Monday, March 31, 2008

hit back in reality, you knw dreams are only meant for sleeping.

FRUITIES FINALLY MET UP! =D
VERY NICE TO SEE ALMOST EVERYONE THRE CEPT FO MOTHER QUEK.
visited grapevine t meet up with my chio-est friends aft dinn at ben's place.
realise ben is very nice, always inviting me ovr t hav dinn. nd make sure i ve my fill before i leave. but always petty lo, if i dont wanna go then she will nag nag nag. LOLs
oh wait, BACK T MY FRUITIES gathering. so it was great seeing em' aft so long. all of em' re either working or schling soon. jst hope we can hav more of such meetings t get tgt nd laugh our internal organs out alrights! most imptly cam-whoring plays a strong role for FRUITIES. keep all cheezy photos as beautiful memories ((:
all was good. aft which went me nd val went fo supper at hongkong cafe. then im off t zoukieee.


workworkWORK..
been burning all my weekends working. right nw, cash is more impt than anything. haa
gosh.. anw i been betting soccer quite abit lately. i know girls aint suppose t bet, bcuz they look awful. girls always at th losing end, grrrr!

anw work has been fine except some stupid mistakes i always make. got val into trouble by having t do refunds nd all. am sorry dearest, i will do it carefully nd most imptly consult before i do anything im nt sure 1st k. gon decrease th mistakes i make during work, nd i think i ve been doing okay since each time i work i gt lesser mistakes done nd im more familiar with th cashier system now(: for now, gotta learn t speed up.


woah, been having 3hrs of sleep each night. darn bad fo health gosh..
aft wed of zouk, i guess i havent had enuff fun tht night. i went t zouk agn on friday-.-
i wasnt really wanting t go, but phone kept ringing. one calls, another text.
darn, so i made up my mind nd went down cashless. bcuz i can be signed in, nd i ll be sent hm. so my fren says, no money jst come down. everything covered(: soo, cabbed down aft hongkong cafe with val dearest. so much i wish she will follow me thre, but she cant ): super sad. went down alone t meet tht bunch of crazy people. HAHAs
im glad i controlled th amount of alcohol i drank knowing tht i have t work th nxt morn.
aft zouk, visited th thai pub. didnt wanna go bcuz i really wish i cn go back early t catch more sleeps. but this particular someone kept asking me t stay. so yeaa.. stayed thru' out nd only gt hm at 5+am. nxt day gt me darn shag..


hmm.. so anyway, im nt sure if you gon read this. but i still hav t say.
i hope we jst stay as friends th way we are. aint we doing fine? all along i ve always only seen you as a nice friend of mine, being really sweet nd thoughtful all th time. probably i wld ve guessed this all along. but bcuz i knw we aint gon work out, so i tried avoiding many occasions of hanging out tgt so you wont fall deeper.
well, guess i didnt do a good job.
im sorry rejection is th last thing i wld ever wanna do, nd its my last resort.
ure sudden confession of feelings gt me feelin' really uneasy.
all i know is i've been in nd out of r/s nd am getting tired of lovin'
jst wanna lead a pampered life, nd start lovin' myself.
you re sucha nice guy but i gotta give you a miss. bcuz i know my best aint here with me.
right now, i no longer believe in myself.
dont waste ure time.

as i jst failed one ; nd i promised nvr gon have a 2nd one t suffer th same way.

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