forgot to copy nd paste it down somewhre so tht i dont ve to make th trouble to relink evryone up. shit me!

ANYWAYS! im so P.R.O.U.D. of myselff! *superb*
its my very first time editing everything on my own. nd creating a dumb photobucket so as to paint my BEAU-TI-FUL photos on th wall of my blog. really really! w/o anyone's help, i managed to figure it out myself nd DANG!!! here it is, presenting my hardwork! LOL
honestly speaking, aint so difficult afterall. probably im jst too lazy in the past to actually manage my own blog. for so long, all th changing of blog thingy are all NOT done by me. credits goes to peiying nd cass for helping out. th least i did was jst to instruct them wht i want to see in my page. HAHAHAS. im really mean =x

i took nearly 3hrs to troubleshoot this shit. drive me crazy lo.
anw, its still not all done up. im still lack of a tagboard. oh gosh, i miss my old tagboard luhh!
anw jeff, i hope this will shut you up. look at me, so hardworking ehh. aft you complain abit of my blog. then i change all alrdy lo. now chio anott? hehs (:
andandAND NOT FORGETTING willie, thanks for being th first one to see this new page. nd ure compliments (:

i jst thot mayb somebody can teach me hw to lock up my old entries??

SO MY BLOG FINALLY REVIVED AGN!
if nt fo being sick nd tht i ve to hibernate at hm. i wouldnt actually bother to so anything abt it. LOL


btw, my old tagboard is taken out. so here's the reply to kel - im fine babe. i hope you re doing well too. cya arnd in schl hopefully(:

my bed miss me.
bye
bye!

BLOG UNDER MAINTENANCE!

i was so pissed,
nd i think jeff knows why.

dont wish to mention it here bcuz thre is no point spelling hatred into my beloved blog.
okay, im gg to change blog nd publicise it.
in case jeff thinks this blog is dead. whahahas, i update it for you eh. see only gt ure name in this post. (:

my night yest was great, nd not.
my 1st visit to the arena. quite a nice place to chill with a great live band thre(:
main point is, i almost got wasted yest night. aft downing of champagne, teq shots, and the best of the best. B-FCUKING-52. this shot gave me a really hard time stand on both feets. you knw wht i mean? whre i have to hook my hand onto someone else so as to balance on both lousy feets? okay i shall explain wht causes all these boooze.

firstly, i woke up early in the afternoon to have movie date. i felt really restless as i only slept at 6am th other night.
then, i gt so upset ovr smth i dont wish to explain here. tht got me really really down, so much i wanna bang myself against th wall.
lastly, i met some v v good drinkers nd rich poks ovr at arena. nd they got me shots shots shots. which really shot me down entirely. obviously, i reached hm with a messy hair, sloppy look, unbalanced legs nd then i laid down nd spout nonsense to ****.
DANG! nxt morning whn i woke up. i regretted my life ovr th convo i had with ****. it was totally embarrasing you wld nvr wanna try trust me.
so.. i couldnt recall whtever i said to him. neither can i rmrb wht i did ltr on in th nigh at the arena.
right now, im so pissed with myself i swear i ll nvr tke b52 ever agn. you ***!

anwwww, grocery shopping with mommy jst now. woah, i got so many many junk foods hm. im a food lover. nd in a few days time, those food will be gone. nd im not too sure if im th one who consumed them bcuz in this house stays 2more pigs ;) you knw wht i mean?


then i nua-ed at hm th entire day. until time fo supper nd i met up with my loveliest cheryl.
urggh. clubbing was so wrong last night. its reallly impt keeping urself sober.
know why? bcuz you nvr know wht silly thing you gon do nxt nd wake up feeling stupid all ovr. sighhh, thts wht im feeling nw.
im trying to get ovr it.
nd someone told me, tmr's gon be a btr day. (=

myrants.
ciao~

back aft so long.
i ve started working at km8 since last weekend. but skipped working this weekend bcuz of IT show.
woah, im all drained out bcuz of IT show. im really tireddd, all my energy is dry right now. finally i can have a good rest nd slept till mid afternoon. darn shiokkkkk!
IT show is been toooo overly crowded. foot steppings evrywhre. and omggg, i gt too much scratches on my hands bcuz of tht stupid wire thingy laaa. cb

my leg is aching bigBIG time =(((
but overall im quite happy. 1st thing, i earned big bucks i believed. 2ndly, i known quite afew frens who are really humourous, they re th reasons why working aint so bored in thre afterall. they are so hilarious la! thinking of them jst makes me wanna LOL.
also, i get to see people whom i ve been wanting to see. hahhahas

okay, so anyway i miss all my girlies!!! really much =(
these 4days i ve been working nd gg hm str8 to sleeep. darn lifeless
now, im jst craving for some good food like sakae sushi... urgggh. but evryone is working. ggrrrr!
guess im gg back to sleeep. my eyes are still half-opened.



darn, i miss you.