yooohoooo~
its HOLS im cheering for.. hehs!
no schl fo tmr, nd so on... TWO PERFECT WEEKS. ilove<3

think i only attend sch for 1 day this week, mannn, guess im gonna get debar real sooon *clasp my hand nd pray*

you liar! says you gonna shower me with your love, but yet it jst lasted fo approx. 2 days nd a half.
its always like this, say it at tht point of time when you needed me to believe evrything gonna work out, then nxt, when im into tht few words you said, nd let you free, im being caught up.. once again, nothing new. i ve been like this fo th past a yr or so. but so wht? wht am i suppose to do, this is folly love isnt it?
say you love me
shows you dont.
or am i over paranoid?
or mayb.. its like wht you say, im nuisance to doubt your love fo me..
or i am jst right?
who knows?
dont bother then, let it jst pass each day on its own.
its a 32mths r/s we re talking about.
not easy, never it is.

MAMBO tonight!

is it true tht when a relationship grows older, one tends to forget special occasions?
such as anniversary...

i dont know, but my otherhalf forgotten all about it for a subsequently 2months, im really disappointed.
i havent forgotten, in case you re wondering why i did not wish you, this is bcuz im wondering if this special occasion has slipped ur mind.
nd yes im right. up till now, 2345hr, you have not wished me, nd i guess a miracle of you ringing me up jst to wish me is almost impossible.
1st time, 2nd time, .....5th nd more will come.
since th 1st time you forgotten abt it, i alrdy knew today will not be any different.
i only wished.

looking back, i felt you loved me more in th past. th diary you wrote, blogs nd sweet stuffs you did fo me, is very much missed today.

i hope old times can catch up with us, but i too, know its not easy..
so, i ll jst take one step at a time, no more HOPES.

life is simplier this way does anyone denies to agreee?
i hereby wishes evry couple to stay loving<3


before th clock strikes 12..
here is,
UNHAPPY 32MONTHS ANNIVERSARY.
NO LOVE.

goodnight world =(

shopping at vivo yest with my janey bitchy. yes, like finally -.-
we rushed around at vivo like two crazy bitches bcuz we went down late nd realise thre are so much to shop yet its alrdy 9pm.
no more dilly dally... we walked BIG STEPS.

yes, thre was GREAT SALES.
but NO sizes -.- wtF
i need to get more accessories, esp from GUESS- woooeet!
we had ben&jerry's fo dinner. HAHAHA! shiok=) been so long since i tasted good quality ice-cream. yummmmy balls!
enjoyed my day =D

afterwhich, met up with SK, went down to bedok tog, mac-ed! as always...
slacked, surprised bby by dropping by w/o him knowing.
ltr he call me, " eh... you go whre also dunno how to tell me one hor"
then im like, " yarlah, im at ur hse mac wht"
him " orrhhh, u wanna help me tabao?? ;)"
me " yah, okie -.-"

love sleeping under bby's arm,
with him cuddling me thru my lala land.
is th sweetest dream on earth. *smoochhes*

CHEEERS!



righttts....
im leaving in a min or so.
down to tamp mall to have dinner with my sweets =))
more smiley coming my wayyyy!

smth tht spoils this post-- " i've always disliked you since eons ago, you ll see wht happens when i grow."

im so bored at homee now, all my frens are working. urghhh! no friends =(
skipped schl nt bcuz im tired, but i woke up late.
i actually slept at 1030 last night, leaving bby alone =( sorry, was really tired..
nd you didnt kiss me b4 you go to bed!! HAHA.. think i woke up at 12+ nd is when bby was jst about to sleep i guess, saw him tossing nd turn.

th day before...
slept over bby's place, cause we got a soccer match to catch. AC MILAN VS LIVERPOOL.
i bought AC MILAN win. nd sooo, i WON. very very lil money. boooo
slept fo an hr and gotta pull myself outta bed to schl, tht feeling sucks.
so god damn tired.. i even slept in sch, my first time falling into deep sleep. HAHAS!
well, im glad me nd bby caught th match, bcuz its been long since we spend quality time tgt, nd finally we did.
jst th two of us, went down kopitiam, found a place to sit. wahhh! i super super long havent touched half-boiled egg nd milo fo supper/breakfast alrdy.. nd insisted i shld have a feel of it aft so long. NICE =)) YUMMMMMY!
watched, chatted. hahas! we suay suay sat with liverpool supporters, nd we didnt dare to cheer when AC goal. thts bcuz bby showed me a video of this young kid who won dota vs people, nd eventually he got beaten up aft th game by a no. of boys nd him alone. so sad lo =( nd i wonder why people out thre are so childish. damn! grow up lar, isnt it jst a stupid game?? lose alrdy then go beat th winner, isnt it silly? lame shitts!
threfore tells th story why we didnt dare to cheer, haahas! sekali they not happy with us, then come whack us how? sial lar.. so innocent.
nd so we jst smiled quietly =)
walking away with great laughter. LOL

bby stayedover last night =)

ANYWAYS, I TOOK PICTURE OF THT HAPPY DAY, WHICH I SLURP MY HALF BOILED EGG =)

valueyy must be really jealous upon seeing this picca, bcuz i guess she loved THOSE times yea?


bby so into th match

nd th happy girl =D



bby said i look like a frog yest when i was lying down with legs shown in th pic. LOL
nd so he took photos.


presenting my boyf's bestie, nd my lil member of th TEO'S

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DEAREST MOMMY! <3loves.

mmm, sweetest news- darling stayed-over fo 2nights str8 =) hees!
first night, he came over to stay after me quarreling with him over him neglecting me offer.. nd second night he came over aft his work to hav dinner which my mom invited him to MUST COME, so... mom went, " you go bathe 1st, dinner will be ready soon " nd soo, the darling went to bathe nd settled to sleep over =)))
its all abt smiley bby. kooool


skipped schl today.
went to catch a movie with my fellow classmates, 4guys nd me 1GIRL. wth mannnn!LOL
SO ANYWAY, thumbs up for pirates of th carribean 7/10
the 3pts deducted cause of th super long hrs. its 3HOURS in al. gosh... my arse almost forgotten how to get up -.-
moreover it was kinda longy.
but great afterall =)

after movie, daddy fetched me from MS, nd headed down to hav dinner fo celebration of mommy's bdae.
food was bad, family gathering worked out thou =)
after food, went over to compass point along with the family fo a walk.
-.- didnt walked arnd much. only got 1top.
dont like to shop with the whole family, loves it only with mommy cause nobody will hurry us, stress us by standing nd wait. gggrrrr! nvm luh. forget it, actually wanted to make full use of th parents money, but failed. saddd-ED.
hehs, im mean. boo.

got a cake, HOME-ED.
bro nd daddy were quarreling a min ago.
siannn... so fierce fo wht? dont shout la, might as well use ure fist yea?
nd i shall be th one to call POLICE. nanna nipoopoo!
so, dont force me.
make me the queeen, ahahaha!

LOVEMYMOMMY TRUCKLOADS.
KNOW WHT? GUESS I HAV TH BEST MOMMY ON EARTH
ND I REALLLY DO APPRECIATE EVERYTHING OF HERS, HER NAGS ESP.
I MAY SEEM TO DISLIKE EM' SUPER. BUT YET, ACTUALLY W/O THOSE,
I WONT BE WHO I AM TODAY, OR W/O ALL TH KNOWLEDGE ABT HEALTH ND BEAUTY.
SO THANK GOD, I OWE ALL THESE TO DEAREST MOMMY =)
IF IT MEANS TO GIVE UP ALL IN LIFE IN EXCHANGE FO A LIFETIME OF MOMMY SHARON AS LONG AS I LIVE, I WOULD.
ND I WILL NEVER TAKE ANYTHING IN EXCHANGE FO ANOTHER MOM, BCUZ ABSOLUTE NOTHING WORTH MORE THAN HER VALUE.
SHE MEANS PRICELESS TO ME.

DID I MENTION TO YOU ALL I HAVE ONE LUNATIC IN CLASS?
cause i have met one, right in my class.
introduction: his name suresh .R
only 17 yet a very smart working brains.
always a buddy to me in schl =)

but silly enuff, he is a lil mad inside him after watching the movie, 'no. 23"
th story as to wht's happening to him is..... urggh, let th movie explains all luh.
for those hu did not manage to catch this retarded show, then LUCKY YOU.
waste money plus quality time. fo people who likes this show, TO HELL please. HAHA
SO ... th story is all abt the NUMBER 23, which kills. th main chac thinks abt 23 all th time nd relates evry no. people, places to figure 23 outta them, which is mathematically logical, jst playing with trial nd err in a smart way. i guess th author of this movie either loathe or love maths. hahas!

relating to this movie, my fren here went insanely crazy over this no. as well
he told me th girl he likes, name has 23 chars. nd th birthday x+/- whtever no. =23
OOHHH. HOW COINCIDENCE EH. its all abt damn maths silly!
nd well, fo th whole of th day, he did nth but scibblings on th whiteboard all th names, letters whtsoever tht successfully calculates th number 23. LAME -.-
I kinda entertained him a lil, till i somehow cant. i snatched his marker, calculator nd evrything he used away from him. HAHA, seriously he may not sound tht interesting as it is written here. but, IT IS VERY AMAZING HOW HE DID IT in class. funny/lame/LOL/everything luh.
th whole class was amused.

him; posing.
letters A-Z nd its no. beside.
A=1B=2 nd so on...

him, taking good care of his art. HAHA


ITS NOT ALL ONLY THIS, ANOTHER WHITEBOARD WHICH I WASNT BOTHERED TO GIVE ANOTHER SHOT.

alrighty, feels so longy.
anw, to update, i did not attend sch once again.
ppl must be tired of hearing this, but .... urgggh! i seriously am not bothered okay.

went to th salon, nd back home.
it feels like im th most tired human on earth, all daylong. CB

i feel like i hav low self-esteem, smth i need to cure.
which takes time, loads of it.

im fat
im rough
im fugly
im crude
im one with no confidence.
=)


to love; not.
& in case you re wondering,
you re evrything to me.

PHOTO BLOG.
=)))))
PHOTOS ON MY COUS BDAE CELEB AT CLINIC/MOS.
IT WAS PURE JOY =D









baby EVENTUALLY stayed-over! YIPEEE!




i miss my fellow girlies.
valerie and all.
FERLYNN WILL YOU GET UR ARSE UP TO COME OUT WITH US?

wooo, blogger is back to norm.
no more screwed up.

but my life is screwed up! LIKE TOTALLY. actually i didnt realise, not up till today.
*SHOUTS*
its getting on my nerve, she is, he is, they all are! everything is.
how th hell am i gonna resolve personal conflict, i cant seem to fight thru my very own stage. how am i gonna face th world then?
my period is coming, this contributed to more emotions. DOWN DOWN DOWN ND MORE OF IT.
cept for yest night, celebration of cous's BDAE, it was cool, superb. but i left early, was too tired to carry on plus i hav test this morning. so i meant a good girl =)

sigh~ what th f happened to me? i wish to be happy jst like any of you out thre, but why isnt god fulfilling my lil wish? from then till today, im still stuck right here. at th spot of brking hearts. GAWD! arrgh, thnx for everything.

whre has tht cheerful one everyone calls her th happy-go-lucky dude gone to?
th one whom everyone drop a testi to say, "HEY! YOU LIL CHEERFUL THANG!"
th one who is nt able t ans qns ppl pop like, "wei, you dont seem t hav troubles do you?"
tht dude who passes everyone with a smile.
nd adds on everyone's bright day into a even brighter one.

these are what you call, THE PAST. 2years back i was, 2years later i failed as one.

managed to crawl outta bed to have my test done this morning. nd then, couldnt make it, was soo tired. i travelled all th way to boyf's place aft finishing th test. hoping to see his smile upon seeing me. but... well. its always not a good thing to hope.
nth much happened.
whacked, cried, kicked up a huge fuss, nd settled not with a kiss.
lunched - hom-ed - nap - TV-ed - dinner - nd homesweethome.

i thot tmr will be a better day bcuz bby told me he is staying over my place this friday which means tmr last week. nd guess what? he just told me he dont rmrb saying this, nd he dont plan to stayover tmr night.
i can only say i clearly rmrbed every single convo we had, including THIS PARTICULAR ONE. moreover im nt smart enuff to come up with such *promised* story. i wont be so dumb, i cld hav jst told u str8 i wanna u stay tmr, i dont hav to tell you we had it planned nd then to hear disappointment.
fcuk this, im ignoring everything.
live my life in denial then, anyway evrything is not true.
so whats with reality? JUST A FCUK-ED LIE?

KAREN! fcuking wake up your silly/foolish/dumb/nonsensical ideas lar cb.
NO ONE IS GONNA APPRECIATE YOU, YOUR PLANS, TH WHO YOU ARE, YOUR KIND CONCERNS, SO GIRL, FCUK OFF.
yeah, fcuking myself off.
i deserved to be slapped awake, i haven got my lesson have i? or too many times i got too numb to it nd it became one of my BAD HABITS? to swallow all unfairness nd look forward to another fcuking lie.
i admit, it became one of my bad habits, to tolerate nd look forward to another tolerance challenge.
TRY ME AGAIN, its no longer gonna work.

*TO LOVE, OR TO BE LOVED?
state of confusion sets in to ruin me.

Create your own Friend Test here
lalalas,, have fun.

its so silly of me. sick yet still went out thinking tht i ll cheer some people up.
but no. jst my side of thinking.
didnt smile upon seeing me, made me felt so not welcomed.
and i went off alone afterall.
does it kills for you to say smth you knw i wanna hear, nd upon hearing th 3letter word i will be happy? its not force, its jst a favour. thts all, tht simple. you dont even wanna grant.

i shld come to realise tht, its not things tht you do will be appreciated th way you think they shld.
jst wake up my idea lar muthafcuker.
jst made myself felt so xtra.
plus th fact, i always THOUGHT nd think cum guess th kinda result will be like.
nd surprisingly imma always wrong BIG TIME.
siannnn.

i think im beginning to grow stronger nd perhaps much more independent ever than before.
is this news supposed to be a smiley or =(
up to you.

this time round, its my turn to fall sick.
nd it feels so terrible to be down with fever, inflamed sore throat, cough, body aches,headache.
nd... isnt it enuff? hmmm lucky there is baby here to tkecr of me.
i felt so blessed =)


so my day goes like this: town-ed with bby nd frens on friday night. well, missed sch on fri.
tht cb teacher makes me feel so not interested for her class, cuz i sure gt c grade again. so, being th very typical student, i skipped sch cuz i see no pt. stayed over bby's place on fri, fall sick on sat night, felt like having mee tai mack at late night, so bby went to seng song nd to my surprise, i thot he gonna buy me cambel soup for dinner, but NO. he went to buy stuffs to cook for me. nd at 1st, he didnt wanna let me knw wht he is preparing for my dinner, i peeped nd peeped, i jst couldnt figure out wht he was trying to do. nd he didnt allow me into th kitchen. HAHAS! tht feeeling is good, cool. cuz i knw im waiting to be surprised.

TA DANG~ it was mee tai mack. initally he told me he cannot get any from coffee shop, nd i was like... huh? wth. so actually, he was planning to cook this ai xin dish lar. LOL
nicely prepared, with a cup of water.
closer view.
th very sick me =(
him* preparing my ai xin dinner =)


jst got home after seeing a doctor. it was 51BUCKEROOOS! cuz no choice, its a sunday nd no other place to see a doc alrdy, nd i was still feeling very unwell. bby brought me home, then to th doctor nd back home again.
imFINALLYHOME!
i hate myself being a burden to bby, thou i know u dnt mind, but i feel bad having u waking up numerous time in th night jst t check on my temp, pour water for me, pat me to sleeep.
nd the very piggish u suddenly become sucha light sleeper last night, i jst touched him a lil, nd he woke up. plus, i think i did tht more than 5 times in 5hours? evry hr i will wake him up nd tel him how im feeling. being very patient him when im sick, much appreciated =)
sorry for troubling u tke cr of me. hmmm, im feeling much btr now after tking th med.
hopefully i ll be able to attend sch tmr.

this poor boyf here is sick =(

my whole day is so packed. first, i attended schl =) then after sch, visit my grandpa at tts alone.
afterwhich rushed home, to hav my work done nd dinner. then nxt, hurried to bby's place, im worried larr.
he was telling me how unwell he is, thou i was really really DEAD tired, but.... being sucha reputable good girlf has its why larr. hahas! so i still travlled down. im so surprised i actually travelled much by public transport today. weeee! improvement acknowledged =x

sliced apple for him, got panadols for him, cold wet towel to minus his degreee while watching tv. he like king sia. lying down, and all. i was like th slave, hahas! no larr. darling loves me, so i dont mind nd i know wht i ve done is appreciated, thts th most impt thingy.
watched tv till i almost fell asleep. bby woke me up so tht i can go home b4 12 strikes.

hmmmm, home-ed now. ready to go to bed.
tiring day. hopefullly i ll be able to head down MOS tmr night with cheryl, or not.. it wld be my ....... 2873654 times pang seh-ing her. nd she named me PANG-SEH QUEEN RECENTLY. HAHAS!
loveyou still<3


i'll hav your small note kept in my wallet nd bring it along wherever i may go.
THANK YOU DEAR (=
ya know, thts sweet. truely<3
<3you.
GOODNIGHT WORLD
GOODNIGHT DEAREST.

MORNING/AFTERNOOON peeps!
yes, am home on a weekday's afternoon, this goes to say i skipped sch again!
3cheers fo me friends, i ll be outta sch i think real sooooon.
nd back to those slackin 3a.m(S) mid.

BIG thang happened yest, i knew i was so firm with my decision nd tht nth will change my set.
but you asked me to, thou th words didnt trigger my heart abit at al, cuz we both know ur words nvr change its letter-ings, same old sentences.
which i ve seen thru em a many too many times.
but still, it was supposed to be a long run. nd i thot it wld be jst perfect if i give myself, r/s, you another chance to prove its existance is worth.
we love, nd let love.

you could hav read thru me, with another life of effort.

met up with SK last night, drinkdrankDRUNK at neighbourhood.
home-ed at 2+
gt scolded by bby... as i ignored his gentle reminder of "i hav gt schl tmr/today".
my schl, i care less. JOKE! imma lil girl who needs freedom nd LOVING like any girl wld ask fo.
K.O after hanging up with bby.

morning was a mess. my alarm rang, phone calls coming in, msges squeezing their way thru and MUCH MORE yelling of my momm.
it was so much so NOISY. i rmrb-ed they were all SO LOUD.
but i successfully ignored ALL OF EM. pheeww*
nd gt back to never never land.

on a lighter note, ONLINE SHOPPING IS FUNFUNfun.
nd th plus point is, its GOODcheapSALE.
makes a good deal, jst took longer time to get to u. boooo.

visiting my granddaddy ltr along with xy.
afterwhich i wanna head to bugis fo alil more shopping.
hopefully this whore here doesnt comes home empty handed (=

with the eyes shut / looking though the rust and rot
pours over the rusted world of pretend.

dont give me sweeet nothings,
or, be faraway from me.

pride sucks when it comes to lovee.

If you hide your pride and let it all go on then they’ll Take from you ‘till everything is gone.
If you let them go you’ll be outdone.
But if you try to catch them you’ll be outrun.
If you’re killed by the questions like a cancer.
Then you’ll be buried in the silence of the answer

gotta agree, its very much true about pride.

If I Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless

IMPERFECTION

if you re afraid to let someone see ur weakness,
take heart' nobody's perfect.
besides, ur attempts to hide ur flaws
dont work as well as u think they do.

im in schl right now, and feeling bored... lalala
so here are some pictures on my way to schooooool (=
i havent been sleeping early, and my eyes feels so heavy all the times. feels like its swollen. HURR.
YUCK!

cabbed to schl today. im always latelate!

you knw? my hair loooks so spoilt =(

pekcek LOOK. its jam!


my way to sch yest. BUS thre, kool shitt.. am late for 45mins, almost an hr.

and this piggy can still be unknowingly *deeeeeep in her sleeep* HAHA!

O00RIGHTS! I HAVE GOT TWO DOGGIES AT HOMME NOW! weeee* JUMPS!
I LOVE THIS FEELING SUPER MUCHH, like missing the dogs in schl, waking up in the morning to see the newbie being caught in a cage. LOL.
no luhhh, not so mean. as in i really like this kinda feeling of having smth new at home. hehs! esp dogs. do they cheer you people up? bcuz they seem to be able to cheer me up like, REALLY WELL =D
anyways, its only gonna stay with us for A MONTH. and he will be gone YET AGAIN, another parting. sigh~ and yes, one thing i dislike about this whole thing is the parting part. its like jst another girl girl, spotty's story. pretty sad i feel, thou right from th start u knew its only gonna stick with u for barely a month, yet u cant help but to develop feelings for them unknowingly in jst a short while.
if im not wrong, the dog's breed is bigel. correct spelling?
whtever it is, its only a yr old nd its almost the size of boyboy... noooo, shouldnt be. its really fit, can run, jump very very well. when u leach him up, its as if he is pulling u along, not you. hahas!
he has gt this long bod. nt like boy's length comes frm th width, while casual's (new baby) length comes frm height. LOL.
it's breed is also meant for a police dog. so should be kinda fierce, but surprisingly, casual doesnt bite nor bark. one thing i know, in the morning, he cried out really loud. those kinda yelling cries coming from him when i was having my shower. nd it was so bad, i gotta open up my door, feeling naked and shooo him up.
daddy seems to get along with casual quite well, except tht casual is way much more active than compared to boyboy.
and boyboy cries the minute we get too into casual. its only the first night, i haven felt anything for casual yet. we ll see how it goes....


its raining here, how nice if i were to be able to sleep in such weather ='(
bet baby is enjoying it nowww.
he is suchaa PIGHEAD! boo.

break time. ciao~

HAPPY LABOUR DAY! =D
hols feel so good nehhh. hees

out to town with darling. he suppose to look smart in suit, but he look like he jst gt retrenched, btr still if accompanied by a bag of mac nd newspaper. HAHA!
had our dinner, and andAND... once again, no movie for th day. two days spoilt.
went to arcade, walked arnd, play games.. but lasted for only 5mins while baby? 30mins.
hahas, im sooo lousy in arcade games luhh please.

nowadays, so boring. mayb schl is good. occupy my time nd thoughts with pretty fun classmates arnd (=

back home like super early. cuz baby's leg swell, due to the toooo tight worn shoes.
poorthing =(
was unhappy thou but i understand la.

sleeep tight peeeps
lovebabe deepdeep<3
goodnight world.