1week off from schl. pronounced guilty, okay nvm. let it pass

surely been enjoying moments spending with dearest valerie. hahas, sounds like les but mayb we can really be seen as les by others.
we had always been doing stupid, weird, lame stuffs tgt. we can jst sit nd chill whole night w/o having lack of topics t gossip or discuss abt.

today was a day tgt doing silly stuffs like visiting th arcade nd sitting by th roads talking bout our diff phrase of life. wht we do during our secondary rebellious stage. all th naughty stuffs which today, we felt was not enuff fun done back then. but well, life is cruel, you definately can nvr turn back time. ohh gosh how sad.
nd so we learned t cherish evry min doing useful nd memorable activities tgt ((:


sometimes i feel like i ve really good patience. thou i am normally known as th super impatient girl on earth. cause i ll keep nagging nd nagging if someone makes me wait.
but this particular person definately pushed his luck. fucking owe money pay money, act like a man will you?
darn, is thre such logic like.. you borrowed money nd you havent return yet you re asking for ure winnings? thick skin or wht? i dont know.
i thot thre was sucha word "DEDUCT" exist. but oh well, not in his dictionary.
i been tolerating nd swallowing much of my anger down alrdy. nd people who knows nd seen me thru knows whts gg on really well. how much i wish i can keep this all t myself nd save ure darn face, but you showed how much you dont deserve it. nd i guess i have waited long enuff before i can no longer tolerate ure NONSENSE no more. here you go, hate me for being harsh. obey th rules in life, nd darn respect urself.
i jst cant imagine thre is this one day tht i wld leave you such comments nd th impression of you in my eyes are jst so wasted. nd yet haa, i still respect you as my friend. my words cld have been more precise nd detailed info, but no. thts nt wht my principles are talking abt. so darn the you-know-who-you-are, urrrrgggh!
haa, given up long time ago. play ure game well, cause people are watching.
words spread hell fast.

days like this are worth enjoying with dearest val. nd yest she made me th happiest best friend. she acc-ed me t clarke quay nd we club hop before settling down at THE ARENA. see tht smile on my face, they satisfy her (:

alrights, goodnights people.
work on weekends yet agn. so caught up with evrything, but yet im moving so slowly.
now, cash is KING. nth beats having more of tht in my life currently.
nd maybe jst maybe, romance round th corner.

lastly, i miss my fruities!
janey i nvr forget you lar, nvr will i ever.
help me tell ferfer i miss her tooooo.

backbackback!!

m'sia KL was not bad. had quite abit of fun, nd lots of laughters =D
hahas. bad thing is im always starving. kana sai, cause im always lazy t wake up early for breakfast at th hotel. LOL

anw, nothing much thre also.
kinda missed home. was so happy whn i reached spore! finally i seek comfort (:
wooo, aft a long 4days trip. i was so tired nd shag. th minute i reached home, unpack all my stuffs nd slept all th way till now? gawd, like pig.

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS, WHRE YALL ?
HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING FINE.
I MISS MISS MISS ALLLLLLLL! =D


i jst gave someone 4d no. nd he says if tio, treat me go drink.
if tio first prize fly me t hongkong t play!
wahhh... steady ballls! (:

alrighty, gon go catch more restt.
lovelovelove my girls!

yest night was pubbing at boat quay with cheryl's frens then hopped t zouk with my frens (:
trance made us so crazy. so we begged our way thru t phuture nd thre we gooo super song! LOL
realise th world is so small, my fren actually see cheryl in schl before. HAHAs
spore is so much less than jst a dot. darn, everywhre we go we see familiar faces. nd then, so many common frens arnd. woooo~ nd so rumours spread esp fast >.<

missed work today due t concussion. LOLs
omgomgomg. im waiting fo a call, nd am getting impatient alrdy.
shooo! off my mind right now! humrrphh.


OUT!

came home early frm schl today due t really bad stomach cramps.
slept frm 1pm-5pm, woke up had some cereals nd went back t sleep frm6pm-8pm.
i know im sucha pigg.

i had some dreams, both good nd bad ones.
oh mannn. suddenly i misses you so much, bcuz you re in one of th dream, th sweetest one.
havent been seeing you for so long, nd probably tht why i dreamt tht th schl finally released you nd we happily headed for dinn. HAHAs silly me.
ended of with a hugg, nd i was awaken by some ass who called me in btwn my sleep. darn!
LOL

alrighty, gon go prepare nd off t drinking session with cheryl (:


"Victory always starts in the head. It's a state of mind. It then spreads with such radiance and such affirmations that destiny can do nothing but obey."
- Douchan Gersi

havent updated for almost a week.
been so busy evryday ): nd nt t mention my BURNT weekends. sighhh
nvm, i wanna see money which is more impt thank any other things in life nw.
money = happiness! =D

anw mon schl officially reopens. but yeaaa. i happily skipped th 1st two days of schl. i feeel like a bitch!

monday saw me at town happily painting nails with steph at th lousiest manicurist shop. omg, so much for our gentleness aft evrything is done. yet right at th end of th day, my nails are all still cui -.- he calls me th roughest girl, yet says he gon bring me go do up my nails bcuz my nails are partly cui cause of him=.= but this time round i swear smth is wrong with th manicurist technique lar. gggrrr! so not worth it. hmm..
aft tht, steph left for her fren. nd i was choosing t go btwn two places. either t obar t meet th km8 beautiful people, or t find someone else. then, i made up my mind nd head t whre my heart calls out for. HAHAHA, jst kidding please.
was so shag i wanted t head home. but since i promised t go rescue him nd so i did (:
in th end, i got him in th whole worst state by pouring 5secs of martell right into his "trusted" open mouth for me. LOL! so much fo trusting me t pour water, but... lalala =p
dragonfly aft pubbing. so got home only at 6am, as usual.

slept like a log on tues morning. so promised willie we gon have dinn tgt tht night. chilled th whole afternoon nd met willie at xinmin's prata shop. in th end, we didnt even eat. jst chat chat chat all th way till i left t meet val dearest at hongkong cafe along with my lappy! all so excited yet evrything failed operating at mac. cbbbb HAHAs
bumped into issac thre, i see him evrywhre in hougang lar gosh! LOL
then aft trouble shooting for so long at MAC'D, finally we gave up nd took a ride from issac back t val's place. thank you nicest guy (: nd yeaa, i nvr forget our breakfast/lunch/dinner/supper hopefully its gon happen sooon whn we both are free yeap.
dicussion btwn me nd val abt our holiday trips ends at arnd 4. then i met willie agn nd he FORCED ME t WALK HOME! asshole. walk t 401, sekali he hungry. so we settled down for yummilious mee siam. nd carried on our walk. lucky thing he walked me home else im so gon whack him darn!
hahas anw good excercise lar. reached home only at 630. kana big time frm daddy nd mommy both at th same time, nd finally bedtime stories(:

woke up early on wed t collect my passport. feeling so shiok. hmm.. then met up with cheryl initially wanted t collect her hp at PS. but our fingers were darn itchy we headed t bugis for manicure. YES AGN FOR ME. removed tht ugly nails nd put on a new design. 1st time tried this kinda gradient pattern all thanks t cheryl (:
dinn was a treat frm cheryl at sakae sushi. darn shiok! =D
aftwhich, headed t meet him at bendeemer for another round of dinner/supper.
sorry willie couldnt join you guys at prata house due t having t wake up early for sch today.

weee! so finally i attended schl today. met my new classmates, well, they re fine people. least i wasnt freaked out by any of them(:
finally seeing my dearest seng guan aft so long of holi breaks. misses his crap! LOL

TMR GON BE A PARTY NIGHT! LOVELOVELOVE
cheeers people(:

APRIL FOOL FAILED ME. hahahas
kana cheated by my frens. nd i failed in cheating my frens back. darn th cycle! but well val dearest got cheated by me thou. it was darn dumb nd she actually believed. LOLs

so anyway MON was family dinner at raffles hotel. th buffet thre aint so shiok as compared t th previous family dinner. forgotten which hotel tht was. but th LOBSTER wasss woooooosh! SO GOOOD SO GOOOD. th other time thre was 7 of us dinn thre. this time round thre is only 6. cause one left th family. HAHAs. yeaaa. know who? LOL
well, family dinn was good. catching up with bro nd sis. seeing daddy more than 15mins. HAHAs!
ohohoh! nd wht adds on t th happiness is th new arrived car daddy got on monday itself also! darn shiok, its errmm if im not wrong toyota camry 2.4
was so much btr than daddy's previous precious which is toyota corolla Altis which now belongs t my sis, nd in may t my bro. hmm.. none of my piece ):
NVM, DRIVING LISENCE IM NEARING TO YOUUUU! WOOOOO, PASSED MY BTT aft failing my 1st time. darn panick!

aft dinn, daddy dropped me at kovan t meet up with val. guess me nd val darling has been meeting up let say almost evryday?? hahas. nd thre's new topic t talk abt evry single meeting. we re super gossipers luh!
then.. VALERIE acc me OUT! so shiok tht feeling. ahyi gege allows her out more often nowadays. which is sucha pleasant good news ((: x100
drank like mad once agn-.- but good thing i wasnt even half gone. was perfectly fine (:

WED was a busy busy day. cause on tues night smth really suay happened. was enjoying ourselves so much we played arnd. then!! th bad thing jst happen in ONE PUSH.
my friend fell down nd knocked her chin. she was yelling in pain yet i was laughing real hard at another corner. till i see things aint gg right, so i walked ovr nd asked in a laughing mode "eh, hahahas. wht happen? stand up lei"
then she replied " i think my tooth broke"
nd OMGGGZ, HER DARN TOOTH REALLY BROKE INTO HALF. worse thing its her TWO FRONT TEETH luh!
shitshitshit, i was panicking like a mad woman. nd yet she got up, nd laughed t herself. then carried on with her forever NVM mindset. she said, " nvm luh. i dont like my front teeth anw"
gawd, she pro positive thinker. HAHAs
nd omg, she looked darn awful with two front broken teeth. LOL
so wed was searching fo th best dental place t fix her ugly teeth.
darn tiring, fianlly found one nd doctor gave magic t her teeth. aft fixing, touching up, her teeth they looked perfectly fine (((: lots of smiles aft tht.

then WED NIGHT i went ovr t en lounge t find my fren thre. drank chivas which got me vomitting like mad! so bad i wanna head hm alrdy, my fren pulled me t zoukkk. gawd! thts why i skipped th pubbing outting with km8 ppl! so sad ):
i thot i was wasted, but upon reaching zouk i felt like normal, back t sober.
at th end of th day, my fren gt wasted. hahas!

THURS was btt, nd i passed! aft tht, went ovr t sentosa for my cheryl darling. she was in a down down moood. sighhh i was in her position before nd i know exactly hw it feels. head t kovan fo supper aft.

TONIGHT,FRI. gon party like a wild child agn. its MOS with cheryl (:
hopefully my low mood gon get high at night! =D

hit back in reality, you knw dreams are only meant for sleeping.

FRUITIES FINALLY MET UP! =D
VERY NICE TO SEE ALMOST EVERYONE THRE CEPT FO MOTHER QUEK.
visited grapevine t meet up with my chio-est friends aft dinn at ben's place.
realise ben is very nice, always inviting me ovr t hav dinn. nd make sure i ve my fill before i leave. but always petty lo, if i dont wanna go then she will nag nag nag. LOLs
oh wait, BACK T MY FRUITIES gathering. so it was great seeing em' aft so long. all of em' re either working or schling soon. jst hope we can hav more of such meetings t get tgt nd laugh our internal organs out alrights! most imptly cam-whoring plays a strong role for FRUITIES. keep all cheezy photos as beautiful memories ((:
all was good. aft which went me nd val went fo supper at hongkong cafe. then im off t zoukieee.


workworkWORK..
been burning all my weekends working. right nw, cash is more impt than anything. haa
gosh.. anw i been betting soccer quite abit lately. i know girls aint suppose t bet, bcuz they look awful. girls always at th losing end, grrrr!

anw work has been fine except some stupid mistakes i always make. got val into trouble by having t do refunds nd all. am sorry dearest, i will do it carefully nd most imptly consult before i do anything im nt sure 1st k. gon decrease th mistakes i make during work, nd i think i ve been doing okay since each time i work i gt lesser mistakes done nd im more familiar with th cashier system now(: for now, gotta learn t speed up.


woah, been having 3hrs of sleep each night. darn bad fo health gosh..
aft wed of zouk, i guess i havent had enuff fun tht night. i went t zouk agn on friday-.-
i wasnt really wanting t go, but phone kept ringing. one calls, another text.
darn, so i made up my mind nd went down cashless. bcuz i can be signed in, nd i ll be sent hm. so my fren says, no money jst come down. everything covered(: soo, cabbed down aft hongkong cafe with val dearest. so much i wish she will follow me thre, but she cant ): super sad. went down alone t meet tht bunch of crazy people. HAHAs
im glad i controlled th amount of alcohol i drank knowing tht i have t work th nxt morn.
aft zouk, visited th thai pub. didnt wanna go bcuz i really wish i cn go back early t catch more sleeps. but this particular someone kept asking me t stay. so yeaa.. stayed thru' out nd only gt hm at 5+am. nxt day gt me darn shag..


hmm.. so anyway, im nt sure if you gon read this. but i still hav t say.
i hope we jst stay as friends th way we are. aint we doing fine? all along i ve always only seen you as a nice friend of mine, being really sweet nd thoughtful all th time. probably i wld ve guessed this all along. but bcuz i knw we aint gon work out, so i tried avoiding many occasions of hanging out tgt so you wont fall deeper.
well, guess i didnt do a good job.
im sorry rejection is th last thing i wld ever wanna do, nd its my last resort.
ure sudden confession of feelings gt me feelin' really uneasy.
all i know is i've been in nd out of r/s nd am getting tired of lovin'
jst wanna lead a pampered life, nd start lovin' myself.
you re sucha nice guy but i gotta give you a miss. bcuz i know my best aint here with me.
right now, i no longer believe in myself.
dont waste ure time.

as i jst failed one ; nd i promised nvr gon have a 2nd one t suffer th same way.