o.0 lalalas~
i finally got my burberry wallet! =D
its a gift from my friend thou. so my plan to get myself the first genuine branded wallet is gone. boooo! but nvm, whtever it is. thank you sooo much ((:
i really love it very very muchhh! efforts appreciate, cause i know it was sucha brain-wreaking game for you to choose/guess which one was my love. HAHAHAS

been busy with nothing much recently. movies, late nights drive, exploring diff places and more food trips! tht explains why i ve recently gained 3kg )):
determined to lose weight before i get used to seeing tht needle pointing at _ _kg.

anyway i ve been very annoyed with people being too concerned with my schl lately. those tht ve been fucked by me bcuz you people asked whether im in schl, whether i still attend schl or whtever regarding me and my schl. im sorry, i didnt mean to fuck you guys up. it may be bcuz i ve been too stressed up ovr schl work and how to pull up my gpa and all tht might be th reasons to why i jst wish you guys leave me and my schl stuffs alone. before i get really pissed off, please do stop interfering. sighhh, thank you.

oh wells, finally caught my sex and the city! now im awaiting for th time to catch get smart, and 10 promises to my dog ;)

im darn shag right now. i only had 2hrs of sleep this morning nd im off to work.
cab to nd fro, its darn xiong i tell you. its as if i alrdy used up th money i earned today. LOLs



we ve shared so many secrets last night, it was a great chat thou. good mutual understanding. thou thre are alil misunderstanding here nd thre. but well, at th end of th day they re doubts being cleared up. which actually feels good, in a way more carefree.
i wanna break free. but i cant, bcuz we re neither here nor thre. *quoted*


haisss. i miss my sister! *smooochesssflyyyallthewaytofloridaandmeetmysislipppps* LOVE<3 ((:

CORRECTION CORRECTION!


IM SO WRONG WHEN I SAY "RIGHT NOW SCHL IS MY PRIORITY"
quoted from the previous entry.

im so freaking wrong. darn how much i hate schl right now
im seriously into considering of quitting schl. its no joke, not a casual remark anymore.
i jst cant stand it.
i ve SIMPLY ZERO INTEREST in logistic.
WHAT THE FUCK IS SUPPLY CHAIN MANAGEMENT? HURR?


dont tell me to bear with it and carry on with schl bcuz this seems impossible for me.
im not someone who is able to tolerate feeling lousy and useless in schl.
whts with striving for academic when i ve simply no interest in wht im studying?
its no longer the problem whether i am made to excel in this or not. its whether i ve the fucking interest or i dont.
i could ve done really well and chiong for grades if wht im doing is of my liking.
dont tell me i ve no fucking choice as to study or not. bcuz I HAVE!!

MY LIFE, MY WISH. DONT GUIDE ME YOUR WAY, CAUSE IM GON SUCCEED MY FUTURE, NOT YOU!

i just cant excel in this course, not bcuz im simply dumb. BUT BCUZ I SIMPLY AM NOT BOTHERED TO.
ITS NOT A MATTER OF WHETHER I CAN DO WELL IN SCHL OR NOT. BUT WHETHER I HAVE THE HEART TO DO IT OR NOT GET IT?!


at the end of th day, im not making full use of myself. true?
MUTHAFUCKER.

4days of IT SHOW is a chore. having to talk nd talk non stop. recommending th best of the bestest product is lame. sporeans are way too greedy sometimes. TOOO MUCH!
want things which are cheap and of best quality =.= sibei ngiao!
but anyway i ve the best time to slack for this show. i dont know why but i kept running arnd looking for frens, having many many smoke breaks in a day. and im jst not kept busy.
so my sales for the 1st two days was pretty lousy, or rather really really bad.
heard tht th in-charge wasnt really happy with my performance so i decided to chiong sales on the third day. nd yeaaa.. whn you want it, you ll make it.
nd so i did, i was top salesgirl among us on tht day. great! i only went for 1smoke break since 12-6pm. nd i practically non-stop looking for customers. phewww* hard work pays off ((:
in-charge was really pleased nd i see it frm his smile. hehs!

had two weeks of break from km8. first was bcuz of IT show, nd this weekend i jst wanna enjoy much (: take a break, away from work. feeels really good actually.
and my poor bestie gotta slog her life thre working full shift always evryday. wished i cld help but really restless nd i hope she understands(:
hopefully km8 hires another full time cashier fast. else km8 gon kill my best friend really sooon )): i misss you dearest. we gotta go hongkong sooon.



-and this really made my heart sink a bit.


Im a designer who is going to build a house at an area where a similiar house was onced struck down by earthquakes.
Despite the earthquakes and empty knowledge about building a house, i still took on the challenge.
So i started to design the building.
And yes.
The building was beautifully designed,
a good head start.
I was very happy and confident then.
But now when it comes to building it,
ive totally no experience at all.
So, i went around desperately looking for help.
Great helps,
but i know those helps will eventually go away after i used up my capital.
So i got to think of a plan B.
Yes,
thought of one.
So i started working on it.
I decided to complete a room first,
at least there would be a place for me to live in even if the rest is still incomplete.
Used up all my money to build and beautify the room but i am happy because ive got a beautiful room.
However as time goes by,
earthquakes repeatedly happened out of the blue,
damages here and there.
And the room no longer holds the beauty it used to hold.
Everything in there seems to be "old" and "broken",
and somehow seems to be collapsing any moment should another earthquake comes.
And the only way is to move out.
But i really love this house alot,
its like a part of me already.
I really wanted to renovate it,
beautify it further.
But ive run out money and energy to do so.
I tried building stuffs that is within my capability now.
But i realised im always shortage of something to completion.
So it was never completed.
But still,
i chose to stay.
And so now,
all i can do is to pray for a miracle to happen and that the next earthquake will never come.
Else,
im prepared for the worst.

Nothing much about me,
im just a dreamer who loves that house of mine.

*Eventually the earthquake came and destroyed the house,
now im at loss.

its not a good wed today. my wed are usually quite happening cause its th ladies night nd yea if you realise im always out at this hr on this day of th week.
but not for today ): had quite a bad day since morning.
work up late for work, nd only realise i forgotten t pack my working attire in my bag aft placing my bag on th table at km8's. gosh, how dumb. nd bcuz i was munching my yummylicious pizza breakky all th way in the cabby ride i did not bother t open my bag t check anything. =.=
so i got quite a ugly face frm mister ken upon telling him th news of leaving my attire at hm. sighh wht a morning greeting darn annoying.
so i was supposed t go hm nd get it. nd i was jst thinking t myself if i were t cab to nd fro its gon cost me my day's pay. not worth it.
so i suggested t ken tht i go ovr vivo nd get a top will do, nd he agreed.
started work at only 1 nd off work at supposedly 6 but nopes, 5. so lame -.-

sucha boring wednesday. headed hm aft work nd slack all th way.
tmr marks th beginning of my hectic week. will be workin at suntec's pc show frm tmr-sunday. under panasonic booth, hopefully its slam nd time passes very fast while we earn alot =D

realise evryone arnd me are happily in a r/s. is this karma or wht? in th past i was th one who is always sticking t my boyf nd neglect my frens arnd me. nd now, im being neglected. hahas, actually not so lar. at least bestfriend still spares much time for me ((: but i think this is seriously karma, i rmrbed janey told me before nd i agreed. LOLs
right now, im always spending quality time with my parents, like watching tv programmes tgt is a kind of quality time spent i feel. at least i talk t daddy much often than before nd go out for dinner with them more often now. ohhh nd right now im like their only child. bcuz sis is away, so far far away in florida, nd bro jst left t bangkok for business trip 2days back. so yeaa, all attention span on me!! i wonder how single child survive ?? so darn boring w/o my siblings arnd. i jst miss th way my sis disturbs me evry single day whether im sleeping or awake. nd finally i get t msn her aft 1 freaking mth. darn i miss her so much, i actually felt emotional while having a chat with her. as usual, she kb alot. hahas but i find it quite lovable suddenly. im "wht-an-ass" right. LOL
anyways i jst hope she is doing good ovr thre cause im really worried. nd i hope time flies, really wish 3mths will pass in a blink of eye nd there i have my sis back with me ((:


seeing my cousin being so in love and living in her lil oasis of bliss, i feel so happy for her. its this kinda feeling tht really makes me miss having someone arnd me. i miss being hugged, being treated like a princess. being in love is th best thing on earth i'll ve t agree.
singlehood is good at different times.
right now, im satisfied with life. or mayb a lil not.
its a lil love nd hate r/s i ve for my lifestyle.

this might sounds wrong to many, but my priority as for now is S.C.H.O.O.L
HEEEEEEES!

alrights gotta go t bed now before i start waking up late nd having memory lapse agn.
nighty t my beautiful friends!

i feel so productive today ((: 2thumbs up!
i woke up early, had a very fulfilling breakfast nd off t schl's library for some impt reference book. a lil disappointed tht my faci wasnt arnd nd i couldnt use 1more day t catch up wht i ve lost during my 'missing schl days' sighhh.
nvm, gon have a lesson with him tmr. hope i can learn whtever i ve missed out within hrs. im jst gon try try TRY.
then, i felt irritated by my very cui hair nd so headed ovr t boon lay for a hair cut. afterwhich went ovr t town t collect my phone aft servicing. i dont feel like my phone is any btr now thou. can you believe its still auto charging aft i switch off th plug? this is retarded.

ohh nd finally i caught my show!! "MADE OF HONOUR" i know this sounds silly cause this show been out for quite some time alrdy. but anyway imma happy girl aft movie! =D
been wanting t catch this show since its trailer! nd well good enuff its not a disappointing show since my expectation was really high ((:
aft which had a late dinn nd left home.

wht i mean by being very productive today is bcuz im all alone today except for breakky nd movie/dinn. im all alone accomplishing wht i ve to today. feels darn shiok. th best part is i did not tke any cabby ride for th whole of today. i travel by trains nd bus nd trains nd bus. its darn boring nd tiring bcuz all my journey are really long ones. i actually took a 1hr ride frm boon lay t town. goshh.

1st was bus t schl
train t boonlay followed by a bus t th salon
then bus back t interchange nd train t town
nd then train frm town t amk hub
lastly bus home.
woahhh. amazing! very very goood karen. keep it up(:
you ve saved a whole lot of money today(:
nd also fully utilize public transport nd a 24hr.

okay now im shag like a cow. phewww aft a good shower, its time t love my body ;)


Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind
Just wanna dance and have a good time

Take this for just what it is


let me have my life th way i want it t be.
thou paths might be wrong, least i learn nd finally eventually i will take th right path back home.
i ve heard enuff nd seen too much stares.
i ll jst go mad one fine day.

its daddy's birthday today.
so as usual we had family dinner tgt, w/o sis this yr.
she missed out really delicious delicacies.
we had really good shark fin's soup for the start, and bird nest t end off with. each on our own :D
whenever it comes t having bird nest, i will always be th last t finish it and yet th first t name my order. HAHAS! lick evry bit of it into my stomach. hehs!
anyway we had our dinner at thai village, they have surprisingly good shark fins.

was really shag out lately. friday and saturday nights are very late nights for me.
then comes sunday 12hrs of work at km8 kills! jst training my eyelids t stay open for longer hrs. goshh.

ohhh btw daddy got me a new phone. W960i :D
not sure if its his bdae today or mine. LOLs
and i got him a nauctica polo tee for pressie, guess he likes it as well.
i always love surprises like this, a new cell phone works best!
sometimes daddy can be very mean, but whn he is nice, he really very steady.
jst told him i needed this phone few days back nd efficiently i got it today ((:
shiok!

im in love with the song, santa monica by savage garden!

i didnt get my burberry wallet in the end ):
i thot it wasnt really a NEED for me so i missed it. sighhh why was i not born a rich kid?? darnn ):

i dont know if you re gon read this.
to you know who you are: i really dont know wht you want. you say smth yet do a different thing. if you dont mean wht you say, jst please.. keep it to yourself.

imma happy girl today! good food nd a new phone! weeeee (:
oh nd i met up with wy today, finally he is back frm south africa nd im so glad he texted me th first thing he land in spore. got me chocs which says, P.S YOU MEAN THE WORLD 2 ME (:
im so touched boy ((: always the one who makes my smile.