Monday, April 30, 2007

i was not home for 4days 3nights.
first, slept over yang's place, then baby's and again to yang's house.
omg. was so shag evryday.

yesterday was our 2year 7mths anniversary... =D

town-ed on
sat with baby. nothing muchh, jst walked arnd. .. with my grumpy face cuz thre wasnt any movie. sigh~

on our way home, we decided to head down to "YOU TIAO DA WANG" nd hav our supper!
H
Ees! super fulllll. then back to baby's place. i realise i fall asleep super easily nd fast since schl starts. mannn! it was supposed to be baby doing this please. hurrrr


jst got back from town, shopping with my dearest huiyun. guess wht? i got nth home.. i bought 200buckkerooos out. and back with almost 3/4 nd i cant believe it babe. this is soooo fugly. rawrr! i only gt one jacket, nd a norm top. on top of tht, i gt a hair mask. woooot!


baby's first day of work. hope evrything went on smoothly, im waiting for him to be back hommmeee!
weeee!!



Friday, April 27, 2007

GOOD NEWS!

lil wy is out of camp jst yest.
wooot! his size is so much more built up compared to past.

LOL. his botak head. loooks so cute.
i wonder how will baby look like by then... with strong build, become big size, musculine =D and with
botak hair. **excitement**

h
hahas... wanted to surprise baby by poping by his place last evening. but failed. cuz he was alrdy awake by then. hmmm
headed down to serangoon nd met up with th rest for dinner.
afterwhich, i went home, while th boys headed to yang's place for MJ session
hope they enjoyed their boys gathering (=

currently in schl. having my break... *yawns* im dead tired, nd reluctant to work.
as
usual.. woke up late. but wasnt late for schl, why? cuz i took a 19bucks cabby to sch again today.
feels like as if im so damn rich -.-
but actually, im struggling thru cost.



&%$@#*!@$#%!



its gg downhill.



Wednesday, April 25, 2007

HEAR ME RANT FOR NUTS.
its not baby's problem, guess its me.

hais. tht incident strike into my head again... all over, ONCE again.
i know many will ask me not to think of it or be reminded of it again, but i cant.
its smth i cannot control. my thinking, it didnt wander, it jst read from wht i ve seen nd been thru.
it even distracted boyf's love for me. sigh~


i've been feeling down. i dont know why im feeling this way somehow all the time.
is it true? schl is gonna bring us apart?
i havent seen you coming over my place to acc me after my schl hrs.
to make yourself free for dinner with me, when im all alone.
why is it me, then u'll feel tired? i knw i cant blame, so i dont.
actually, i didnt wanna cal you nd ask you to acc me for dinner, cuz i guessed i ll get rejected.
but i jst thought, its a hope. ended up, its still th same. even thou expected, but i still feel tht sudden sadness. i know im sooo lame to be thinking in this way, but its jst a feeling hard to describe. its not abt this.
why doesnt you seem like you re interested to meet up at all?
is it tht we can only spend time tog during weekends? when we cld hav, even during weekdays.

how long ago was it tht you last shown your care nd concern for me?
th last time we chatted on the phone till late night, laughing our way thru dawn?
we held hands and scrolled along the beach talking of our future?
cam-whoring of our retarded looks, sweeet picas?
your last sweet msges tht made my smile?
i know sweet talks aint true or rather may not be true compared to actions shown.
but now, all i wished for is only those sweetie words from you tht make my smile last thru my night.
i want them, rather i think i need it to last thru.

urrghh.
-and this really made my heart sink a bit.
it's proven that when its one sided, its of no use.
still, i love you deep deep.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007


BABYYY!!
yeayea... i misses you so much.
this is 1 last photo taken with you ever since sec days.
we havent meet up for so soSO LONGG my dear girl =(
surprised to recieve my msg ? hehs!!
alrights... we shall meet up for movie or dinner very very SOOOON along with janey aiights?!
booo.

visited fer today. wah... unbelievable plsss. she is so injured, her whole leg is being wrapped up like mommy. whahahas! okiee, btw NO JOKE.
here's a note- STRONGLY DONT ENCOURAGE PEOPLE AROUND ME TO RIDE. PLEASE, HOW DANGEROUS? WATCH NEWS!
anyway hope my dear fer will get well soon (=
nd it will be back to slacking midnight days. hees!
fer, dont worry. everything wil be fine, esp your leg! *pray*

went along with JANEY! hmmm, long time since we met. even i changed a new phone nd she dont even know. how bad yea ? )=
butBUT, nvm. we had a great day tog. chatted all th way....... from mrt to cp foodcourt, then LRT, nd scroll to the hse. and all walks to bus stop. NICE (=
nd i love this feeling soooo darn muchh.
girl, u knw it. no matter how harsh my words may seem, you know my kind heart nd pure love for you (=
misses<3

i guess im being paranoid all over again. shurks!
get it off my mind RIGHT NOWWW please. can it jst stop haunting me? for once, nd for real?
hurrr. sick of it alrdy.

goodnight world.
goodenighto my love<3

Sunday, April 22, 2007

i wish:
schl is nothing but a JOKE.

majorly sulking i am. .___.
sigh~

its been nothing over this weekend, its jst the simple happiness of a company of baby all da time.
nd late night meeting/chatting with SK.
ndndND thts all. boo.

back home from stayovers at baby's place. he is th cutest boy i've ever seen on earth. he is always making my heart skip a lil whenever he goes: (whisper) iloveyou.
and he always say this when im in da midst of falling aslp, its a plus point*, its this moment tht makes his "iloveyou" even more comforting than any other hr.

i ve been sucha pig, always falling aslp so quickly even before my arms cld lift up nd hugg baby.
haa, nd darling... sucha owl!

im feeling depress, i didnt spend good quality time during weekends cept for th company of boyf.
ihateschl. its making me feeeling so tied down. i ll jst think of ... "omg, i gotta wake up early, why arent i in bed at this hr?" "omg, thre is presentation tmr." "omfg, i ll hav to be on time for sch everyday."
its so OMG really. i hate to work under pressure, thou i know i ll be able to deliver btr results in th sense. th pressure im facing is ... to work in groupies, its when i cannot do wht, as nd when i want it to be done. we ll hav to compromise all th time, cooperate nd whtnot?!
i feel, im btr off alone.
oh, nd if you havent know me well. I DO HAV FEAR OF PRESENTATION.
VALERIE GOH PEISHAN is gonna laugh upon seeing this, but still i hav to confess, im still a shy girl at heart. YESHHH, IM SHY OKAY. SPELL S-H-Y!
in da sense, i ve limited confidence infront of diff people. i wish you guys know me more, or dont know me at all, so i can speak with no anxiety infront of all of YOUYOUYOUU.
urgggh!

mahh, i ll hav to survive nd fight against fear everyday excluding weekends, for tht 8minutes.
im not exaggerating, but it does feel like forever to me whenever im standing right infront of th whole class, nd worst when i wld hav to speak, shooot me.
imma loser for tht.

goodbye world, thnx for reading every word of my rant.
my life is nth but imperfection nd unsatisfactory demands.
i wish its made btr.
my own.

goodnight yar 'll
goodenighto hun<3

Saturday, April 21, 2007

we didnt visit sentosa today =.=
i was so pissed with her since last night, glad tht we re fine now.
darling, i dont mean it okay. jst really so so frastruated luhh. hope u understand, nd definately u dont deserve it (=
jst, dont repeat the same mistake again, thank you very muchh.

woke up late, went down to centrepoint with baby, actually wanna help her sis with her samsung hp, its spoilt. but didnt manage to. cuz its closed down long ago -.-
waste our time.
walked over to ps, had our dinner. no nice movies, so didnt watch )=
went into th arcade for a round of temptation again,
gosh, its sucha addicition la.
ggrrr, this time round its $50 tht we used.
will post th lil soft toy pic up th nxt time.

over at baby's place tonight again.
its shopping with mommy tmrw!!
hees =x weeee!!

Thursday, April 19, 2007

schl was great today, cuase

firstly, i attended sch with energy. lols, thnx to my long knock-out yest.
secondly, i was complimented by my groupies today =) weee!
thirdly, i finally got my lappy casing. its a chore, carring it to sch evryday ya know?


baby said he is bringing me to SENTOSA on saturday! hehs! happy girl now eh (((:
so lets hope it will be a smooth trip with laughters nd romance. mmmm
finally get to sit on a cable car with him* after soooo long.

staying over his place tmrw, hopefully i ve the energy to maple with him for at least awhile.
i know he will love me if i do so in th past. hahas!
but i dont know now. geees!

im feelin all so lazyy ever since sch started.
sigh- u knw how it feels to wake up at 7 every morning?
.... it sucks.

goodbye.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

my grandfather is looking so much btr than th other night.
after he is admitted to hosp, evrything feels btr.

i saw him, nodded nd smile (=
he always look so cute with his silver tooth shining when he smiles. keke

nd nd AND... I SKIPPED SCHL TODAY. I WAS SO FREAKING TIREED.
oh, nd its jst the third day of sch. damnnn

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

grandpa, if it means you re tired of living, struggling thru illnesses nd pain, then go ahead nd leave. let god tke you in hand nd give you a peaceful mind. at least, you wont hav to suffer anymore.

you know how much it hurts to see scenarios like this? everyone asking someone to leave to th netherworld? to leave every worries aside nd pass on peacefully.

today was th worst day ever, its been so long ever since i need to hold back my tears nd put on a brave front. looking strong nd easy, comforting ppl when how much it hurts inside as well.
normally, grandpa sees me, he will nod nd smile... nd everyone believe i can make my grandfather drink water when he refuses nd etc. but today, i failed. i did not. my grandmother was like asking me to feed him drink, my aunty was hurrying me into his room, asking me to wake him up nd all, but none of them i did it right. i took a long time to wake him up to acknowledge my presense, nd he refused to hav a sip of water.

he jst went on into his deeep sleep, refuse to wake up, to open his eyes, to tke a look at everyone.
it seems like no doctors can cure him. its him, who gave up on himself, prolly he is jst too tired of living on, thinking tht he is a burden to all, or he is tooo tired struggling on since a yr ago.
yet the look on his face shows tht, he is confused. he doesnt seem like he wanna leave, cuz his face tells a hundred words. how much worries he hav tht he cannot bring them along with him.

knw wht? its only from th drama series tht i ever seen someone kinda unconcious yet tears flowing outta his/her eyes.
but today, i saw it with my own blood shot eyes. i saw how he teared while having his eyes closed tight, seemingly unconcious. we all know, thou he seems like this, he actually felt our presense, the way we held on his hand tight, calling his name, greeting him, telling him how bright th day is alr, nd trying to wake him up in th night.
he teared... he actually knew wht was gg on. his emotion still triggers deep inside him.
he cant bear to leave, he couldnt make up his mind. but yet he jst kept rejecting medicines nd anything tht will make him feel btr. mayb he is really feeling unwell.
i dont understand why.
perhaps only he knows wht he want.
nd till th one day, whtever decision he made, we ll strongly respect his will.

all i can say is,
im not ready to lose you yet.
not until you can leave ur worries aside, th whtevr is troubling you.
so please, please stay,
dont let god tke you away.
dont ...

Sunday, April 15, 2007

EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM.

th boyf called at late afternoon nd wanted me to meet him at central for awhile, so if everyone see my previous entry, u guys will probably knw we had a big fight jst last night.

him : hello, i meet u at drop-off pt in 20mins time.
me : huh? for... ?
him : aiyaa, jst meet luh.
me : but im having bad menstral cramp lei.
him : grrr, jst meet la.

end call.

i got myself prepared but due to severe bad cramps, i couldnt head outt to meet him, i was practically curling myself up on th sofa, totally no strength to move. th pain was a total KILLER. so i made him come to my place instead. but didnt, we met downstairs my block. he was feelin' hungry so i tried my very best to walk to th coffee shop hoping to settle down nd get some panadols to kill th pain. but drop out half way. i squat down in th middle of th pathway crying... i jst cannot make it luhh. baby offered to carry me home but i refuse. finally home, i vomitted th min i step back home, but in th toilet la of cuz. argghh, terrible pain. its shittt!

mommy came hm to tke cr of me. bought panadol home, nd finally... my pain subsided. phewww! i perspired like hell lot when im in pain, i thot i need an ambulance at tht moment =.= hahas! thnx baby for being here when im in such great pain. i wonder if labour pain feels th same =x if so, i think im thinking twice to give birth. haha. mommy cooked porridge for me nd baby for dinner =) i think i ve th best mommy on earth, knowing tht im suffering in pain, she hurried home from my grandma's place jst to see how im doing. grateful to her in many many ways =D

weee! so now, im feeling so much so much btr. im practically back to norm. hees!

oh yeah, so i was trying to blog bout how darling made my day today.
he poped me a SURPRISE. last night, he said he is not gonna get me anything(top or jacket) for sch anymore when he actually double pr0mised he will. cuz i was soo pissed off with him, i told him not to get me anything alr. nd when i asked him again if he is, he jst replied NO. he really pissed me off to th MAX last night i tell all.
then while i was deciding to piss him off today in return of wht he did to me last night, he actually made me love him a lil more =.= hahas! look, my plan is sooo reversed all cuz of hw baby's sincerity works. coool shitt ... always making my mood SWING BIG TIME. humphhhh!

sooo, he actually woke up early, travelled down to bugis, intially he was getting me this jacket. but nxt min i saw another nice top. but it was expensive for a norm t-shirt. so i didnt hav any intention of askin baby to get it for me. i jst want budget =)
but guess wht? this boyf actually got me th top i lik-ed. hahas! see how gleeful im now?? so f-ing happy lo. its indeed a surprise, cuz he actually gt me another one i nvr thot he wld. its so sweeet of him rightt? yep! im feelin lucky all of a sudden. compared to others, im easily contented =) nd i like this feeling. i jst know tht he actually went to a no. of places to get me "lil missy smth" top. he went over to bugis, then heerens nd finally wisma. =)))) smileyy!
but sad, i cannot wear it to schl tmr cuz he got a bigger size for me. he thinks im fat i think. hahas! so imma gonna change it tmrw after schl. hmmm

jst send him off not long ago. thnx for th surprise nd being here when im in pain. ilu*



TA DANG!

it says " LITTLE MISS STAR" ... i am =D




from baby =)


during my stay.
this is th boyf sleeping soundly. hees



day two, outt!
okay, i think i look old in this pic. nd i dont like. but baby look cute, so i post it.

day 1, bedok inter for dinner.
him- having his fav ... MR. BEAN
Your Love Style is Agape
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.
YOU, yes YOU.
th one reading my blog now with a guilty conscience knowing tht im gonna blog about how disappointed im with you right now.
no, nt jst right now. i dont knw whre i ve collected so much of a patience nd yet not giving up.
its jst ... nt th right time. i know wht im doing, every single bit i know. its three nd a quarter heart down.

no words can describe how im feelin' now. why is it yet again a disappointment? a smth you can keep up with again? whts with those empty words ... you double promised its gonna work?
i ve so many questions mark up my mind now. i hav no answers to them. you took me in again nd again nd stabb hard into my heart. tht passionate blind heart.

im not crying, not at all. im so afraid, i dont know why arent i tearing at all? i dont like this feeling. it feels sooo numb to everything. i don wanna be numb to anything, i dont want. cuz it goes to mean im letting go bit by bit every now nd then. NO! it shouldnt be this way. i still wanna feel more tormented, torn apart. i wanna know i ve been thru when im practically through with destiny.

all i know, im to blame. i spoilt this child to th extend i no longer own any rights to thee. nd thre i see myself being in a state of helpless. nt in a way being bullied. but seriously not cherished. i ve been repeating myself too many times, i dont think this is gonna affect u at all.
but yes, im taken for granted. i nvr did self-doubt in this.

u need lectures. not only lectures, u need more than jst these. u need to feel it in u how im feelin right now. cuz it seems like u nvr understood ur mistakes but lookin proud with them. nd god knows its not fair to me.

i ve so much to say, but im lack of th strength. i need rest

Saturday, April 14, 2007


HELLOOOO ALL' ((=
i ve been staying at my love's place for th past 2days. nd its been a great stay! except for "him" gaming when im aslp =.= how idiotic right. humphh!!
orientation on wed was ... somewht alright laa. schl is a bore i realise, i think i ve nvr liked schl if nt for th company in schl. actually my schl sucks. even my teacher says so, he said " after 3yrs of poly, you guys may step outta sch telling everyone RP sucks. nd if you tell us, we 'll tell you, we UNDERSTAND." see... even my teacher thinks likewise as us, students. hahaha! he is really tarnishing th schl's reputation la.
first time being in a mix schl. th feelin is so ..... WEIRD i wld say.
i cant really behave like hu KAREN truely is. i dont knw why. th min i stepped into th class, all i did was, staring at th floor, looking into th screeen nd evrywhre except for my classmates. haha!
my grp consist of 6ppl, 3boys, 3girls. nd they will be my team mates from now on. doing presentation tog, discussing PBL tog nd bla bla bla. hopefully, not much tog. whahaha! they re nice ppl actually ... (= jst a lil weird in two of em. keke
went out with darling to bugis jst nw. supposingly our motive of gg is to shop for clothes. baby saved up nd intending to get me clothings for schl. but, unfortunately nth caught my eyes, so .... gt nth home. hais. but darling said he is gonna shop for my clothes himself nd pass it to me on sun (= hopefully.
was feelin' so f- unhappy, nd darling decided to bring me to some grocery shopping! weeee...
i ve nvr felt any happier when coming to grocery shopping with baby =D i jst love th feeling. we bought glutinous rice, green beans(for greenbean soup-my darling can really cook this dish. superb!), cambell soup ( spellin err), banana milk, n lastly, titbits. hooo! started consuming them since 11pm till jst. super fulfilling, this feeling is gooooood. heh!
i ve some photos to post bt his lappy cannot bluetooth those pic. dunnoooo why.
darling always says im a pig =.= cuz i often eat nd sleep eat nd sleep. ggrrrr!
met up with SK jst nw. chatted nd ate mac (= jst imagine hw much i ate tonight. LOL
judith tan, i hope you re feeling much btr. do tkecr please.
nights ALL.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

slept super early last night as was feelin' super tired.
nd th 9 o'clock seems to last so long before i can go to bed cuz i told myself only to sleep at 10 in case i wake up in da middle of th night again -.- i often does whenever i turn in too early. hurr!

slept early nd woke up at 0830am this morning. nd i cant get back to sleep after tht )=
cheryl called me up, nd we decided to hav mac's breakfast! yayness.. its been so long i last tasted hotcakes baby! ooo00o! she came over my place to slp after breakfast while waiting for daddy to get ready nd out to get lappy.
headed to funan IT mall, cheryl joined us.

walked arnd for fcukin 3hrs nd jst to get th one i initially alrdy wanted-.- so afterall wasted those time walking arnd, checking out other brands.

daddy settled evrything while i headed to town for more shopping today =D cheeeze!
had thai express for dinner. yummmylicious ! slurrrp ;)

now im back home, feelin so tired after a long day.
orientation is tmrw nd if i hav a choice, i wld rather not go but i CANT man cbbb.

havent seem baby for 2days nd im misssing him so darn mucchhh. ferlynn yeo, i dunno how you can tahan?! o.0 *bows*

Monday, April 9, 2007




IT'S BABY ART PIECE FOR ME! =D

its so sweeet of him, lovl<3

anyway its my second time editing this post, cuz baby surprised me with another edited pic! yeeepiee!

i'd nvr wish to part if it means you re meant to be my otherhalf.

awwww, i look so... plain today.



the days when baby stay-ed over. he is boyboy's good friend [= so cute when they play tog. hahaha! *hugs them*


whn i stay-ed over his place, jst woke up. hurrr. . . my face says it all.


its a jade! in a snake shape. prettty? more amazing one below o.0





booo~ look at this--- in a shit form. also a jade, in pooo shape.






im back from a lil shopping today.


watched movie with yang, des, nd cheryl. THE NUMBER 23.... not nice not nice. its soo lame to me. -.-
cheryl left early, then off to super with the same ppl but this time with keen nd diana.

keen drove me home (=

im feeling so fraustrated. so much stuffs left undone. *shopping, buying of laptop, preparing for schl mentally nd spending more time with baby before schl starts. nd im left with a week to hav fun. argggh! now i hate schl, even before i get to start schl-ing.

all the best to yang in army. hope evrything goes well for him (=

Sunday, April 8, 2007


so many problems in my current life.
i know, whether i like it or not, i will hav to go thru it.


sch is starting in no time.
i nvr knew schl will happen in my life again.
well, happy or sad?? i dont know. all i know is... im into a course which i ve no idea wht its all abt. wht more im gg to study abt it. its like i know nuts abt th introduction nd yet im into it -.-
wht to do? poor results lead me to nowhere. i shld be glad a schl accepted me, cuz many ppl wish for it bt yet get disappointed. [=

am i really happy abt my current life? do i really feel wht is true happiness?
i dont knw, bt i dont think so.
my surrounding frens... i dnt see them into true happiness either. it may be an assumption. but in my eyes, i ve real high expectation for happiness. true or false? it depends on how you lookk at it.
im taking it personally.

i jst hope time will do its job, to find my answer.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

goodness f'ed-up day last night.
ggrrrrrrr!

guess wht?
so i didnt stepped into dblo AT ALL. nd i practically queued up outside thre for like 3 nd a 1/2fcukin hrs? screww his mom big time!

silliest thing i ll ever do. i tell you, its gonna be my 1st nd last time qeueing up into a club for like fcukin hr.
bcuz i was too eager to club,
bcuz i thot i saw a glimpse of hope of crashing into dblo in mins time,
bcuz i thot it wld be a waste if i were to drop outta th queue after standing for so long,
bcuz i thot it wld be a sad thing if i were to miss th party th boys had inside,
nd bcuz i thot i was soooo clever nd waiting wld be wise.

soooo, bcuz of all the "BECAUSE" , i happily stood outside for 3 nd a 1/2 hr. waiting for no entry.
so pissed, so fraustrated, so so needa poooo on tht guy's fcuking face.
nd also so wanna jst club outside th club. goshhh! i swear im so gonna get a membership into a club as soon as i hav th money to.

omFg! thre goes my night. . . th long awaited night.

okay, bt th good thing is ------------- im gonna hav a girls night out! (= weeeee*
cuase th plan was supposingly like this, either
-i club with baby nd frens then i cant club with my girls another time.
-or i choose nt to go with them, nd then i hav my chance to club with my girls.

so god made my decision (= tht is nt letting me into dblo to club with th boys, bt benefitted me to club with my girls. think he knew i wld love this plan, loL!

whtever it is, i was really pissed last night! really VERY.
i almost slapped tht damn dumb guy, almost went insane jst by waiting, nd got almost outta control when tht dumb guy starts to TALK! knn

sigh~ so cheryl nd me didnt get to club tog last night. she is feeling guilty cause she told me she felt like she is cursed. cause whenever we plan to club tog, we unfortunately cant. the first time was unhappy, nd now another kind. goodnessssss

baby was feelin unwell due to excessive alcohol yest. shot too much la, shot with yang luhh. humph! took care of him, stayed over his place, nd fought today.
spent 30bucks on th cab fare jst to get problems resolved. im glad we made it thru again.
dnt forget ur promises nd love.

im gg off to hav supper with cheryl.
hopefully ba cho mee is open today.
tralalas!

Thursday, April 5, 2007

darling is happily sleeping away. bet he is tooo tired.
hahaha! anyway am so glad he stayed over my place for th past two good nights (=
its so pleasant having him jst slping below me, th min i opened my eyes, he is th one i see FIRST.
mmmmm, this is (=


monday was mahjong-ing at wy's place yet again. cause he is gg into army sooon. seldom be chances for mj session alr, nddd cause he wanna hav a so called "last look" at this friend of mine. wooot!

went for movie at vivo on tuesday, watched TMNT. nd its kinda boring, cause the storyline really doesnt tally with th cartooons i watched on tv when i was still a small kid. the ninjas aint tht pro compared to wht i rmrbed of them. so ya, 3/5 for TMNT.
darling came over to stay after tht.

today, woke up at late afternoon, went down to hav our lunch. brought boyboy along cause i really think he needa excercise nd go on a diet. so these few days i ve been bringing him down for a walk nd gave him lil food for dinner. nd th funny thing is, he still had leftovers eh. mayb he also realise he needa slim down for his damn health sake. haha! i was surprised when he had left overs when i given gave him half of wht he ate in th past. ssshhhh, if mommy or daddy knows of it, i sure kana lectures. cause boy is spoilt! mommy always thinks he is very poor thing when he dont hav enuff to eat, so kept having such mindset nd carry on feeding him up till today, look at his damn SIZE. =.= they re like nt helping him nd is actually ruining his health nd putting his life at risk la. nw nd then he always tio stroke. super scary nd poor thing lo. hmmm

anyway after lunch, we went home to slack. nd headed to kbox with cla nd wy in th night.
didnt sing much=waste of money.
dunno whts wrong with me. think i was feelin ps luhh.

okay, shall go back to bed nw. i crawled outta my bed jst to blog. hehs
nights ya' ll

ANYWAY ITS DBLO TONIGHT! FINALLLYYYY......I CAN EVER STEP INTO A CLUB again.
bt obvious its with fallen luhh.
ok, no complains before .................

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

here are some photos i taken after th photoshoot.
anyway the photoshoot i hav, its for hair. hahaha! alrights, its my first time, nd i feel good abt it.
someone doing up my hair for 3 diff shoots, doing up my make-up (i know it looks horrible)
and i tell you th make-up worn on me is so damn thick. my complexion looks superb in the pictures. heh!
darling got mascara nd lipgloss on!! so girly lo
so, i ve three diff hair-do on for photoshoots. but the pictures below only shows my last one. cause in th meantime i didnt tke any photo.

oh, my brows on drawn like someone using crayon to colour a picture. tht thick!


my hair is way more curlier than wht it is in th pic. the hair-dresser wants very extreme "pong"!
so you can imagine how pong it is now? to the extreme all my hair was above my shoulder. tht fluffy lo!


dearie looks really good when he had his long sleeve shirt on. so man.... awww



anyway im lazy to upload more pictures la. hmmm, wy is gg into army soon nd thus baby is spending more time with him now adays. im somehow, in a way, rather, neglected.

im dead.




with no strength left to give. i ve given my all
does karma really exist, if it does, why am i left with all this to suffer afterall?





no fault. my fault. all my fault.
i ve no more to confess

Sunday, April 1, 2007




so i went over to my grandma's place jst now, nd spent almost every min with this spastic darling of mine.
she gave up meeting his boyf nd prefered spending time with me.
had some heart-to-heart talk nd realised i really knew her inside out since we played from young.
we drive each other mad when we fight,
make each other cry when we were stubborn,
complained to mommy evrything we did to each other when young.
but still, played nd fought our way to whre we re standing now.
BOND-ED cuzzie r/s which i heart sincerely.
was having this very very bad diarrhoea jst nw. gosh! it hurts so badly, i thot i was abt to die.
killing aches.
so now this silly girl of mine got into some emotional problems btween her past nd present. she is set into confusion.
nd is now really really mad abt being excited with whtever is gonna happen to her. haa! let time decide ur fate will you? nd stop brooding over th past.
im worried you know. hmmmm
anyhows, whtever gonna happen, or which ever route you choose to go, no doubt tht i will always be behind you (=
you ll be flying off to shanghai tmrw. i wish you all the best in this learning trip. and do tkecr alrights.
LOVL<3
2004 the us....
my complexion looks so good then compared to now. nd NOTE: this pic is w/o make-up.
quoted-frozz.

Every girl dreams,
that oneday she will find a boy that does these thingsfor her. even the smallest action canhave the BIGGEST impact in someones life.



• give her one of your t-shirts tosleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk toher.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she's the only girlyou see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she needs you.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
•sit down nd talk to her.
•hear her speak.
•enjoy the silliest thing she wld do jst think'in tht it may make u smile.
•softens her down when she cries.
•express ur love with not words.
•pop by jst to say "hellooo"
•respect her choice tht makes her happy.
• when she's sad, be thre for her.
•bear with her when she goes crazy for you.
•tke the pain no matter how hard she slaps th door onto ur fingers.
•let her vent her anger on you, still, smile nd say "go ahead"
• let her know she's important.
• let her take all the photos she wantsof you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tellher.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved anyone before


thts wht a girl wants.
wht a girl need.
whtever makes her happy in ur arms.