Some dreams you have to let go

my mind just wont let me rest..

2011-02-20T16:37:00.002+08:00

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on. And when you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come & go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further & further away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now & realize that things are different & they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

3days MC

2011-01-08T18:34:00.000+08:00

down with fever,
bodyaches,
cough,
& flu.

terrible to fall sick at the wrong time ):
i've been lying on bed for two days str8, which caused me more bodyaches actually.sighh.

Thank you for all the care & love, xoxo.

nana~ my phatties (:

2010-09-23T02:36:00.000+08:00

NANA with my phatgirls last friday was awesome, almost all my phatgirls marked their attendance this time round (:
they nvr fail t make my friday night a fulfilling one, such darlings!

ohmy, i look so fat. my face so oily, eyes so small. darn those imperfections! boooo.
im soon gonna look thinner, face gotta blot more often and be more hardworking, put on eye make up! humrphhh~

There you go, these are all my hiao bohs! hees, much love!

shoe addict!

2010-09-23T02:09:00.001+08:00

Bought two pair of shoe within two days.

impulsive shopper =x

Found another jap restaurant t dine in, at chijmes. Sushi not as fantastic, but others was good (:

yummeh seafood grill is mine!
love avacado with sushi (:

YAY! =D love exploring for new places t have my favourite jap cuisine (:
icanreallytakejapfood24/7,notboredatall. heehee

Dinner with S, supperings.

2010-09-16T15:59:00.002+08:00

I had too much supper lately.
Two days back, i had Mac'd with baby marc and yest i had mushroom cheese prata with J & M. darn it, how not to grow fatter? fml

On Monday, met up with C, had dinner at Crystal Jade ramen, then again had my fav zha jian mian & xiao long bao with th company of the 3diff eggs cooked with spinach plate of vegetable. Current love <3
Catched up with her, thanks babe for th dinns! Hope your Mr will treat ya btr.

On tuesday, had dinner with S, picked her up from her workplace which obviously i lost my way agn -.- but thts fine, im too used t it. It doesn't frustrate me as much t get lost while driving anymore. haha.
Settled dinner at din tai fung at tamp, yay i had xiao long bao in two days str8! and first time tasting the xiao cai, awesome. Very appetisting, i like~
Phatgirls must try nxt time kay.

Had koi at marine parade, hazelnut milktea nvr fails me. hees
Long nice chat with her, this brave girl (:
Walked around and i fell in love with this heels. nice?

S showed me one wedges from Pazzion, was fab as well! Would love t have tht tooo. But whre t find th mooolahss? ):
ohwells. thinking twice

Never give yourself a chance to fall apart because,
when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again.

Feasting non-stop

2010-09-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

Great feasting, too much greasy food lately kinda makes me sick thou.
wake up t a bad throat, and i reflected to realise i had too much heaty food these days.
nonetheless, i enjoyed them (:

So th other day, the boy and i decided t explore around singapore to see if there is any other jap cuisine we haven't tried. And interesting enuff, we drove all arnd and all th way to bukit timah. Yes, and there we found our new fav place to enjoy jap cuisine. They serve really yummy sushi wrapped with avocado and served with tempura crumbs. I can't describe it, you really have t try. hehs!


My favorite cha soba (:


i know right, eeewww? But sorry t say, its yummeh! hahaha

Reaally fresh fish, no fishy smell. Super nice!

This is how its like, if you enjoy avocado yea, thts for you.

We had more food than that, and we spent a total of 150+ for this dinns. But worthy enuff, cause it made us both happy child (:
Since i love jap cuisine v much, last week we visited this same place again, so trust me. It gotta be good!

Anws, last week was driving to holland V t have my absolute love, hagen daz fondue! Thank you my babies for accompanying me to enjoy this wonderful desert! heh heh. Bet you girls love it jst as much right?

i look soo awful. boooos!

SLURPS!

I went down to boat quay looking for tinghui in my soo cui face. Wished i had a mask. hohoho
So glad t see him! I was feeling so guilty for not being there for his farewell celebration before he enlist. So th minute he booked out, gave me a call. I went down (: sucha nice friend i am.

2010's delicious mooncake.
The awesome mooncake from sweetspot at MBS!

Then from shangri-la,
bird's nest with custard in snowskin. YUMMS!

LOOK at those fillings!

Mommy and me reserved the next few for ourselves! Haha.

okay back to study, talk laters.

Insomnia

2010-09-15T01:31:00.001+08:00

Can't fall asleep w/o your presence. Thou I'm really tired ):
Luckily baby Marc is coming t my rescue! LYTTM (:

Great dinner tonight, saw a heels frm topshop! Really gorgeous. Comtemplating t get it or not. Kinda pricey ):
But girls need pretty heels t survive isn't it? Heehee.

Okay back t study tmr and thurs. And finally prolly gg t jog t burn fAts on thurs! Swee swee bod, I'm craving for you! Booo.

K, ciao.
Baby Marc reaching in no time!

Hell of a week.

2010-09-07T03:54:00.001+08:00

Begins the hell of a week.
Tmr my exams officially starts, and here i am at Changi Airport T3, TCC having a glass of caramel soy d jelly tgt with my fren and our lappy. MUgging like crazy ):

I can't help but to envy my dearest valueyy who has nth btr t do, but rolling on the bed, having dinns here and thre, drinking at anywhre, everywhre and Mj all th time. I hate her! i wish im her naoooo.
Serve me right!
I partied at NANA till late on a sat night, when dawn approaches, i see myself at MBS having morning buffet breakfast at 0630am. I know rigghtt, blessed child (: There i was, with my dearest two, valueyy and janey, not forgetting my precious asset, my lappy, mugging like siao while enjoying my breafast. Rmrb i was jst done with NANA? Yes, imma crazy but strong. wahahaha.

Why am i always regretting wht i have not done/could have done/should have done ??
I should have studied since my 1st week of exam break.
I could have appreciated the long exam break and did revision well. Could have btr organised my time to study.
GDI, too late now. FML

Cant wait for this HELL week t be over!
right shah? hahahaha

GOODBYE, back t alt tap, change screen.
booohooooo!
WISH ME LUCK FOR THE COMING EXAMS! (:

Something meaningul for someone beautiful:

when that someone can handle your flaws
Love you on your moody days
Kiss you when you dont look great
And say you're beautiful no matter what happens
That someone is worth loving.

ilu*

silly*

2010-08-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

And those who were seen dancing,

were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.

2010-08-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

Been a gluttion lately!

Everyday is been a girly date. Spending time with my phat girls chillaxing/feasting/gossiping every other night. Hohoho.

For our dear dollabsolute (Alexis) belated birthday dinner, we had seafood feast at Dempsy Longbeach ((:
Awesome dinner with the awesomic girls!

Look at all that bombs! Feeding us TTM! nom nom. YUMS!
Ended off th night with them heading to boat quay and me heading home since i ve gt work th next day.

Then on another occasion,
janey, valueyy, cheryl and I had another dinner feast at outram, Teo Hong rd.


THE BOMBZ! Butter Porkrib! SUPERB, you all needa try it! YUMMYY!


THE GLUTTONS, my kind of friends.

The amount of food i consumed over the weeek is counted by kilos. Not forgetting my dinner at Xing Wang with all the phat girls. I ate so much, they were stunned. woohoooo.. Oh please, let me slim down fast )):

Okay, stay home this weeek.
I needa discipline myself and study, cannot afford t waste time.
But currently im unwell, knn at this hr ):

Marcella Yong, don't say my blog close down hohh. Its still working, and doing great! (:
Ciao~

Awesome night of feasting!

2010-08-17T17:50:00.000+08:00

See, sometimes i love you soo much.
And other times, not tht wonderful.

You made me a truly happy girl last night ((:


First nice thing you did, Surprised me with my ALL-TIME-FAVORITE Famous Amos ((:

Then you brought me t have my Favorite Jap Cuisine, YUMMS!


At paragon, serves yummylicious Fresh sashimi!

Slurps!

This plate cost $70, $35 per serving. Expensive, but its some chef's recommendation of premium sashimi.

Canele's macaron cake? idk whts tht, but its wht i had, not bad. But alil tooo sweet.

Strawberry Shortcake! (its so janey. hahaha)

Then i decided t drop by The Cathay since my babygirl is on a night shift and popped her a surprise! ((:
See her all-smiles (:
Caught "SALT" since we were jst 10mins from the show time.
Its no doubt Awesome, but.. i dont like it. Keeping me in suspense, up till the end -.= Mad Angry!

Okay t wrap up th day, we had Hoegarden at "Dog & Bone"
Been long since i had a drink like so randomly.
Hear the old grandfather stories for the duration of 4 glasses of 1pint Hoegarden, heeheehee. Enjoyed your rumblings thou.
head back home at 2+ and KO right away!

My Monday Isn't Blue at all (:
"huggs"

3 musketeers!

2010-08-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

YUMS!

Our dear friend working, "yes mdm, Can i help you?"

3 Mustketeers!

Just the other day, me, janey, and marcella headed to Ion for some shopping spree. Got a pair of heels for $160+ OMGAHH, but i really loved it, i hope i don't let it rot in the shelf agn. Remind me t wear them janey and baby!

So aft dinn, the three of us went to Changi Airport T1 and popped a surprise for our dear barbie-wawa! ((: We hid so well, and waited for th right time t pop up! HAHA, glad she was really happy t see our lovely faces! heehee (:
Coincidentally bumped into Rebbecca as well, she is forever looking so thin and looking btr these days! It gotta be the power of love, beautify all woman.

Took my biotherm skin perfect moisturizer finally!
Love it MAX, all of you should get 1 bottle and try it ^^

"We should all learn to create memories for ourselves, because once we lost th moment we won't be able to retrieve them." ~ Fei Long

寫給 ...

2010-08-05T14:56:00.000+08:00

I do not like what im feeling right now ):
Occupy myself with all these thoughts, darn im blurred.

Everything, anything can't please me right now. booo!

Drunk & Die, brain should have a "start", "stop" button. So that im able to control my brain from functioning tooo much when my heart can't take it.

ECP, chillax

2010-07-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

Beautiful day spent at ECP with my dearest schoolmates ((:

They blamed me for leaving them in school, bcuz they went t school for me -.- hahaha, called me and bomb me with %$@!#*& !!! HAHA, they are crazy. And i think they miss me, wants t see me in school if nt they cant live boooo!

So with them partial-ing class and me waking up early, they decided t head down t ECP.
Impromtu decision which i followed, with no choice if not sure kana punch by ICEMAN. heehee

The monster!

The Queen!


L.O.V.E

Cycling, bedok jetty, hammock-ing, then feasting at lagoon!
Ended th day with skatepark. Awesome extreme skaters :o

i like days like this, afternoon time seems t last forever today (((:

Born with a silver spoon

2010-07-22T19:34:00.000+08:00

Why am i not born into a wealthy family??
I think i am sucha spendthrift. Last week i went for 4 rounds of shopping altogether within a week!
Crazy Damage = $600+

Thanks to GSS, tempted me to spend! booo!

I needa work, but im sooo lazyy ):

Okay ciao~ steamboat in awhile!
Cya!

With my loves

2010-07-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

I like spending quality time with my love ones, my family, my bff, my friends & my lover.
They makes me happy almost all the time (:

Having a sumptous meal with them, talk ovr some drinks, basically catching up with each other's life. I'm contented.

I don't need many friends, jst the few good ones will do.
They chase my blues away ;)

Currently I'm in a bad shape. My face is bad, my health is bad (non-stop diarrhoea for th past few days) & lastly my body shape is bad bad bad. Teach me how t lose a heavy bottom???
*HELPPP!*

Note to self: Go for lighter meals everyday, jog twice a week, swim once a week if possible, xtra excercises at home, consistent masking 3times a week & yes save money to treat myself!
BUT most imptly! Sleep well, work hard!

Then, i'd be truely contented with life (:
AIm to accomplish, don't be lazy Karen anymore!

P.s ALexis join me t th gym pluu-easee! Hee.

Live Life.

2010-06-22T21:47:00.002+08:00

Stay Happy always (:

Met my phatbabes at CP, as usual they always help to occupy my mind whn im with them.

Im growing sideways non-stop. Seems like i havent been putting in effort to slim down thou i always swear i will -.- BOOO!

Anyway i love my phatgurls, i hope they will stay happy and beautiful always~

REmember we are STILL YOUNG!! ;) My happy fats!

Courage

2010-06-16T14:33:00.000+08:00

Don't make her fly up too high if you don't have the ability to make her stay high up.
She will forget falling down can hurt so bad.

Rainy morning, but i have sunshine in my heart.

2010-06-15T14:55:00.000+08:00

rainy day tday.
Supposedly a wonderful morning t sleep in, BUTT.. school's in, Sleep is OUT!!

when will i be ovr with it?
~~Probably~~ never.

Live life t th fullest, but don't forget t obey ure principles.

y0urs truely,

2010-06-08T12:09:00.000+08:00

Spent my 2weeks of holidays mostly in bed sleeping ): Very lifeless i know, but its of great pleasure for me since i have no money t shop & no company anyway since everyone is working.

Gonna tidy up my room and get ready t study for my upcoming test when schl re-opens.
Hope i can GNM before i lose my freedom whn schl starts, BOOO! =x

My girls are doing well recently, & im glad. cause when they are happy im happy too! (((:

My Saturday Night

2010-05-31T19:30:00.002+08:00

Headed ovr t powerhouse to celebrate Aaron's doomz day. Drink, Drank, Drunk with him before he get enlisted into Army.

Act cute, as always. LOL

His group of boys.

Lovely Sarah

With the company of Rinn for th night ;)

Birthday girl, Glenys ((: With me and with her boyf, ah huat

Light sticks for you ??

Wrapped up the night with a smile (:

Gonna miss my friend, Aaron. Thank you for always helping me with school and dropping by t have lunch (:
HAha, he gonna be a MAN(NS) in exactly 3 days. Hereby wishes him Best of Luck, *PAT on his shoulder* Giving you some courage t pull thru all the difficulties you might meet in Army.

Enjoy NS, Supper aft ure first book out alright!! ;)

Vesak Day, Marks th first day of school holiday! HAPPINESS (:

2010-05-30T22:31:00.000+08:00

Outing with my polymates is love.

Two of my love Icebellz & Debby ((:

Bought Cosmetics and accessories.
I'm broke like hell, but still cant curb my shopping habits hmmm.. BTW its GSS wht, i shld be spending now instead isn't it?? BOO, credits on mommy. She is love of all times, hees.

Lastly, bought 300grams of my favorite No nut Choc-chip from Famous Amos back home.
Munched on it all th time, im feeling Fat, very FAT alrdy. die :(

Love these girls of mine, they're my monthly dosage of happiness.
Timbre date booked for nxt month!

把我宠坏

2010-05-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

我明白我要的爱会把我宠坏

像一个小孩只懂在你怀里坏

你要的爱不只是依赖

要像个大男孩风吹又日晒

生活自由自在

Still, cant get enuff of you.

So much, for this.

2010-05-19T10:02:00.000+08:00

I hate seeing my dear friends being upset, brooding ovr the past & not living every moment.
But seems like im all the same kind.
"Birds of a feather ~~really~~ flock together"

Last night, someone told me something that have shaken my faith agn.
If this has been what you re thinking all these while, then why waste your time?
I've been obliging, and a good girl. Not perfect thou, cause everyone have flaws. But it seems to me you only want people t love and accept you for who you are, & you re not open up and accept the fact that people need you to accept them and love them for their flaws too. Its so UNFAIR..

Whenever i hit you with a problem, you feel dejected.
You think of giving up each time.
And by doing and saying things like these, they shaken my faith.

Then don't waste your time.

Depressed, with regrets. wished i wore it tday. booo!

2010-05-12T12:51:00.000+08:00

Today marks the last day of poly life in RP.
Not for me, but for my fellow classmates whom taken great care of me in school for the past year.

They were great friends, school mates and play-mates! Together, they never fail to make my smile in school everyday. Even when we argue, we had fun. hahaha!

I hereby wanna Congratulate them and wishes them all the best in their future endeavour, hugsalltight!

;missthemallsoosoomuch
<3

Twitt twit tweet!

2010-05-05T13:42:00.001+08:00

Apparently, all my girlfriends are hooked onto tweeter. They are on it almost 24/7, they reply each other so fast its as if they were msging. hahaha!

Wednesday morning is filled with all my girlfriends gossips through tweeter. They made my morning seems alil better whn im in a class full of strangers.

& not forgetting Him, who pr0mised me a great dinner tonight (: Its gonna be sushiBoat!! yipppeee!

As always, im so thankful for them.

hearts them all! <3

2010-04-19T15:20:00.002+08:00

Like a towel, i feel like ive been wrung dry..
I am tired of all the inconsistency
Always having to be on my toes is... tiring.

Yes, what is life without the excitement of the unknown?
Then again, how long do we want to live with much uncertainty ?

Do i resign to my fate?
Or do i design my own destiny?

I need direction, i need security most importantly i need courage..

2010-04-18T23:31:00.002+08:00

Valentine - Kina Grannis (Official Music Video)

2010-04-18T16:46:00.001+08:00

T.G.I.F

2010-04-17T14:30:00.003+08:00

Fruities Gathering last night!

Dinner was at Iluma, it was great except for th time waiting t get a table, but food arrived fast upon order.
Jap food was fantastic, i love it! My first time t Ebisboshi, was so amazed by th method they used t place order for food.

PS: aww valueyy, you missed out all th yummy jap foods. I swear you ll love it if you were here! heehee.

After dinner, went ovr t alexis place t chill & gossip! heehee, loads of laughters altogether, love them all velly much! If only valueyy & ferfer came along, P.E.R.F.E.C.T (:

I suggest each time we gather, we shld head t restaurants we haven't tried before. I like experience like this, exciting esp whn it comes t food. IMMA YUMMY QUEEN!

Weather last night was perfect, lightning nd thunder acc-ing my sleep. haha, ohh i had a nightmare. Really freaks me out, i rmrb whn i woke up frm it, i gasped nd mumbled, " wahh, luckily its jst a dream.."

dinner must be great tonight, you owed me. booosxz!

2010-04-17T13:25:00.002+08:00

Bored at work.

Cabbing t work is a total waste of time & $$. B gave me money made of all coins for cab fare, instead i saved them in my piggybank nd took mommy's for th cab fare. heehee!

How silly can i get? i didnt know im only working till 2pm instead of th usual 6pm tday, i brought all my tibits, macbook, charger nd etc tht weighs a ton! thought i cld waste time exploring my macbook while at work & wait for my ride t come.
Turns out i gotta heavy load, nd gotta train hm )):

Famous Amos is love.
Its nvr too much, 500g will be good! (:
NVM a fatty for nw, because i've scheduled 1 full week of gym & swimming with my darling Val (:
gonna be tough but a fruitful one hopefully.
Next week's diet plan have nt been worked out yet. But probably soupy meals all th way!
Hope our hard work pays off well!

Got our running shoes ready jst awaiting t shed ~~some~~More fats!

*Anticipating*

Kbox crave.

2010-04-16T17:35:00.002+08:00

So finally out date at KBOX is fulfilled aft putting aeroplane so many times =x

though i was exhuasted mentally nd physically due t th first day of schl, i still enjoyed myself v much. probably i love th company of them! ((:

love louis voice whn he sings, so different frm th way he usually talk. hahaha!

GUESS WHO?!

Candid shot; my jessica alba legs. haha yes pls vomit*

Wrapped up th day at 1230am. Couldn't take it anymore, zzZ monster came looking for me. Went hm nd knocked out right away.

darn late for schl tday, lesson at 0915, i woke up at 0845 -.-

anyways Friday gotta be a happy day! gonna go find my fruities in awhile! ((:

Have you ever ..

2010-04-13T15:00:00.002+08:00

Felt out of place even with th best company arnd?

Felt like you lost all ure vocabs while trying t talk some sense?

Felt like you could nt outtalk someone even whn you have all th right answers?

Felt like you don't knw wht you want anymore nd wishes someone puts you thru a test t seek for an answer?

Im feeling all of th above nd mayb worse. idk whts gg on in my mind, but it kept repeating th same sentences ovr nd ovr agn.

& its eating into me too.

~~fml~~

A date with my babe (:

2010-04-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

Visit t funan IT mall with th dearest to buy my Macbook (: & Vivo for some shopping.

Decided t try The asian Kitchen for our first time nd it turns out good! yummy (:

My zha jiang mian. but crystal jade ramen's nicer!

a date with my darling ends at vivo. aftwhich fetched her ovr t supperclub t work.

now you knw im served by who? pronounce S.hoe = asshole (sarah hoe) hahaha!

if you need a new Macbook, head ovr t funan IT mall at lvl 5, multimedia inter. She give th best deals nd dl everything free for me! haha, go ovr make fren with her nd she will do th same, i hope? HAHA!

so glad im typing this on my Macbook. Still nt used t using it yet, wait till im free!

woohoosxz, 15 more days nd im outta town!
6 more days t icebellz bdae! (:

motherly love..

2010-04-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

urgghh.. extremely exhausted from all the household chores.
Took bro's $50 bucks in exchange for me t handle all th household chores which i alrdy intended t anyways. whahaha!

Parents went taiwan tgt, left th 3kids at hm t ROT.
my sis nd me kinda miss my mom ): misses her voice, her presence. haha, now i know wht it means by "taking things/people for granted"

2more days nd she will be back, with goodies hopefully!! (:

Anticipating for ANA LIM's (godmama) birthday tmr at supperclub!
her children wanna get her drunk, tsk tsk* very meann thou it includes me! Hope all th invited kids will show up tmr! Can't wait Can't wait.

2010-04-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

I'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air
They fly so high, nearly reach the sky
Then like my dreams they fade and die.

New lappy AWAITS me!

2010-04-04T20:04:00.000+08:00

YAYYY! So finally imma getting myself a new laptop (:
SWEEE, shall get a MACbook. if not, ASUS.

But which is good?
im afraid i might nt be able t adapt t using MACbook so quickly. But my class will commence on 15Apr. How now?

Considering im using an iPhone, most probably i will get a MACbook for convenience.
Any recommendations?

Shin Kushinya

2010-03-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

Yummy jap food for dinner last night! nom Nomm nom.. ((:

But a pity the egg still isnt as fantastic as th one i had at HACHI japanese restaurant. There, my favorite from Hachi, really irresistably yummy... >>>

Shin Kushinya's grilled beef nd prawns are really nice, except their sashimi aint very fresh.

mayb im really greedy nd not easily satisfied. Once i've tried th best, i would discrimate all others.

gonna work work WORK, as often as possible. nd save up for more loots! (:

Jst realised my sis saved so much $$$, i was soo "WOW-ed" last night when she took out her piggybank (some ah ma's tin) nd flashes her $50s sing dollar, nd $100s aussie money into my face. cooolsxz, wished i have half of em' )):

haha, B said he will buy me a box bigger than sis's so he is hopeful tht im gonna save as much or even more $$ than my sis. Dreammm leii he ~~~ hahas!

Mayb without so many temptations, i ll be able t save like her. booo!~

V extremely tired, goodnightszx pigs.

2010-03-29T02:47:00.011+08:00

Yummy LOKLOK!
So aft MJ session last night, we headed down t JB for supper. Being introduced t LOKLOK for th first time, v v yummy! love it*
LokLok is a stall opened by th roadside, might be unhygenic but well cant bt bothered much as its really nice nom nom nom.. MUST TRY!

Our tray of food, thre is more!

& of course th greedy us had our tray of food topped up several times! (:

front sits ben, shiok.

left huiyun, right xx

anticipating..

pricing for loklok, counted by colours of sticks.

variety of food for you t choose from

Er xin i know. hahas!

huiyun with tasteless crabstick, really small lil crabs. haha, so cool.

ben (:

yo ji for me!

My fav! yummy fried mushroom~

sum up t Rm50+

Powerhouse on Friday night with th RPians. Went in v late, was bored initially but glad martel saves th day (:
Been long since th last time i met them. since CNY ?

serene (:

lance (:

aaron, wanna have smaller face right!

my turn. hahas

cheer up dude!

bumped into jessica! Sry didnt wanna join you at th dancefloor.

Catched up, cya soon sweetie ((:

thanks t ah huat for all th drinks!
Left home early due t work th nxt day. Survived my sat morning miraculously!

2010-03-29T02:08:00.004+08:00

Impromptu decision t go prawning. Went all th way t Yew tee t fetch valueyy.
haha, valueyy actually say i drive faster than a male driver. woohoosxz! Now, who says female driver are often th lousy ones!?

me with my first up prawn. haha, i look so cui )):

with her phone, always.

Philip feeling happy, gonna cook them t eat. he claims they re v fresh, but i find th meat too find. opps!

thinks his prawn is big. bleahx!

Home aft, extremely tired.
K.O right away, & work th nxt day. phhewww*

2010-03-29T01:20:00.005+08:00

Wednesday night with darling val t Supper Club for th first time.

& I was v surprised t see Songster aft a long time, he was bartending! haha, so not him. but anw its good, i told val immediately " wah, cannot imagine song would give up his nightlife at zouk partying jst t work." haha, proven more sensible nw (:
We had th whole bed t ourselves while enjoying many complimentary drinks ;) but th taste of jagerbomb still sucks, thanks t val.

Zouk aft, Val gone crazy upon entering velvet. wahahaa, v funny/irritating drunkard.

love you

Val: Botak loves it whn ppl take picture of him bartending. HAHA, thre you go!

uber sweet couple (:

Look so sweet my darling ((:

Both of them trying t be funny..

And then, decent agn -.- haha, btw we didnt ask them t pose, they really did it outta their interest. haha!

GUINNESS LONG HAT!

VGPS, is really v annoying whn she is drunk.
1) trying t hide herself at th smoking area so tht no one forces her hm.
2) repeating th same words ovr nd ovr agn, "my botak..... you bringing me t him nw? ...."
3) okok, i know hahahahahaha i know i know im not drunk okayy.
4) pls tell them i leave alrdy, but i go smoke okay. dont let them come in, you all go off first okay.

All th above is said by ms Goh, valerie.
hahaha, really is JOKE. im gonna use th word cute t describe her for th first & last time. hahaha, extremely cute whn you re drunk. But pls, last time. iloveyou*

2010-03-26T14:37:00.003+08:00

finally, im back t th blogging mood (:
took 1 whole entire day t revamp my blog, sweet & simple it shall be.

upon getting back my results, im both happy nd upset.
firstly, i gt expected grades for my exams which really excites me bcuz i did achieve an A for marketing which i only attended 5/15 lessons, good job right, i know. But an A for exams prove hw hard i worked for so as t amend for th 10 classes missed =x
well, still attendance pulled my overall module grade down badly, nd this applies t all my other modules. V upset tht is )):

Conclusion : v disappointed in myself for being lazy, missing classes agn for th last semester, so here i am returning back t schl for a yr whn everyone else left schl for good. booo!
dont quite like this feeling but still, gotta bear with it. 1 last yr t go nd hopefully thts it for me (:

taught me a valuable lesson, "know ure priority nd set them right"

So what's ure number 1 right nw in life?
make sure you realise them, else you would be wasting ure time doing many unnessesary things which turns out a waste of time.

2010-01-30T22:27:00.003+08:00

CNY is nearing, so are my doomz dates for exams.
everything is pushing me to reduce my hours of sleep per day ):

*Have not gotten my CNY clothes
*Have not touched on my studying materials
*Have not packed my room for goodness sake!
*Have not gone for manicure, pedicure session for CNY
*Have not had time for diet plans ( okay this is an excuse!) haha!

SO MANY THINGS YET TO COMPLETE, nd so lil time left.

luckily i had my hair done. Wanted mahogany brown initially but got psycho ed nd got ash blonde instead. not exactly blonde thou, kinda dark dark brown.
Now i look v proper nd decent with v dark coloured hair (:

On a happier note, i got TWO new carebear added t my collection; Daydream Bear & Smart Heart Bear (:
Aiming for full yellow one, sunshine bear if im not wrong.
wait till CNY, mommy's gonna bring you all home heh heh ;)

okay, shall get back t work nw.
if i want a shorter lifespan in RP, i gotta striveSTRIVEstrive for my upcoming exams!
LAST LEAP, towards a btr future..

No More Avenue7 No More.

2010-01-11T15:20:00.006+08:00

Love is like a "question mark" having found it's other half;
which has every answer to it's question ♥

This photo is taken during yr'07 at val's place!
i think i can kinda recall wht i was up t tht particular day whn i was still attached with D.
haha, it must be a night where he upset me LOL.

im so gonna miss ave7 )):
how i used t pop by every now nd then jst for some catching up, haha which happens loike every other day.
i only needa make a 5mins drive nd tADAng! right at ure doorsteps (: was so much more convenient back then. Glad i cherished th times & made full use of this accessible place (:

hearty home whre many many good memories were created since th secondary schl days. much laughters, & also moments of tears. heehee!
Used t sleepovr whnever i PON TAN schl, th safest place t hide in. HAHAHA!

awaiting for th nxt heart-warming place t be in (:
i know valueyy has reserved half her bedroom for me alrdyy hees!

p.s i jst realised im capable of waking up early in th morning nd pull thru my day w/o whining. All i need is some motivation~~

okayyyy ciaoo~

2010-01-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL LIVING THINGS AROUND ME, ESP MY LOVE ONES ((:
MAY 2010 BE A NEW YEAR, A NEW BEGINNING FOR EVERYONE ESP THOSE WHO NEED <3 MOST!! =D

school's starting tmr, gggrrrr!
DREAAD SCHOOL MUCH =((
UT tmr, & whts more?
its th end of me tmr mannnn. HAHAHAAs
okay new year, first day of schl so karen's gonnna have some faith in herself.
Make sure she reaches school on time,
studies her UT,
and get an "A" AGAIN! YESSS! ITS ACED ((:

Technically everything seems normal, so whats wrong actually?
sometimes i get confused ovr th things i want.
but a want and a need do make a difference, & i've learnt tht you cant always have th things you want.

GOODBYE LOVES, gotta hit th sacks early tonight! ((:
k

2009-12-17T20:08:00.003+08:00

If you re not sure wht t do nxt, jst do anything. You probably need t indulge in a lil trial and error before you get whre you re going.

maybe i shouldnt be so afraid all th time.
you lose to win.
we both need some time t figure jst wht we really want ;seek in each other.
few days, 1week, 2months??

within th circle, you & me.

2009-12-14T14:09:00.004+08:00

humrrphh! im so pissed. ALL MY recent images are gone due t corrupted files. this lappy is being very naughty, been giving me so many problems. gotta go renovate th interior soon..

holiday starts from tmr..
but im at a lost, should i start working? or should i jst chillax?
hmm.. but im broke, poor and getting poorer.
wht even saddens me is "IM GETTING FATTER & FATTER"
poor+fat=ugly :((

mayb i shld start hibernating at work, doing workouts and start looking into my diet.
and sometimes having some M would be goood mmMm..

monday blues been cured by some good piccas.
i love my ibaby, iCare nd lastly iSleep.
will show you(s) photos of them in my nxt entry!

& i will soon dump my i-annoy...

salivate

2009-12-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

Look whatt i've GOT! ((:
cheeeze! some fav supplements brought by surprise! hee

I really need em' badly. Been very much lack of sleep and happiness lately sooo, they are.. substitute of
LOVEE (:

soo tiringg~

2009-11-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

to find a perfect space,
to find the tools t beautify this space,
to invite the people into this space
& to perfect this space for the night..

is oh-so-tiring..

And now i have got t ask everyone for cooperation, that is to keep the volume down when you guys are there because this space is not supposed t have gatherings or birthday party. so its gonna be discreet. which means less fun )):

still, i jst pray for no complains and a peaceful & cheerryy night! =D
definitely i want everyone t have fun and enjoy there! so regardless of the regulations, we shall jst be ourselves and ENJOYY hees.. (:

i know my previous post states tht my birthday party will be located at Frasers Place.
But i believe those that received my invitation on FB will know tht thre is a change of location (:
Hope t see EVERYONE thre on 28th nov, SATURDAY!!

geezz! im feelin so excited, hope everything turns out well.
gosh, & im so worried. boo00o!

p.s i should get myself the adapter t transfer my photos out, so tht i can start posting photos and uploading them. hmm..

2009-11-19T14:16:00.001+08:00

after two hectic days of scouting for the most appropriate place to hold my 21st birthday, valueyy and i finally settled down at The Frasers Place which is located jst beside dblO.

Now, i have t think of the food, the people and the deco.
*headache*

okay nvm, SHOPPING with mummy first!! ((:
ciao~

mentally drained!

2009-11-06T11:21:00.002+08:00

BreAthe..

working hard t score an A in school, but still lacking of so much more criteria.
still not giving up ((:

assurance are jst words.
& talk is cheap.
wished i have more reasons to fight this battle.
wished i was better than this,
&i wished you would come forward and tell me, baby.. its all worth it.
now it all seems grey..

she was his dream.

2009-11-03T14:45:00.001+08:00

it's just another chapter of your life that you choose to end and start a new chapter. but it doesn't mean the end of your life story. time won't wait for us to finish crying and being sad. and i think, we're just living life, chasing time.

whatever doesn't kill you just makes you stronger yes?

2009-11-01T23:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!! ((:
how was ure halloween party? hope its a great night for all!
i had a sumptous dinner at Thai Village.. mmm yummyy.. esp my BOWL OF BIRD NEST, LOVE IT MAXXX (:

Halloween for me was quite a chillax day. fishing in th morning as usual then went t kbox for 1 bottle of martel nd couple of songs. gotta sing more often, i do like t sing but jst dont know why im tooo shyy. hehs

mmm... Today was spent at East Coast park cycling tog with huiyun, ben nd dennis.
feeling healthy but moody. o.0

i smell rain, outside nd inside.

1st up!

2009-10-30T15:55:00.002+08:00

HI YA'LL!!
have tht sudden craving t blog again! oh myyy its been so long i havent logged into this page AT ALL. hees, kinda excited t fill in my daily rantings here!! but jst how personal i can get.. LOL actually i ve a livejournal tht i created months back. but i kinda forgot my id nd password. dumb, i even forgotten th url -.- HAHAHA

valerie's blog is dying too. i'll make sure she blog often together with me!! weee!

I only wanna make it good
so if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do...

2008-11-20T14:00:00.002+08:00

gon shut down this site anytime soon.
& probably create a new journal.

new era.
loveeee<3

2008-10-26T18:10:00.003+08:00

regretted not working today. ultra boring sunday whre you jst sleep ure sunny sunday away. super sad!
life jst came to a standstill whre by i have no motivation, no nothing to make me feel like oh days are so well spent. in fact it feels like im wasting my everyday, my life away. doing things not benefiting me. like screwing school up - nd this i jst cant help.
why cant i jst be like anybody out thre doing things they like to do, making their everyday useful?

oh gosh, life has got no meaning. you jst do wht you ought to do, learn wht you think is right and do wht others thinks is correct. i think this is so lame.
nd well no one's doing is up to you to judge. sojstleaveitalone

school sucks, work is getting boring, brownie is annoying, friends all MIA else not free, clubbing feels meaningless, alcohol turns distilled they dont interest me anymore, room is so untidy, and life is practically Fup.
thank god i still have my bed to rest my head, phewww.

so tell me when is the right now to turn things all around?
when is money gon drop from the sky?
when is diploma cert driving its highway to me? why must they take the long route with so many traffic? darn you dip!
oh and when am i gon slim down? HAHAs

and anyway i jst hate this particular kpo, she jst cant carry it off. omgg, you wanna know who i was refering to in my previous post? jst ask me. dont have to ask my bff. thank you, arrghh nuisance -.-

lastly, i dont know if your presence is a good thing for me, or jst making my life worse.
ciao!

2008-10-16T15:12:00.012+08:00

super no mood t blog. took a long time to upload these photos.
so here's for now. more coming up hopefully sooon. *yawns

I MUST BE DREAMING..

2008-10-02T14:41:00.004+08:00

something's gone wrong. up in my head..

its th missing of his presence, th silent thts fearful.
i must be crazy you say, but i gotta admit whts real.
well, it might be the past you i thought of in my dreams.
you create a couple of nightmares nd numerous sweetdreams. but its ovr, all ovr.
fall for you all ovr agn.

QUITTING SMOKING, 4DAYS ND GOING STRONG!

DK (:

let them tell me love's not worth going thru...

2008-09-22T13:55:00.002+08:00

HELLO FRIENDS!
AM BACK HOME HONGKONG (((:

gosh, cant believe how happy i am whn i touched down. totally insane happiness! =D
anyways im sorry but i did not get anything for you guys bcuz things thre aint very pretty, nd i didnt do much shopping. for all th days i was thre, i guess to sum up th amount of time i spent on shopping was jst merely HALF A DAY in FOUR DAYS.

YES, VERY DEPRESSING I KNOW.
anyway things aint cheap in HK, they re abt th same price as spore. jst their sports stuffs like adidas, nike etc is much cheaper as compared to spore. very VERY AWESOMEE.
so dear friends, i tried looking arnd for stuffs but well i only gt myself 1 simple plain jacket nd 1 normal tee. PATHETIC? so dont expect anything for yourself!
HAHAHAHHAHAS.

anyways this trip is actually more for family bonding and to jst tour around nd visit places of interest. not really a shopping trip planned. so yeaa, been thre nd done tht! i ve seen the ever most beautiful night scene in HK.
drove up to th peak which is OMG SO SO SO HIGH UP, practically situated ourselves at the mountain. night scenes in HK are speechless. beautiful lightnings and buildings!

i also been to HK disney land which was quite boring but well since i havent been to one, i felt totally like a kid. i enjoyed the company of MICKEY MOUSE AND MOREEE! HEHS! also visited OCEAN park - a much better place as compared to disney land i feel (: exciting thrill rides got me nd bro wobbly legs and much whinings. HAHAHAH, still brave enuff to try em' ALL!

okie, i'll try to upload the photos ASAP.
bcuz like you guys know im th ever most lazy being arnd. and thre is SO MANY piktures to be uploaded. im comtemplating to jst upload SOME (:

nd this stupid bestfriend gt me so darn stress thinking of getting something WONDERFUL back for her. but yar, eventually i decided not to jst take anything for th sake of bringing back something for her bcuz i felt tht wasnt sincere AT ALL.
and NOW SHE IS COMPLAINING. WOOOOO GOOOD JOB DARLING! WHT-AN-ARSE (:

GOODBYE!

2008-09-04T21:50:00.007+08:00

CATCH US FLYINGGG!
BKK IS THE FIRST DESTINATION FOR THE BEST FRIENDS!
more trips to come uhhh.. (((:

alrights, pictures from bkk. very backdated i know..

today marks the first day of schl, hates fellow school mates who influence me to skip schl, to leave class halfway, to miss UTs. better get far far away from me.
because its not gon be th same anymore. YES, GON BE THT NERD EVER AGN. WATCH ME SOARRR! hahahas. okay nonsense!
oh wells, im gon attend schl everyday. bcuz i had deals, nd im gon win em' ALL of THEM!

shag my mama,
went jogging with jeanice jst now. bcuz both of us were so afraid we will fall asleep if we NUA at home aft schl.
so get changed ran 5km. yes, 5KM.
walked ovr punggol park, jogged 3rounds, and jogged ovr to monfort.
GOOOD JOB! (:

nighty bimbos!
im meeting some tmrrrr. HAHAHAA

2008-08-23T20:06:00.002+08:00

back from bkk.. update sooon

currently down with heavy flu nd bad cough. guess valerie goh spread all her germs to me! gosssh. hate this.

gonna rest very early tonight~

2008-07-25T15:12:00.002+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

- Marilyn Monroe

jst got my wisdom tooth extracted out 2days back. and this time round its not th same procedure. THIS IS SURGICAL EXTRACTION!
AND ITS FCUKING PAINFUL.
so now you know evryone is lying whn they tell you, "no lar, not painful at all lo. th anesthetic works really well. its so numb you cant feel a pinch"
LIARS! at least if you let me knw its painful, i wld be mentally prepared. rather than being so SHOCKED at! HAHAHAS

but anyway yet again this courageous girl went to get this done herself ((:
ovr nd done with! 2down(: (now i can fix my braces agn nd get it out in 3mths time!)
well, not really. actually i had my fren with me before i went in, nd th min i came out he is alrdy outside waiting ;) feels so much btr like this.
ohh, they actually cut open my gum, took out/gorge out my deep rooted STUBBORN wisdom tooth nd then stitched it back for me.
nd fuck its pain. not very, bearable. its bearable jst bcuz you knw you have to bear with it no matter wht. so its nonsense. WHTEVER, I must refrain frm smoking for th first 2days for fear of infection. nd so i passed being a smoker.

MIND IS REALLY INDEED TH MOST POWERFUL ELEMENT IN URE ENTIRE BODY SYSTEM.
i actually fought temptation seeing both my frens SMOKING right before me. nd i jst kept stiff thre =.=
kinda surprised by myself actually. bcuz ppl who hangs out with me knows i cannot fight temptation well AT ALL. esp SMOKING DEALS. but probably im really afraid of infections inside my mouth, nd i wanna heal fast!
so anyway, it feels good smelling fresh, having btr breath ((:
2days nd going strong!

its friday again! weeeEE(:

2008-07-16T17:39:00.007+08:00

HERE'S MY BESTFRIEND, BE VERY AFRAID OF HER. LOOKING INNOCENT, BUT DANGEROUSLY SCARY.
because she always has a mask on, like this:

bestfriend and i share many many incidents, experience nd stories in our diff phase of life. which both bestfriend and me find them all hilarious happenings throughout this 5yrs friendship.

looking back those memories kept, for very common example :neo-prints, movie tix, LETTERS nd so much more secrets. HAHAS these are really valuable gifts money cannot exchange.
two days back, bestfriend came ovr my place and wreck up my drawers and anything tht she can lay her hands on and laugh big time at. all our photos taken way back then, thinking tht we looked so god darn chiooo in the past, now come to think of it, we were really living in our own world. hahahahahs! cant imagine how we actually went out with big t-shirts and lil denim skirt!!
so we were practically laughing our jaw off by looking at our oh-so-gorgeous!FAT! photos. darn silly

anyway these are good memories shared, nd now tht both of us has grown up, evrything has changed. our lifestyle has changed drastically, so much tht sometimes we find difficulty in finding time out to meet, to jst chill and share gossips. or rather not even the time to drop a phone call sometimes. sad as it is, but we both know whtever it is, no matter how far the distance, we will always always stay close in the heart, and when in need, we will still be th 1st to be thre for each other. righttt darling? ((:

presenting you the world's best example of BFF

SO MUCHH LOVEEEE<3
she's always my comfort zone, always someone whom i can rely on (:
may god bless this wonderful friendship for th counting years.

2008-06-28T19:50:00.002+08:00

o.0 lalalas~
i finally got my burberry wallet! =D
its a gift from my friend thou. so my plan to get myself the first genuine branded wallet is gone. boooo! but nvm, whtever it is. thank you sooo much ((:
i really love it very very muchhh! efforts appreciate, cause i know it was sucha brain-wreaking game for you to choose/guess which one was my love. HAHAHAS

been busy with nothing much recently. movies, late nights drive, exploring diff places and more food trips! tht explains why i ve recently gained 3kg )):
determined to lose weight before i get used to seeing tht needle pointing at _ _kg.

anyway i ve been very annoyed with people being too concerned with my schl lately. those tht ve been fucked by me bcuz you people asked whether im in schl, whether i still attend schl or whtever regarding me and my schl. im sorry, i didnt mean to fuck you guys up. it may be bcuz i ve been too stressed up ovr schl work and how to pull up my gpa and all tht might be th reasons to why i jst wish you guys leave me and my schl stuffs alone. before i get really pissed off, please do stop interfering. sighhh, thank you.

oh wells, finally caught my sex and the city! now im awaiting for th time to catch get smart, and 10 promises to my dog ;)

im darn shag right now. i only had 2hrs of sleep this morning nd im off to work.
cab to nd fro, its darn xiong i tell you. its as if i alrdy used up th money i earned today. LOLs

we ve shared so many secrets last night, it was a great chat thou. good mutual understanding. thou thre are alil misunderstanding here nd thre. but well, at th end of th day they re doubts being cleared up. which actually feels good, in a way more carefree.
i wanna break free. but i cant, bcuz we re neither here nor thre. *quoted*

haisss. i miss my sister! *smooochesssflyyyallthewaytofloridaandmeetmysislipppps* LOVE<3 ((:

2008-06-23T10:44:00.002+08:00

CORRECTION CORRECTION!

IM SO WRONG WHEN I SAY "RIGHT NOW SCHL IS MY PRIORITY"
quoted from the previous entry.

im so freaking wrong. darn how much i hate schl right now
im seriously into considering of quitting schl. its no joke, not a casual remark anymore.
i jst cant stand it.
i ve SIMPLY ZERO INTEREST in logistic.
WHAT THE FUCK IS SUPPLY CHAIN MANAGEMENT? HURR?

dont tell me to bear with it and carry on with schl bcuz this seems impossible for me.
im not someone who is able to tolerate feeling lousy and useless in schl.
whts with striving for academic when i ve simply no interest in wht im studying?
its no longer the problem whether i am made to excel in this or not. its whether i ve the fucking interest or i dont.
i could ve done really well and chiong for grades if wht im doing is of my liking.
dont tell me i ve no fucking choice as to study or not. bcuz I HAVE!!

MY LIFE, MY WISH. DONT GUIDE ME YOUR WAY, CAUSE IM GON SUCCEED MY FUTURE, NOT YOU!

i just cant excel in this course, not bcuz im simply dumb. BUT BCUZ I SIMPLY AM NOT BOTHERED TO.
ITS NOT A MATTER OF WHETHER I CAN DO WELL IN SCHL OR NOT. BUT WHETHER I HAVE THE HEART TO DO IT OR NOT GET IT?!

at the end of th day, im not making full use of myself. true?
MUTHAFUCKER.

2008-06-22T06:31:00.003+08:00

4days of IT SHOW is a chore. having to talk nd talk non stop. recommending th best of the bestest product is lame. sporeans are way too greedy sometimes. TOOO MUCH!
want things which are cheap and of best quality =.= sibei ngiao!
but anyway i ve the best time to slack for this show. i dont know why but i kept running arnd looking for frens, having many many smoke breaks in a day. and im jst not kept busy.
so my sales for the 1st two days was pretty lousy, or rather really really bad.
heard tht th in-charge wasnt really happy with my performance so i decided to chiong sales on the third day. nd yeaaa.. whn you want it, you ll make it.
nd so i did, i was top salesgirl among us on tht day. great! i only went for 1smoke break since 12-6pm. nd i practically non-stop looking for customers. phewww* hard work pays off ((:
in-charge was really pleased nd i see it frm his smile. hehs!

had two weeks of break from km8. first was bcuz of IT show, nd this weekend i jst wanna enjoy much (: take a break, away from work. feeels really good actually.
and my poor bestie gotta slog her life thre working full shift always evryday. wished i cld help but really restless nd i hope she understands(:
hopefully km8 hires another full time cashier fast. else km8 gon kill my best friend really sooon )): i misss you dearest. we gotta go hongkong sooon.

-and this really made my heart sink a bit.

Im a designer who is going to build a house at an area where a similiar house was onced struck down by earthquakes.
Despite the earthquakes and empty knowledge about building a house, i still took on the challenge.
So i started to design the building.
And yes.
The building was beautifully designed,
a good head start.
I was very happy and confident then.
But now when it comes to building it,
ive totally no experience at all.
So, i went around desperately looking for help.
Great helps,
but i know those helps will eventually go away after i used up my capital.
So i got to think of a plan B.
Yes,
thought of one.
So i started working on it.
I decided to complete a room first,
at least there would be a place for me to live in even if the rest is still incomplete.
Used up all my money to build and beautify the room but i am happy because ive got a beautiful room.
However as time goes by,
earthquakes repeatedly happened out of the blue,
damages here and there.
And the room no longer holds the beauty it used to hold.
Everything in there seems to be "old" and "broken",
and somehow seems to be collapsing any moment should another earthquake comes.
And the only way is to move out.
But i really love this house alot,
its like a part of me already.
I really wanted to renovate it,
beautify it further.
But ive run out money and energy to do so.
I tried building stuffs that is within my capability now.
But i realised im always shortage of something to completion.
So it was never completed.
But still,
i chose to stay.
And so now,
all i can do is to pray for a miracle to happen and that the next earthquake will never come.
Else,
im prepared for the worst.

Nothing much about me,
im just a dreamer who loves that house of mine.

*Eventually the earthquake came and destroyed the house,
now im at loss.

2008-06-12T01:09:00.002+08:00

its not a good wed today. my wed are usually quite happening cause its th ladies night nd yea if you realise im always out at this hr on this day of th week.
but not for today ): had quite a bad day since morning.
work up late for work, nd only realise i forgotten t pack my working attire in my bag aft placing my bag on th table at km8's. gosh, how dumb. nd bcuz i was munching my yummylicious pizza breakky all th way in the cabby ride i did not bother t open my bag t check anything. =.=
so i got quite a ugly face frm mister ken upon telling him th news of leaving my attire at hm. sighh wht a morning greeting darn annoying.
so i was supposed t go hm nd get it. nd i was jst thinking t myself if i were t cab to nd fro its gon cost me my day's pay. not worth it.
so i suggested t ken tht i go ovr vivo nd get a top will do, nd he agreed.
started work at only 1 nd off work at supposedly 6 but nopes, 5. so lame -.-

sucha boring wednesday. headed hm aft work nd slack all th way.
tmr marks th beginning of my hectic week. will be workin at suntec's pc show frm tmr-sunday. under panasonic booth, hopefully its slam nd time passes very fast while we earn alot =D

realise evryone arnd me are happily in a r/s. is this karma or wht? in th past i was th one who is always sticking t my boyf nd neglect my frens arnd me. nd now, im being neglected. hahas, actually not so lar. at least bestfriend still spares much time for me ((: but i think this is seriously karma, i rmrbed janey told me before nd i agreed. LOLs
right now, im always spending quality time with my parents, like watching tv programmes tgt is a kind of quality time spent i feel. at least i talk t daddy much often than before nd go out for dinner with them more often now. ohhh nd right now im like their only child. bcuz sis is away, so far far away in florida, nd bro jst left t bangkok for business trip 2days back. so yeaa, all attention span on me!! i wonder how single child survive ?? so darn boring w/o my siblings arnd. i jst miss th way my sis disturbs me evry single day whether im sleeping or awake. nd finally i get t msn her aft 1 freaking mth. darn i miss her so much, i actually felt emotional while having a chat with her. as usual, she kb alot. hahas but i find it quite lovable suddenly. im "wht-an-ass" right. LOL
anyways i jst hope she is doing good ovr thre cause im really worried. nd i hope time flies, really wish 3mths will pass in a blink of eye nd there i have my sis back with me ((:

seeing my cousin being so in love and living in her lil oasis of bliss, i feel so happy for her. its this kinda feeling tht really makes me miss having someone arnd me. i miss being hugged, being treated like a princess. being in love is th best thing on earth i'll ve t agree.
singlehood is good at different times.
right now, im satisfied with life. or mayb a lil not.
its a lil love nd hate r/s i ve for my lifestyle.

this might sounds wrong to many, but my priority as for now is S.C.H.O.O.L
HEEEEEEES!

alrights gotta go t bed now before i start waking up late nd having memory lapse agn.
nighty t my beautiful friends!

2008-06-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

i feel so productive today ((: 2thumbs up!
i woke up early, had a very fulfilling breakfast nd off t schl's library for some impt reference book. a lil disappointed tht my faci wasnt arnd nd i couldnt use 1more day t catch up wht i ve lost during my 'missing schl days' sighhh.
nvm, gon have a lesson with him tmr. hope i can learn whtever i ve missed out within hrs. im jst gon try try TRY.
then, i felt irritated by my very cui hair nd so headed ovr t boon lay for a hair cut. afterwhich went ovr t town t collect my phone aft servicing. i dont feel like my phone is any btr now thou. can you believe its still auto charging aft i switch off th plug? this is retarded.

ohh nd finally i caught my show!! "MADE OF HONOUR" i know this sounds silly cause this show been out for quite some time alrdy. but anyway imma happy girl aft movie! =D
been wanting t catch this show since its trailer! nd well good enuff its not a disappointing show since my expectation was really high ((:
aft which had a late dinn nd left home.

wht i mean by being very productive today is bcuz im all alone today except for breakky nd movie/dinn. im all alone accomplishing wht i ve to today. feels darn shiok. th best part is i did not tke any cabby ride for th whole of today. i travel by trains nd bus nd trains nd bus. its darn boring nd tiring bcuz all my journey are really long ones. i actually took a 1hr ride frm boon lay t town. goshh.

1st was bus t schl
train t boonlay followed by a bus t th salon
then bus back t interchange nd train t town
nd then train frm town t amk hub
lastly bus home.
woahhh. amazing! very very goood karen. keep it up(:
you ve saved a whole lot of money today(:
nd also fully utilize public transport nd a 24hr.

okay now im shag like a cow. phewww aft a good shower, its time t love my body ;)

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind
Just wanna dance and have a good time

Take this for just what it is

let me have my life th way i want it t be.
thou paths might be wrong, least i learn nd finally eventually i will take th right path back home.
i ve heard enuff nd seen too much stares.
i ll jst go mad one fine day.

2008-06-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

its daddy's birthday today.
so as usual we had family dinner tgt, w/o sis this yr.
she missed out really delicious delicacies.
we had really good shark fin's soup for the start, and bird nest t end off with. each on our own :D
whenever it comes t having bird nest, i will always be th last t finish it and yet th first t name my order. HAHAS! lick evry bit of it into my stomach. hehs!
anyway we had our dinner at thai village, they have surprisingly good shark fins.

was really shag out lately. friday and saturday nights are very late nights for me.
then comes sunday 12hrs of work at km8 kills! jst training my eyelids t stay open for longer hrs. goshh.

ohhh btw daddy got me a new phone. W960i :D
not sure if its his bdae today or mine. LOLs
and i got him a nauctica polo tee for pressie, guess he likes it as well.
i always love surprises like this, a new cell phone works best!
sometimes daddy can be very mean, but whn he is nice, he really very steady.
jst told him i needed this phone few days back nd efficiently i got it today ((:
shiok!

im in love with the song, santa monica by savage garden!

i didnt get my burberry wallet in the end ):
i thot it wasnt really a NEED for me so i missed it. sighhh why was i not born a rich kid?? darnn ):

i dont know if you re gon read this.
to you know who you are: i really dont know wht you want. you say smth yet do a different thing. if you dont mean wht you say, jst please.. keep it to yourself.

imma happy girl today! good food nd a new phone! weeeee (:
oh nd i met up with wy today, finally he is back frm south africa nd im so glad he texted me th first thing he land in spore. got me chocs which says, P.S YOU MEAN THE WORLD 2 ME (:
im so touched boy ((: always the one who makes my smile.

2008-05-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

AM SUCHA BRAVE GIRL TODAY.

i went t my usual dental appt this afternoon. nd finally aft many many times of persuasion from dr loh t get my wisdom tooth extract out, i finally gt it figured out today nd went ahead t get tht process done. pheeewwww~
nvr had sucha bad afternoon before, darn paranoid! i had really draggy feets t parkway today. goshhh
nd finally its done. hear no more naggings frm doctor. hahas!
ehh jst whn i thot my greatest fear is solved. here comes another one...

darn this one is even worse, i ve got t get my bottom wisdom tooth extract out and this time round its not as simple. my wisdom tooth is being hidden below those gums and t extract this fcuk out i ve t go for a mini surgery. t cut open th gum, take tht fuck out nd stitch my gums back.
sounds darn scary, nd im really worried. asked th doctor if i can be put t sleep nd doctor laughed big time. wthh lo calls me a "scally cat"! gggrrr!
t be honest, i ve always been very very afraid of dentist. i plucked up loads of courage t put on braces nd now i ve t go thru this shit. urrrgggh, i know its nth much, jst taking out wisdom tooth which evryone will have t do this one day. but no, its different for me. im considered two thumbs up cause im brave. i fucking went ALONE!
claps x 100 (:

anyway, HOLS HERE I COME!! :D
having 2weeks of hols starting frm tmr. i know many must be thinking it doesnt make a diff t me since i ve always been skipping sch on normal days as well. but thts whre you are wrong!
during this hols, im gon make full use of it.
1stly nd most imptly, i will be making full use of this short break t do catching up for schl work. will be returning t schl for some xtra lessons i requested from my facilitator.
2ndly, i can work my ass off w/o having worries tht i wont be able t wake up for sch th next day.
3rd, i can participate in IT show agn! weeeee ((: cause CASH IS KING! nd I AM GREEEDY! mmmmmm..

lastly, spend more time recuperating. nd be ready t strive for schl aft this short break. ;)

anyway im considering a burberry wallet nd tote bag, nd im working my ass off t get it definately! nd i ve many many plans, but all this works out only if i have enuff $$$.
nd luckily i ve one plan down, settled! REALLY EXCITED. LETS JST HOPE EVRYTHING WILL GO SMOOTHLY ACCORDING T PLAN ND NO ONE IS ALLOWED T SCREW THIS UP cause im gg away with my love(:

btw any idea whn great singapore sales gon end anybody?

oh look at th pictures above. tht lil husky puppy is my fren's! gosh so charming please..
i immediately asked daddy if i can get one too nd he rejected me like i wont be disappointed. humrpph!

well, afterall life's been treating me not too bad. at least i dont meet financial crisis anymore. jst tht i still don't enjoy enough time ):

alrights! gotta go.
love all my girls :D

i jst thot its easy t pretend im okay nd go with your flow.

2008-05-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

been so long since my last post.
anyway i finally had a good sleep aft so many nights of limited hrs of sleep.

PUBLIC HOLIDAY seems th same t me.
got suspended frm schl for being caught smoking th 3rd time in schl compound. this is super lame nd makes no sense. i dont mind being fine, but why do suspension? jst wasting my time nd making me miss test ovr agn nd agn. darn ass =.=
but anyway no worries ppl, im making full use of my 1week officially break frm schl. HAHAs! jst ENJOY, CAUSE I VE NO CHOICE.

YAY! IT SHOW'S PAY IS READY FOR COLLECTION =D
i ve earned quite abit considering working for only 3days. but they re darn slam ones thou, nd well.. all are worth it for $$$.

HAPPY SHOPPING SOOOOON! ((:
I MISS ALL MY FRUITIES BERI BERI MUCHHIE.
SHOW UP PLEASEE, ALL STOP GG INTO HIDING!
its understood tht all re busy as well bcuz of work, boyf, nd sleeep.
so nvm, karen shall jst wait.

anyway i ve made up my mind, im not giving schl up. nd im gon work hard t catch up with my workloads duing my 2weeks hols. i ve no time t lose anymore if i wanna cont' schling. so i'll jst make sure i attend schl EVRYDAY, nd do self-study on my own.
wish me luck babes!

BANGKOK trip is getting more nd more tempting.
whn i feel rich ;) hahas!

WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING ?

2008-05-08T03:23:00.006+08:00

this is bad, i still cant get to sleep aft tossing and turning on my bed for almost an hr considering how tired i am now. siggh

actually, life hasnt been really fantastic recently.
im lost. wandering in my own lala land w/o having really sensible thoughts lately.
schl's beeen a bitch as usual. im starting t feel gan jiong thou. yet im still slacking away. th idea of quitting schl been on my mind for th whole of yest nd today. but i know, thts definately not a wise choice.

right now, im stuck in between.
evrything is nt working out th way i want em' t be. nd this is torturing.
i miss th good old days whre by i can jst laugh my ass off with no worries.
right now, putting on a smile is th best thing i can do, nd i ve been practising this very much. its getting real tough nd tiring.

secondary schl life seems so much btr, its always good t stay sweet sixteen. agreeed?

urrrgh. it sucks t be me it sucks t be me it sucks it sucks it sucks t be me.thank you kay for having this quote in ure blog, it jst applies t me so darn well.

so what is happening in th mind?
i can no longer differentiate from right nd wrong, this is simply silly.
dissapointing acts of mine, i gotta pay with my heartaches.

on a lighter note, i met ferlynn today. realise how much i miss her, upon seeing her i felt so happy :D
nd not forgetting my dearest valerie, always make my day ((:

2008-05-02T16:53:00.002+08:00

havent been attending schl recently.
th other day daddy asked me t open letter box for him cause he jst had a mini-op nd he have difficulties walking too much. so i reluctantly went down, unlocked nd darn soo many letters i see. okay then nvm, while clearing all th stupid junk mails, i found one letter written, REPUBLIC POLY. hahahahas, i felt so lucky immediately, cause i knew this two letters gon get me into deep deep shit. i didnt bother t read em' i jst happily dumped it into th bin. woah, felt so relieved all of a sudden. so thank you daddy for this favour. LOL
anyway been feeling guilty missing schl as well, worse thing is i missed my UT this afternoon for missing schl agn. seng guan as usual tried waking me up for schl knowing tht i ve a UT this afternoon. but he recieved th same kinda response, tht is me actually answering th phone yet keeping all silence, hahas. th minute he knew i thot it was my alarm nd i jst bothered t off it.
he experieced this quite a few times alrdy, so being th smart him i think hanged up immediately aft 3sec of silence. LOL

dumb valerie lost my paycheque! nd on top of tht, made me fall yest. soo fcuking embarrassing. been so long since i last experienced a fall on my buttocks. th most embarrassing part is whn santos nd kai laughed from behind like nobody's business. darn it darn it! HAHAHAs. now im suffering frm some scratches nd blue-black on my back. urrrggh!

anyway i so dislike public hols eve. how irritating whn evrywhre is so darn packed nd you ended up having a "waiting day" =.=
well nvm, tht was earlier in th night. afterall still had fun at boat quay nd mos (:
then my stupid sister gotta get drunk nd give me so much trouble. gggrrr!
nvm, love her still. she is flying off tmr at 2plus. darn, i cant bear t see her go. but well, its not like she is not coming back. but its in a matter of 4mths time. feeling so emo at th thought of sending her off tmr. hold it, she is sucha independent girl nd now we can do so much with webcam nd skype. jst gon miss th way she disturbs me all th time nd her lively voice surrounding th house :(

alrighty, gotta go off now.
shopping shopping do me gooood (:

2008-04-25T00:39:00.004+08:00

1week off from schl. pronounced guilty, okay nvm. let it pass

surely been enjoying moments spending with dearest valerie. hahas, sounds like les but mayb we can really be seen as les by others.
we had always been doing stupid, weird, lame stuffs tgt. we can jst sit nd chill whole night w/o having lack of topics t gossip or discuss abt.

today was a day tgt doing silly stuffs like visiting th arcade nd sitting by th roads talking bout our diff phrase of life. wht we do during our secondary rebellious stage. all th naughty stuffs which today, we felt was not enuff fun done back then. but well, life is cruel, you definately can nvr turn back time. ohh gosh how sad.
nd so we learned t cherish evry min doing useful nd memorable activities tgt ((:

sometimes i feel like i ve really good patience. thou i am normally known as th super impatient girl on earth. cause i ll keep nagging nd nagging if someone makes me wait.
but this particular person definately pushed his luck. fucking owe money pay money, act like a man will you?
darn, is thre such logic like.. you borrowed money nd you havent return yet you re asking for ure winnings? thick skin or wht? i dont know.
i thot thre was sucha word "DEDUCT" exist. but oh well, not in his dictionary.
i been tolerating nd swallowing much of my anger down alrdy. nd people who knows nd seen me thru knows whts gg on really well. how much i wish i can keep this all t myself nd save ure darn face, but you showed how much you dont deserve it. nd i guess i have waited long enuff before i can no longer tolerate ure NONSENSE no more. here you go, hate me for being harsh. obey th rules in life, nd darn respect urself.
i jst cant imagine thre is this one day tht i wld leave you such comments nd th impression of you in my eyes are jst so wasted. nd yet haa, i still respect you as my friend. my words cld have been more precise nd detailed info, but no. thts nt wht my principles are talking abt. so darn the you-know-who-you-are, urrrrgggh!
haa, given up long time ago. play ure game well, cause people are watching.
words spread hell fast.

days like this are worth enjoying with dearest val. nd yest she made me th happiest best friend. she acc-ed me t clarke quay nd we club hop before settling down at THE ARENA. see tht smile on my face, they satisfy her (:

alrights, goodnights people.
work on weekends yet agn. so caught up with evrything, but yet im moving so slowly.
now, cash is KING. nth beats having more of tht in my life currently.
nd maybe jst maybe, romance round th corner.

lastly, i miss my fruities!
janey i nvr forget you lar, nvr will i ever.
help me tell ferfer i miss her tooooo.

2008-04-20T15:29:00.002+08:00

backbackback!!

m'sia KL was not bad. had quite abit of fun, nd lots of laughters =D
hahas. bad thing is im always starving. kana sai, cause im always lazy t wake up early for breakfast at th hotel. LOL

anw, nothing much thre also.
kinda missed home. was so happy whn i reached spore! finally i seek comfort (:
wooo, aft a long 4days trip. i was so tired nd shag. th minute i reached home, unpack all my stuffs nd slept all th way till now? gawd, like pig.

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS, WHRE YALL ?
HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING FINE.
I MISS MISS MISS ALLLLLLLL! =D

i jst gave someone 4d no. nd he says if tio, treat me go drink.
if tio first prize fly me t hongkong t play!
wahhh... steady ballls! (:

alrighty, gon go catch more restt.
lovelovelove my girls!

2008-04-12T18:15:00.003+08:00

yest night was pubbing at boat quay with cheryl's frens then hopped t zouk with my frens (:
trance made us so crazy. so we begged our way thru t phuture nd thre we gooo super song! LOL
realise th world is so small, my fren actually see cheryl in schl before. HAHAs
spore is so much less than jst a dot. darn, everywhre we go we see familiar faces. nd then, so many common frens arnd. woooo~ nd so rumours spread esp fast >.<

missed work today due t concussion. LOLs
omgomgomg. im waiting fo a call, nd am getting impatient alrdy.
shooo! off my mind right now! humrrphh.

OUT!

2008-04-11T20:39:00.002+08:00

came home early frm schl today due t really bad stomach cramps.
slept frm 1pm-5pm, woke up had some cereals nd went back t sleep frm6pm-8pm.
i know im sucha pigg.

i had some dreams, both good nd bad ones.
oh mannn. suddenly i misses you so much, bcuz you re in one of th dream, th sweetest one.
havent been seeing you for so long, nd probably tht why i dreamt tht th schl finally released you nd we happily headed for dinn. HAHAs silly me.
ended of with a hugg, nd i was awaken by some ass who called me in btwn my sleep. darn!
LOL

alrighty, gon go prepare nd off t drinking session with cheryl (:

"Victory always starts in the head. It's a state of mind. It then spreads with such radiance and such affirmations that destiny can do nothing but obey."
- Douchan Gersi

2008-04-10T20:30:00.003+08:00

havent updated for almost a week.
been so busy evryday ): nd nt t mention my BURNT weekends. sighhh
nvm, i wanna see money which is more impt thank any other things in life nw.
money = happiness! =D

anw mon schl officially reopens. but yeaaa. i happily skipped th 1st two days of schl. i feeel like a bitch!

monday saw me at town happily painting nails with steph at th lousiest manicurist shop. omg, so much for our gentleness aft evrything is done. yet right at th end of th day, my nails are all still cui -.- he calls me th roughest girl, yet says he gon bring me go do up my nails bcuz my nails are partly cui cause of him=.= but this time round i swear smth is wrong with th manicurist technique lar. gggrrr! so not worth it. hmm..
aft tht, steph left for her fren. nd i was choosing t go btwn two places. either t obar t meet th km8 beautiful people, or t find someone else. then, i made up my mind nd head t whre my heart calls out for. HAHAHA, jst kidding please.
was so shag i wanted t head home. but since i promised t go rescue him nd so i did (:
in th end, i got him in th whole worst state by pouring 5secs of martell right into his "trusted" open mouth for me. LOL! so much fo trusting me t pour water, but... lalala =p
dragonfly aft pubbing. so got home only at 6am, as usual.

slept like a log on tues morning. so promised willie we gon have dinn tgt tht night. chilled th whole afternoon nd met willie at xinmin's prata shop. in th end, we didnt even eat. jst chat chat chat all th way till i left t meet val dearest at hongkong cafe along with my lappy! all so excited yet evrything failed operating at mac. cbbbb HAHAs
bumped into issac thre, i see him evrywhre in hougang lar gosh! LOL
then aft trouble shooting for so long at MAC'D, finally we gave up nd took a ride from issac back t val's place. thank you nicest guy (: nd yeaa, i nvr forget our breakfast/lunch/dinner/supper hopefully its gon happen sooon whn we both are free yeap.
dicussion btwn me nd val abt our holiday trips ends at arnd 4. then i met willie agn nd he FORCED ME t WALK HOME! asshole. walk t 401, sekali he hungry. so we settled down for yummilious mee siam. nd carried on our walk. lucky thing he walked me home else im so gon whack him darn!
hahas anw good excercise lar. reached home only at 630. kana big time frm daddy nd mommy both at th same time, nd finally bedtime stories(:

woke up early on wed t collect my passport. feeling so shiok. hmm.. then met up with cheryl initially wanted t collect her hp at PS. but our fingers were darn itchy we headed t bugis for manicure. YES AGN FOR ME. removed tht ugly nails nd put on a new design. 1st time tried this kinda gradient pattern all thanks t cheryl (:
dinn was a treat frm cheryl at sakae sushi. darn shiok! =D
aftwhich, headed t meet him at bendeemer for another round of dinner/supper.
sorry willie couldnt join you guys at prata house due t having t wake up early for sch today.

weee! so finally i attended schl today. met my new classmates, well, they re fine people. least i wasnt freaked out by any of them(:
finally seeing my dearest seng guan aft so long of holi breaks. misses his crap! LOL

TMR GON BE A PARTY NIGHT! LOVELOVELOVE
cheeers people(:

2008-04-04T16:38:00.003+08:00

APRIL FOOL FAILED ME. hahahas
kana cheated by my frens. nd i failed in cheating my frens back. darn th cycle! but well val dearest got cheated by me thou. it was darn dumb nd she actually believed. LOLs

so anyway MON was family dinner at raffles hotel. th buffet thre aint so shiok as compared t th previous family dinner. forgotten which hotel tht was. but th LOBSTER wasss woooooosh! SO GOOOD SO GOOOD. th other time thre was 7 of us dinn thre. this time round thre is only 6. cause one left th family. HAHAs. yeaaa. know who? LOL
well, family dinn was good. catching up with bro nd sis. seeing daddy more than 15mins. HAHAs!
ohohoh! nd wht adds on t th happiness is th new arrived car daddy got on monday itself also! darn shiok, its errmm if im not wrong toyota camry 2.4
was so much btr than daddy's previous precious which is toyota corolla Altis which now belongs t my sis, nd in may t my bro. hmm.. none of my piece ):
NVM, DRIVING LISENCE IM NEARING TO YOUUUU! WOOOOO, PASSED MY BTT aft failing my 1st time. darn panick!

aft dinn, daddy dropped me at kovan t meet up with val. guess me nd val darling has been meeting up let say almost evryday?? hahas. nd thre's new topic t talk abt evry single meeting. we re super gossipers luh!
then.. VALERIE acc me OUT! so shiok tht feeling. ahyi gege allows her out more often nowadays. which is sucha pleasant good news ((: x100
drank like mad once agn-.- but good thing i wasnt even half gone. was perfectly fine (:

WED was a busy busy day. cause on tues night smth really suay happened. was enjoying ourselves so much we played arnd. then!! th bad thing jst happen in ONE PUSH.
my friend fell down nd knocked her chin. she was yelling in pain yet i was laughing real hard at another corner. till i see things aint gg right, so i walked ovr nd asked in a laughing mode "eh, hahahas. wht happen? stand up lei"
then she replied " i think my tooth broke"
nd OMGGGZ, HER DARN TOOTH REALLY BROKE INTO HALF. worse thing its her TWO FRONT TEETH luh!
shitshitshit, i was panicking like a mad woman. nd yet she got up, nd laughed t herself. then carried on with her forever NVM mindset. she said, " nvm luh. i dont like my front teeth anw"
gawd, she pro positive thinker. HAHAs
nd omg, she looked darn awful with two front broken teeth. LOL
so wed was searching fo th best dental place t fix her ugly teeth.
darn tiring, fianlly found one nd doctor gave magic t her teeth. aft fixing, touching up, her teeth they looked perfectly fine (((: lots of smiles aft tht.

then WED NIGHT i went ovr t en lounge t find my fren thre. drank chivas which got me vomitting like mad! so bad i wanna head hm alrdy, my fren pulled me t zoukkk. gawd! thts why i skipped th pubbing outting with km8 ppl! so sad ):
i thot i was wasted, but upon reaching zouk i felt like normal, back t sober.
at th end of th day, my fren gt wasted. hahas!

THURS was btt, nd i passed! aft tht, went ovr t sentosa for my cheryl darling. she was in a down down moood. sighhh i was in her position before nd i know exactly hw it feels. head t kovan fo supper aft.

TONIGHT,FRI. gon party like a wild child agn. its MOS with cheryl (:
hopefully my low mood gon get high at night! =D

hit back in reality, you knw dreams are only meant for sleeping.

2008-03-31T02:27:00.003+08:00

FRUITIES FINALLY MET UP! =D
VERY NICE TO SEE ALMOST EVERYONE THRE CEPT FO MOTHER QUEK.
visited grapevine t meet up with my chio-est friends aft dinn at ben's place.
realise ben is very nice, always inviting me ovr t hav dinn. nd make sure i ve my fill before i leave. but always petty lo, if i dont wanna go then she will nag nag nag. LOLs
oh wait, BACK T MY FRUITIES gathering. so it was great seeing em' aft so long. all of em' re either working or schling soon. jst hope we can hav more of such meetings t get tgt nd laugh our internal organs out alrights! most imptly cam-whoring plays a strong role for FRUITIES. keep all cheezy photos as beautiful memories ((:
all was good. aft which went me nd val went fo supper at hongkong cafe. then im off t zoukieee.

workworkWORK..
been burning all my weekends working. right nw, cash is more impt than anything. haa
gosh.. anw i been betting soccer quite abit lately. i know girls aint suppose t bet, bcuz they look awful. girls always at th losing end, grrrr!

anw work has been fine except some stupid mistakes i always make. got val into trouble by having t do refunds nd all. am sorry dearest, i will do it carefully nd most imptly consult before i do anything im nt sure 1st k. gon decrease th mistakes i make during work, nd i think i ve been doing okay since each time i work i gt lesser mistakes done nd im more familiar with th cashier system now(: for now, gotta learn t speed up.

woah, been having 3hrs of sleep each night. darn bad fo health gosh..
aft wed of zouk, i guess i havent had enuff fun tht night. i went t zouk agn on friday-.-
i wasnt really wanting t go, but phone kept ringing. one calls, another text.
darn, so i made up my mind nd went down cashless. bcuz i can be signed in, nd i ll be sent hm. so my fren says, no money jst come down. everything covered(: soo, cabbed down aft hongkong cafe with val dearest. so much i wish she will follow me thre, but she cant ): super sad. went down alone t meet tht bunch of crazy people. HAHAs
im glad i controlled th amount of alcohol i drank knowing tht i have t work th nxt morn.
aft zouk, visited th thai pub. didnt wanna go bcuz i really wish i cn go back early t catch more sleeps. but this particular someone kept asking me t stay. so yeaa.. stayed thru' out nd only gt hm at 5+am. nxt day gt me darn shag..

hmm.. so anyway, im nt sure if you gon read this. but i still hav t say.
i hope we jst stay as friends th way we are. aint we doing fine? all along i ve always only seen you as a nice friend of mine, being really sweet nd thoughtful all th time. probably i wld ve guessed this all along. but bcuz i knw we aint gon work out, so i tried avoiding many occasions of hanging out tgt so you wont fall deeper.
well, guess i didnt do a good job.
im sorry rejection is th last thing i wld ever wanna do, nd its my last resort.
ure sudden confession of feelings gt me feelin' really uneasy.
all i know is i've been in nd out of r/s nd am getting tired of lovin'
jst wanna lead a pampered life, nd start lovin' myself.
you re sucha nice guy but i gotta give you a miss. bcuz i know my best aint here with me.
right now, i no longer believe in myself.
dont waste ure time.

as i jst failed one ; nd i promised nvr gon have a 2nd one t suffer th same way.

2008-03-28T04:44:00.006+08:00

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.
What's" Your Love Style?

i jst found this while reading thru my old entries.. nd i thot it kinda really describe wht kinda lover i am. or shld i say, i previously am. im nt sure if i still am one right nw hmm.. wait till i find tht old karen back, nd i shall look into love once agn.

this post is -edited-

2008-03-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

you'd nvr bother t spare a thought fo me.
nd im tired of giving you so much of my energy.
this ve t come t an end. thts it fo you now..
i wish i cld do btr, then i realise its my best am alrdy giving you.

sometimes i jst thot tht i cld do anything, jst anything of me for you so long it doesnt kills me to do so.
but hw do i cont' whn you re reacting like this? me being taken fo granted whn im doing you a favour? c'mon luh..

its alright you dont return favours, but do show some respect.
thank you bastard (:

before i get real mean, you'd btr come lickin' my boots.

2008-03-27T18:31:00.005+08:00

so it was town-ing with my super-darling last night.
met up at th very last min agn. lols, she called at 8+pm, nd we planned for movie at town nd th slot was 9.30pm.. was sucha rush luh. wasted money nd cabbed down agn ):
as usual, i reached aft th show started.
caught spiderwick chronicles 5/5! th show was fantastic, magical feeling (:

afterwhich, left cine for meridian hotel thre th bali house to went to look for augustine nd settled thre to chill. oh, i had a drink with lots of cherrry! yay! LOL, slacked till 1am nd i left fo zouk whileas val left fo home, as always she's sucha boring freak you see.
MAD ABOUT MAMBO JUMBO NOT!
met up with cheryl darling, yvonne nd one of her fren. we were thre so late th tix fo phuture was sold out ): so no choice but to enjoy th mambo songs then. actually it wasnt so bad luh. jst tht phuture is btr. HAHAs! so anyway aaron, steph, louis nd all were at phuture. so arron met me at th smoking room nd was cracking his brains to sneak me into phuture which was so impossible cause i jst tried -.- hahas, but anyway at arnd 2+ we still successfully entered phuture! weeeee! all thanks t arron for being very nice t actually come ovr t zouk nd look fo me jst t bring us into phuture agn. hehs! always th nicest guy arnd! (:

anw i promised myself nt to get wobbly legs back hm. nd yeaa.. i only had a glass of vodka ribena nd thts it. i was so sober it wasnt so fun. LOL

saw nigel nd ivann ovr at phuture. such coincidence, nigel nd ivann actually know each other whn i actually know th both of them seperately. they were also surprised i knew them both! spore is forever so small, no wonder its only worth tht DOT on th map. haa

had fun afterall (:

2008-03-26T04:37:00.003+08:00

had a last min outing. thot of staying at hm fo th whole of today to hibernate. cause anw i ve no cash -.- sad case luh.
but anw si pang wanna treat me fo movie, so i acc-ed him.
went t amk hub t catch th show SEMI-PRO 2.5/5 rating. we were late fo th show ahhh. was supposed t be a 10pm slot, nd we only gt our tix at 10.10pm nd si pang kept blaming me fo being late>.< c'mon lo! you reach my hse downstairs also nvr call riggghhht LO SUO!
anw th show was over rated luh. it wasnt as fantastic like wht my fren say, laugh till balls cramp?? HAHAs
si pang was kinda disappointed with th show anyways. he thot it was supposed t be good. but yeaa.. kinda lousy.

well, ac didnt manage t win his pool competition today ): probably cause i wasnt thre t cheer. HAHAs, oppps!

afterwhich, left fo supper. supposedly sk nd cheryl wanted t join. then sk kana called back by boyf while on th way walking ovr nd stupid cheryl actually lied. thot she wasnt coming nd we were abt t make our way hm. then suddenly she texted "otw lar" thts my too-free babygirl -.- then followed by huiyun, joined us aft work.
th 4 of us was so busy chit-chatting abt sec schl results. nd i jst refuse to believe tht si pang actually scored A1 for his E MATHS. omgzzz, his face doesnt do justice luh. HAHAs
realied i havent meet up with huiyun fo oh-so-long, nd we settled down fo a long goood chat afterwards.

OKAY, I NEEDA GO GET MY PASSPORT RE-NEWED ASAP! i wanna travel to bangkokkkkkk plu-leasseee ): gotta get my lazy ass up to lavender soooon.

sigh, gotta work fo an event this friday nd i hav to miss my fruities gathering )):

had bad dreams last night, im so afraid t fall to sleep now. hmm...
goodnights ):

2008-03-25T01:36:00.004+08:00

MONEY$$$ talks, i HATE totallyy.

its darn annoying whn you have to repeatedly remind someone to pay up. nd th most annoying part is whn you dont feel like doing so nd yet you have to bcuz you have nt enuff cash to help him yet. another thing tht annoys me is why isnt he even auto/considerate (for me) abit?
gggrrr, darn lame. its getting on my nerve aft tolerating this shit for quite awhile nd quite afew times.

thank god i ve super nice frens arnd, they did nt even ask from me for th cash i lost on soccer. all they do is, "nvm lar karen, other days also can no hurry" but too bad i ve my ego to look aft, i jst simply cant stand seeing myself not paying up my losses. but this time round its diff, i shared losses with my fren. nd he didnt had th time to drop by atm machines. nd this explains my entry here.
HATEMONEYTALKS with you.

anyhows, its been sucha hectic weekend for me. had a trip down to mars, caught "vantage point" 2.5/5 i wld rate.
its not really interesting, in fact i find it alil lame.
nd lastly, mars felt goood afterall (:

oh yeaaa, jst yest i saw an incident tht happen minutes ago, its actually bike buang. okay, its scary.. 2bodies lying jst beside our transport. okay, nd im not gon talk abt it anymore. its freakyy!
afterwhich, went ovr to ponggol nasi lemak for supper. guess we didnt had much appetite aft wht we saw. goshhh.. {curiosity kills th cat}

had a duper long rest today. woke up late evening nd did nth much for th restless day.
hmm.. except tht i went to watch hockey match jst now, then head for supper nd finally home sweeet home (:

ohohoh btw i thot i shld say, me nd val were kinda lucky gamblers. we actually escaped th loss of money sadness. HAHAHAs! we were supposed to buy arsenal match last night. bcuz everyone says arsenal gon win tht match against chelsea. so being the noobers we are, we was abt to follow em' nd place bets for arsenal win. nd thank god we were 1min late aft they kick off nd soo, we didnt suffer any loss instead we won our total goals bet. woooo! i know gambling is bad for health. but anw, i dont do this often. jst fo fun, nd th amount is small ? (: thankyou nelson for ure advice, its pretty much useful, nd i had it drilled in.
he says,
nelsonn says:
yeah
nelsonn says:
so straining
nelsonn says:
when losing you stress where to find that money. then wanna double or nothing. then in the end double up your losses.

which i find it so true. nd in th 1st place, if you knw me. i discourage gambling right frm th start.
*someone knows this more than anyone else.

alrights, long nd super RANDOM entry. im considering if i shld head down to dblo tmr to support ac. for his pool competition. hmm..

goodnights love.

2008-03-20T22:43:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY'MARC!!!
i couldnt find a pic of you nd me looking good tgt. so i have to upload this pretty pic of you nd janey one instead. guess its time we really camwhore tgt hurr baby :(
anw, hope you enjoyed urself on this VERY SPECIAL DAY alrights. sry tht i had to leave early w/o even having a piece of cake :( bcuz im really really shagg dear. nd i gotta wake up early tmrr. i know you understand yess. hees! anyhoooos, im wishing you a very blissful 17th birthday BABYYYYY! nd tht evrything goes smoothly fo you. most imptly, my baby gotta stay this cheerful ALL THE WAY alrights! keep up tht sweeeet smile (: i'll get ure pressie at th end of th mth okkkk ((:

hmm.. and then i got wasted agn last night. hey WAIT! actually not really.. at least i knew wht i was doing nd did nth silly jst tht i walked home with wobbly legs thts all hahaS nd mayb on top of tht, i couldnt stop being a merlion? LOL. anyways, gotta thank this person for always always tking care of me.
whts wrong with me uhh? KAREN TEO is not a bad drinker in th first place. nd nvr did get herself drunk before. you knw those sort of drunk like talking rubbish nd doing stupid acts? i dont do this. NEVER BEFORE. so i guess im still considered goood. for th least tht i havent done this aft drinking fo sucha long long time. probably th worst tht i get is jst forgetting convos tht i had thts all.
AND AND AND eversince i changed drinking kakis, i got myself wobbly legs aft every drinking session tht i had with him. urrggh! i gotta stop drinking v v soon. okay, mayb not STOP. but cut down ? nvr gon go home like this agn. outta 3drinking session i had with him, i only had once tht i successfully get home in a duper sober state, nd him? in a drunken manner. LOL nd this is whts gon happen fo th counting on drinking sessionS.
you really dont wanna know hw well these ppl im drinking with can hold their liqour. they re way tooo GOOOOOD. nd th way they drink is like bottles aft bottles, which i see they re killin' me =.= im nt talking abt whtever heineken bottles. but chivas nd all sorts. they are ABSOLUTE CRAZY drinkers i have here. nd amazingly they actually drink more than me, nd wakes up much earlier than me. HAHAHAHAHAS!
enuff of drinking KAREN...

my lungs, they gotta rest. i ve been abusing em' badly these days :((
nd hangovrs re the worst nightmares. headaches jst dont go away.. gggrrr!

guess i gotta rest early tonight. im getting old old old. BOOOOO!

LASTLY, LOVE MY BABY'MARCC TRUCKLOADS! *MUAHHHHH!

2008-03-19T04:11:00.002+08:00

okay, im so dumb. i deleted my previous template for this new skin. and i forgot to copy nd paste it down somewhre so tht i dont ve to make th trouble to relink evryone up. shit me!

ANYWAYS! im so P.R.O.U.D. of myselff! *superb*
its my very first time editing everything on my own. nd creating a dumb photobucket so as to paint my BEAU-TI-FUL photos on th wall of my blog. really really! w/o anyone's help, i managed to figure it out myself nd DANG!!! here it is, presenting my hardwork! LOL
honestly speaking, aint so difficult afterall. probably im jst too lazy in the past to actually manage my own blog. for so long, all th changing of blog thingy are all NOT done by me. credits goes to peiying nd cass for helping out. th least i did was jst to instruct them wht i want to see in my page. HAHAHAS. im really mean =x

i took nearly 3hrs to troubleshoot this shit. drive me crazy lo.
anw, its still not all done up. im still lack of a tagboard. oh gosh, i miss my old tagboard luhh!
anw jeff, i hope this will shut you up. look at me, so hardworking ehh. aft you complain abit of my blog. then i change all alrdy lo. now chio anott? hehs (:
andandAND NOT FORGETTING willie, thanks for being th first one to see this new page. nd ure compliments (:

i jst thot mayb somebody can teach me hw to lock up my old entries??

SO MY BLOG FINALLY REVIVED AGN!
if nt fo being sick nd tht i ve to hibernate at hm. i wouldnt actually bother to so anything abt it. LOL

btw, my old tagboard is taken out. so here's the reply to kel - im fine babe. i hope you re doing well too. cya arnd in schl hopefully(:

my bed miss me.
bye
bye!

2008-03-19T02:13:00.001+08:00

BLOG UNDER MAINTENANCE!

2008-03-17T03:32:00.002+08:00

i was so pissed,
nd i think jeff knows why.

dont wish to mention it here bcuz thre is no point spelling hatred into my beloved blog.
okay, im gg to change blog nd publicise it.
in case jeff thinks this blog is dead. whahahas, i update it for you eh. see only gt ure name in this post. (:

2008-03-14T02:30:00.005+08:00

my night yest was great, nd not.
my 1st visit to the arena. quite a nice place to chill with a great live band thre(:
main point is, i almost got wasted yest night. aft downing of champagne, teq shots, and the best of the best. B-FCUKING-52. this shot gave me a really hard time stand on both feets. you knw wht i mean? whre i have to hook my hand onto someone else so as to balance on both lousy feets? okay i shall explain wht causes all these boooze.

firstly, i woke up early in the afternoon to have movie date. i felt really restless as i only slept at 6am th other night.
then, i gt so upset ovr smth i dont wish to explain here. tht got me really really down, so much i wanna bang myself against th wall.
lastly, i met some v v good drinkers nd rich poks ovr at arena. nd they got me shots shots shots. which really shot me down entirely. obviously, i reached hm with a messy hair, sloppy look, unbalanced legs nd then i laid down nd spout nonsense to ****.
DANG! nxt morning whn i woke up. i regretted my life ovr th convo i had with ****. it was totally embarrasing you wld nvr wanna try trust me.
so.. i couldnt recall whtever i said to him. neither can i rmrb wht i did ltr on in th nigh at the arena.
right now, im so pissed with myself i swear i ll nvr tke b52 ever agn. you ***!

anwwww, grocery shopping with mommy jst now. woah, i got so many many junk foods hm. im a food lover. nd in a few days time, those food will be gone. nd im not too sure if im th one who consumed them bcuz in this house stays 2more pigs ;) you knw wht i mean?

then i nua-ed at hm th entire day. until time fo supper nd i met up with my loveliest cheryl.
urggh. clubbing was so wrong last night. its reallly impt keeping urself sober.
know why? bcuz you nvr know wht silly thing you gon do nxt nd wake up feeling stupid all ovr. sighhh, thts wht im feeling nw.
im trying to get ovr it.
nd someone told me, tmr's gon be a btr day. (=

myrants.
ciao~

2008-03-10T15:39:00.002+08:00

back aft so long.
i ve started working at km8 since last weekend. but skipped working this weekend bcuz of IT show.
woah, im all drained out bcuz of IT show. im really tireddd, all my energy is dry right now. finally i can have a good rest nd slept till mid afternoon. darn shiokkkkk!
IT show is been toooo overly crowded. foot steppings evrywhre. and omggg, i gt too much scratches on my hands bcuz of tht stupid wire thingy laaa. cb

my leg is aching bigBIG time =(((
but overall im quite happy. 1st thing, i earned big bucks i believed. 2ndly, i known quite afew frens who are really humourous, they re th reasons why working aint so bored in thre afterall. they are so hilarious la! thinking of them jst makes me wanna LOL.
also, i get to see people whom i ve been wanting to see. hahhahas

okay, so anyway i miss all my girlies!!! really much =(
these 4days i ve been working nd gg hm str8 to sleeep. darn lifeless
now, im jst craving for some good food like sakae sushi... urgggh. but evryone is working. ggrrrr!
guess im gg back to sleeep. my eyes are still half-opened.

darn, i miss you.

2008-02-28T15:25:00.002+08:00

suddenly have the urge to blog. okay, i wanna change my blog alrdy. this one seeems very dead. and also the stories built up in here are very complicated and upsetting matters. gotta start anew, and so shld this blog!

finally had my date with baby marc! whooopeee! so great =) caught the movie, fool's gold. its was not so bad. hot stuff! kinda a comedy la, shld go catch it too people!
after which, went ovr to baby marc's place for MJ, cheryl joined us too. had so much fun and laughters. nd yay! i won all of them =D been so long since i win la. cheers man! (((:

well, so much confusion within me. my mind is crashing, its failing me badly. my head is thumbing evrynight. painful as it is, but they nvr hurts like hw my heart does.
i dont knw wht im thinking. whether this feeling, you call it love or guilt? or is it jst me nt being able to adapt being alone yet? okie, maybe maybe.. i call this redeeming myself. no, urgggh. i dont know. obviously i dont love you no. neither is it you. dont even think!

humans they change, very fast. feelings come nd go. jst whn i realised th night is tking too long to end, dawn comes to save my night. i nvr did realise light actually helps bringing my mood up to another lvl. at least i dont feel so moody as compared feeling at night. now, i officially pronouce, IHATE DARKNESS!
nd i cant sleeep at night. im suffering frm really bad insomnia, really. goshh. i jst slept frm 8am-1130am. and i cant go back to sleep anymore.. see this is hw bad it is.
fucking hell.

you call this emo or wht?

2008-02-16T00:40:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU FOR SUCHA SURPRISE =)
LOVELY FLOWERS SENT RIGHT TO MY DOORSTEPS.
sucha pity, you weren't my valentine.
someone will love you better, this i promise.

2008-02-16T00:26:00.003+08:00

badbadbad.
been feeling so moodless in evryting. gg out for th sake of it, smile bcuz i hav to. nth much tht please me anymore. more of it comes frm my heart, they dont work it.
if only someone able to tickle my soft spot nw, i'll thank him for 3yrs.

nd whts worst is all my girls are so busy being attached. oh whre are yall?!

ohweell, officially pronouce single. makes nt much of a diff thou.
still, i feel quite empty deep down.
was it me or was it you?

nothing interest me anymore, maybe cash still does, they always do.

come back, make it one last time, one more round. we gon go merry this time around, shall we?

pride ruins it all. yah, my fault. in ure eyes, its always th case. isnt it?

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd
never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

p.s// i esp hate you, d.

2008-02-03T01:15:00.001+08:00

OHMYGWAD. i ve been shopping arnd town for th last 1 weeek. darn! its really tiring, seems like shopping doesnt entertain me anymore. well, at least not for nw. im getting so sick of spore's shopping mall. urrghh

so it was last day of schl on fri. mannn, a girl in my class was so sweet to do up a video fo us. really, she make me feeel impt somehow.
okay, gotta seperate with W25C. kinda sad, i ve nvr like th feeling of being seperated aft spending time tgt. esp now whn im being seperated frm fun classmates! like, i really need em' to survive my long hrs in schl. they re such impt people somehow. hmmm, gotta get used to it. well, people come nd go. but HEY! I WILL STILL SEE YOU PEOPLE ARND IN SCHL YEAAA? C'MON, VIWAWA.COM GON BRING US TGT RIGGGHTTT. LOLS, okay, wht nonsense? shut up karen.

been having late nights too frequent. guess i gotta go let my comfy bed sayang me nw. i need it so very badly. you knw, my bed has a spell? my frens all says so. "once lie down, cannot get up." nw you knw why im always late for sch nd everything else. ;)
so goodnight!

But it's so tiring, to feel the pain.
And it's so painful,
To feel that it's impossible to love, again.

2008-01-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

life's been so boring. been shoppping alot lately, i shld be happy yea? but im NOT! goshh, the things i wanna get is either too expensive or no size. wthhh. nvm, got myself 3pairs of heels today.

3more days to holidays, ohh cheeers people! imma gon work HARD, earn MUCH, nd finally play HARD before my 2mths of hols end.
oh, i might be joining my grp of friends for bangkok trip! anybody interest to join let me know OKAYYYY! very welcome (:

okoks, pewtures for shooooowww. whn i ve nth btr to do :( i needa learn to photoshop please. heehee, can do wonders to my prwetttty piccas boy!
TODAY- shopping
WED- shooping again
THURS- hopefully nth is on
FRI- to the salon
SAT- dye hair, shopping with my mister
SUN- round of shopping AGAIN...

wah sian sian sian, go BROKE TOG GIRLS!
ANGBAO, YOU KNOW IM SO SO SO WAITING FOR YOU? IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU, GAWD! I CANT WAIT TO RECIEVE YOU AND WELCOME YOU INTO MY SAVINGS BOY! BELIEVE ME, I LOVE YOU SEWWWWW MUCCCHIE WORRRRRR!

2008-01-17T14:12:00.000+08:00

see, schl has driven me mad. so much i have to make time off to feel like im doing smth productive tht is to... camwhore! ohgosh, gimme a BREAK.

i ve to camwhore so as to relieve stress from test nd more test! fucking dumb schl, giving stupid test for stupid reasons. stupid grades tht you can even get an A w/o meeting the passing mark. wooo? easy sehhhh. LIKE SHIT! this is of no kick. nd this sucks, no challenge no nothing. but jst for the making of reputation. oh c'mon RP, get alive.
nd muthafucking BUS161. imma so gon kill you for fucking getting into jam on my test dates every other time. oh BUS161 i trusted you so much to send me to schl on time but YOU? RETARDED DRIVER DOESNT KNOW WHT IS IT TO ACCELERATE YOU FUCK!
im so not gonna trust you at all. aft sucha long time of cabbing to sch on test dates, nd i finally thot i shld tke a bus to save cost, nd this ve to happen! SO, I TOOK A CAB TODAY AND REACHED SCHL WAY BEFORE TIME. OH-HOW-SMART-KAREN!
nvm still, being the oh-i-think-i-am-so-smart babe, managed to study only for 1/2hr last night nd off to bed is gg to fail th test she took this morn! blahblahblah. its gon be a miracle if im able to get out of yr1sem2. believe me? fuck you.

im so not in a good mood simply bcuz right aft my test, i feel smth dripping outta my pussy. nd guess wht? MS RED CAME KNOCKING ON MY VAGINA.HAHAHAHA! i ve no pad no nth. stupid cb, nvr give signal lah. =.=

its gon be sucha long day today. schl from 0830-4. rushing off for dental at a faraway place, then shop for bdae gift, meet fren for dinn. nd then home to hand-make the pressie. darn good shit. im sucha nice girl, giving hand-made pressie you lucky lucky assss! HAHAHAHA

i know, im crazy. this post feels retarded. oppps!
give me some alcohol, with blasting musics nd sticks of nicely packed nicotine nd i'll be fine.
gimme more gimme more!

OKIES, 4mins to presentation. ciao~
oh btw, i think i cannot live w/o colouring my brows brown jst like how you cheryl cannot live w/o eyeliner. like how val darling cannot live w/o ahyi. nd like how you people cannot live w/o seeing my drop dead gorgeous pretty face! boooooo

2008-01-15T10:00:00.000+08:00

woah! schl's been sucha chore mygawd!
pleaseeee.. will someone save me from this SCHOOL MISERY?!

nd guess wht? i think i will ve to retke my yr1 sem2. F-UP SHIT!

yest was quite a fulfilling day, had long chat with judith frm morning till noon for we ve not updates each other for like months nd months =.=
then back home to change, head over ben's place for some prawn noodles for lunch, they can whip up really yummmy dishes. love to recieve call frm ben cause thts whre my food supplies come in.
then off for some shopping spree at vivo with huiyun nd ben nd her sis, then met up with val for another round of spreee. and thre, 200BUCKS GONE YOU GOOOODOOOOO!
had some good chat with kenneth, got some stuff settled on both sides.
now, i can leave tht heavy thang off my heart.
tht guilt.

YOUYOUYOUBOY!

2008-01-10T19:12:00.000+08:00

Gabriella: I gotta say what’s on my mind
Something about us doesn’t seem right…these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try
Somehow the plan is always rearranged
It’s so hard to say
But I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay…

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am
I just don’t belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Gabriella: Don’t wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it’s just too hard…to watch it all…slowly fade away
I’m leavin’ today
’Cause I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay

Troy: What about us? What about everything
we’ve been through?
Gabriella: What about trust?
Troy: You know I never wanted to hurt you
Gabriella: What about me?
Troy: What am I supposed to do…
Gabriella: I gotta leave but I’ll miss you
Troy: …miss you

2007-12-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

caught up!
in a messs, nd so if i wld allow you into my life?
or close my door nd welcome freedom.

2hands cant hold.