i was so pissed,
nd i think jeff knows why.

dont wish to mention it here bcuz thre is no point spelling hatred into my beloved blog.
okay, im gg to change blog nd publicise it.
in case jeff thinks this blog is dead. whahahas, i update it for you eh. see only gt ure name in this post. (:

my night yest was great, nd not.
my 1st visit to the arena. quite a nice place to chill with a great live band thre(:
main point is, i almost got wasted yest night. aft downing of champagne, teq shots, and the best of the best. B-FCUKING-52. this shot gave me a really hard time stand on both feets. you knw wht i mean? whre i have to hook my hand onto someone else so as to balance on both lousy feets? okay i shall explain wht causes all these boooze.

firstly, i woke up early in the afternoon to have movie date. i felt really restless as i only slept at 6am th other night.
then, i gt so upset ovr smth i dont wish to explain here. tht got me really really down, so much i wanna bang myself against th wall.
lastly, i met some v v good drinkers nd rich poks ovr at arena. nd they got me shots shots shots. which really shot me down entirely. obviously, i reached hm with a messy hair, sloppy look, unbalanced legs nd then i laid down nd spout nonsense to ****.
DANG! nxt morning whn i woke up. i regretted my life ovr th convo i had with ****. it was totally embarrasing you wld nvr wanna try trust me.
so.. i couldnt recall whtever i said to him. neither can i rmrb wht i did ltr on in th nigh at the arena.
right now, im so pissed with myself i swear i ll nvr tke b52 ever agn. you ***!

anwwww, grocery shopping with mommy jst now. woah, i got so many many junk foods hm. im a food lover. nd in a few days time, those food will be gone. nd im not too sure if im th one who consumed them bcuz in this house stays 2more pigs ;) you knw wht i mean?


then i nua-ed at hm th entire day. until time fo supper nd i met up with my loveliest cheryl.
urggh. clubbing was so wrong last night. its reallly impt keeping urself sober.
know why? bcuz you nvr know wht silly thing you gon do nxt nd wake up feeling stupid all ovr. sighhh, thts wht im feeling nw.
im trying to get ovr it.
nd someone told me, tmr's gon be a btr day. (=

myrants.
ciao~

back aft so long.
i ve started working at km8 since last weekend. but skipped working this weekend bcuz of IT show.
woah, im all drained out bcuz of IT show. im really tireddd, all my energy is dry right now. finally i can have a good rest nd slept till mid afternoon. darn shiokkkkk!
IT show is been toooo overly crowded. foot steppings evrywhre. and omggg, i gt too much scratches on my hands bcuz of tht stupid wire thingy laaa. cb

my leg is aching bigBIG time =(((
but overall im quite happy. 1st thing, i earned big bucks i believed. 2ndly, i known quite afew frens who are really humourous, they re th reasons why working aint so bored in thre afterall. they are so hilarious la! thinking of them jst makes me wanna LOL.
also, i get to see people whom i ve been wanting to see. hahhahas

okay, so anyway i miss all my girlies!!! really much =(
these 4days i ve been working nd gg hm str8 to sleeep. darn lifeless
now, im jst craving for some good food like sakae sushi... urgggh. but evryone is working. ggrrrr!
guess im gg back to sleeep. my eyes are still half-opened.



darn, i miss you.

suddenly have the urge to blog. okay, i wanna change my blog alrdy. this one seeems very dead. and also the stories built up in here are very complicated and upsetting matters. gotta start anew, and so shld this blog!

finally had my date with baby marc! whooopeee! so great =) caught the movie, fool's gold. its was not so bad. hot stuff! kinda a comedy la, shld go catch it too people!
after which, went ovr to baby marc's place for MJ, cheryl joined us too. had so much fun and laughters. nd yay! i won all of them =D been so long since i win la. cheers man! (((:

well, so much confusion within me. my mind is crashing, its failing me badly. my head is thumbing evrynight. painful as it is, but they nvr hurts like hw my heart does.
i dont knw wht im thinking. whether this feeling, you call it love or guilt? or is it jst me nt being able to adapt being alone yet? okie, maybe maybe.. i call this redeeming myself. no, urgggh. i dont know. obviously i dont love you no. neither is it you. dont even think!

humans they change, very fast. feelings come nd go. jst whn i realised th night is tking too long to end, dawn comes to save my night. i nvr did realise light actually helps bringing my mood up to another lvl. at least i dont feel so moody as compared feeling at night. now, i officially pronouce, IHATE DARKNESS!
nd i cant sleeep at night. im suffering frm really bad insomnia, really. goshh. i jst slept frm 8am-1130am. and i cant go back to sleep anymore.. see this is hw bad it is.
fucking hell.


you call this emo or wht?

THANK YOU FOR SUCHA SURPRISE =)
LOVELY FLOWERS SENT RIGHT TO MY DOORSTEPS.
sucha pity, you weren't my valentine.
someone will love you better, this i promise.

badbadbad.
been feeling so moodless in evryting. gg out for th sake of it, smile bcuz i hav to. nth much tht please me anymore. more of it comes frm my heart, they dont work it.
if only someone able to tickle my soft spot nw, i'll thank him for 3yrs.

nd whts worst is all my girls are so busy being attached. oh whre are yall?!

ohweell, officially pronouce single. makes nt much of a diff thou.
still, i feel quite empty deep down.
was it me or was it you?

nothing interest me anymore, maybe cash still does, they always do.

come back, make it one last time, one more round. we gon go merry this time around, shall we?


pride ruins it all. yah, my fault. in ure eyes, its always th case. isnt it?

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd
never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

p.s// i esp hate you, d.

OHMYGWAD. i ve been shopping arnd town for th last 1 weeek. darn! its really tiring, seems like shopping doesnt entertain me anymore. well, at least not for nw. im getting so sick of spore's shopping mall. urrghh

so it was last day of schl on fri. mannn, a girl in my class was so sweet to do up a video fo us. really, she make me feeel impt somehow.
okay, gotta seperate with W25C. kinda sad, i ve nvr like th feeling of being seperated aft spending time tgt. esp now whn im being seperated frm fun classmates! like, i really need em' to survive my long hrs in schl. they re such impt people somehow. hmmm, gotta get used to it. well, people come nd go. but HEY! I WILL STILL SEE YOU PEOPLE ARND IN SCHL YEAAA? C'MON, VIWAWA.COM GON BRING US TGT RIGGGHTTT. LOLS, okay, wht nonsense? shut up karen.

been having late nights too frequent. guess i gotta go let my comfy bed sayang me nw. i need it so very badly. you knw, my bed has a spell? my frens all says so. "once lie down, cannot get up." nw you knw why im always late for sch nd everything else. ;)
so goodnight!

But it's so tiring, to feel the pain.
And it's so painful,
To feel that it's impossible to love, again.