Thursday, February 28, 2008

suddenly have the urge to blog. okay, i wanna change my blog alrdy. this one seeems very dead. and also the stories built up in here are very complicated and upsetting matters. gotta start anew, and so shld this blog!

finally had my date with baby marc! whooopeee! so great =) caught the movie, fool's gold. its was not so bad. hot stuff! kinda a comedy la, shld go catch it too people!
after which, went ovr to baby marc's place for MJ, cheryl joined us too. had so much fun and laughters. nd yay! i won all of them =D been so long since i win la. cheers man! (((:

well, so much confusion within me. my mind is crashing, its failing me badly. my head is thumbing evrynight. painful as it is, but they nvr hurts like hw my heart does.
i dont knw wht im thinking. whether this feeling, you call it love or guilt? or is it jst me nt being able to adapt being alone yet? okie, maybe maybe.. i call this redeeming myself. no, urgggh. i dont know. obviously i dont love you no. neither is it you. dont even think!

humans they change, very fast. feelings come nd go. jst whn i realised th night is tking too long to end, dawn comes to save my night. i nvr did realise light actually helps bringing my mood up to another lvl. at least i dont feel so moody as compared feeling at night. now, i officially pronouce, IHATE DARKNESS!
nd i cant sleeep at night. im suffering frm really bad insomnia, really. goshh. i jst slept frm 8am-1130am. and i cant go back to sleep anymore.. see this is hw bad it is.
fucking hell.


you call this emo or wht?

Saturday, February 16, 2008








THANK YOU FOR SUCHA SURPRISE =)
LOVELY FLOWERS SENT RIGHT TO MY DOORSTEPS.
sucha pity, you weren't my valentine.
someone will love you better, this i promise.
badbadbad.
been feeling so moodless in evryting. gg out for th sake of it, smile bcuz i hav to. nth much tht please me anymore. more of it comes frm my heart, they dont work it.
if only someone able to tickle my soft spot nw, i'll thank him for 3yrs.

nd whts worst is all my girls are so busy being attached. oh whre are yall?!

ohweell, officially pronouce single. makes nt much of a diff thou.
still, i feel quite empty deep down.
was it me or was it you?

nothing interest me anymore, maybe cash still does, they always do.

come back, make it one last time, one more round. we gon go merry this time around, shall we?


pride ruins it all. yah, my fault. in ure eyes, its always th case. isnt it?

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd
never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

p.s// i esp hate you, d.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

OHMYGWAD. i ve been shopping arnd town for th last 1 weeek. darn! its really tiring, seems like shopping doesnt entertain me anymore. well, at least not for nw. im getting so sick of spore's shopping mall. urrghh

so it was last day of schl on fri. mannn, a girl in my class was so sweet to do up a video fo us. really, she make me feeel impt somehow.
okay, gotta seperate with W25C. kinda sad, i ve nvr like th feeling of being seperated aft spending time tgt. esp now whn im being seperated frm fun classmates! like, i really need em' to survive my long hrs in schl. they re such impt people somehow. hmmm, gotta get used to it. well, people come nd go. but HEY! I WILL STILL SEE YOU PEOPLE ARND IN SCHL YEAAA? C'MON, VIWAWA.COM GON BRING US TGT RIGGGHTTT. LOLS, okay, wht nonsense? shut up karen.

been having late nights too frequent. guess i gotta go let my comfy bed sayang me nw. i need it so very badly. you knw, my bed has a spell? my frens all says so. "once lie down, cannot get up." nw you knw why im always late for sch nd everything else. ;)
so goodnight!

But it's so tiring, to feel the pain.
And it's so painful,
To feel that it's impossible to love, again.